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Angry??

OldBones-Larry
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I had a friend stop by this afternoon to visit. 

They made a comment that I was just so complacent about the health issues I have had over the last six years. They also said that if it were them they would be mad as hell about things.

I got to wondering if that was how everyone saw me during these times.

After a few minutes I had an answer for them.

No!

I am not complacent about the things I am going through.

I am really p*ssed about these things.

However, I cannot change a single one of them.

I can accept the things that are happening and still be mad about them.

I might seem very calm about things, but, inside I am cussing up a blue streak.

It is acceptable to be mad and upset about what sickorettes have done to our bodies.

I had to choose between letting anger control me, or accepting things for what they are.

I chose to not let anger and bitterness control me.

I deal with these things and go on.

I will make the most of what I have and go on.

Just one more thing in my journey.

One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.

Larry

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I am a male that underwent coronary artery bypass X3 (triple) on 10/22/13 at the age of 55. I was living on about 20-30% of one coronary artery and my left heart output was only 20% to 25%. I spent a week in the hospital after surgery and went home. Then had to go back a day later for another week because I had pneumonia. Finally a few days because of a slight arythmia. All told it has been about 2 1/2 weeks. I am past the cravings by now and only have the urges to contend with. I really don't suggest that anyone quits smoking using this technique though. I'll have to carry the scars from that day for the rest of my life. The large one down the center of my chest, and the ones from several "silent" infarctions. I came that close to the next world. Never again will I subject my body to that (at one point in my life I was smoking 5 packs of cigarillos a day). I now have to say N.O.P.E. (Not One Puff Ever) every day of my life. TheOldGoat-Joan, I miss you terribly my friend. Elder Lists Guilia's: (/blogs/Giulia-blog/2017/06/18/elders-list-ao-december-7-2016 ) or Smorgy's (Chronological Elder List)