Skip navigation
All People > OldBones-Larry > oldbones-larry > 2018 > April
2018
OldBones-Larry

Test Update

Posted by OldBones-Larry Apr 28, 2018

Just wanted to pass along what I found out last evening.

Test is scheduled for May 9 at 2 PM. I have to arrive at 12 PM to get prepped.

Pre-medication will be for a day or so beforehand as I am allergic to contrast.

I thing she said they would check my aortic aneurysm while they were at it.

Please forgive any spelling mistakes as this new med causes bad headaches and dizziness.

I'm going to go lay down for a while and try to lessen the headache.

Stay strong in your journey friends.

One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.

Larry

OldBones-Larry

Another Test

Posted by OldBones-Larry Apr 27, 2018

I saw the Cardiologist again this last Wednesday.

She wanted to check in because I have continued to have some pains and pressure in my chest.

We don't know why this is happening, so she has decided to set up another Angiogram.

You can imagine how excited I am about another one of those!! NOT!!!!

She also started me on a long-acting blood vessel dilator. I has caused headaches and dizziness. This should pass when my body adjusts to the medication I am told.

I will let you know more when I have the info.

Stay strong in your quit and your journey friends.

One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.

Larry

I have put off writing this for a long time. I have buried these things for many years and think it is time to unearth them.
Because so many responded to how the Caravan began, I will fill in a little more for you.


My mother was diagnosed with an enlarged heart in approx. 1970. She had smoked for many years. She quit smoking several times after that, but my father would not join her and she relapsed every time.
She went through a pregnancy and delivered my baby sister in 1974. She continued smoking all along.
In 1990, she suffered a massive M.I. and passed away. She was 56 years old. The doctors think she was in acute Diabetic Coma as her blood sugar was over 500 when she passed. I know that the smoking contributed greatly to this.


My Dad was diagnosed with a tumor in his skull around 1988. Surgery removed it and a large portion of his skullcap. His body rejected the implant that replaced his bone and had to be removed.
In 1992, he developed a blood cancer. He outlived the 6 months they gave him whn he was first diagnosed in 1992. Through many rounds of Chemo, he continued smoking. He finally quit in 1996 and stayed quit.
The Cancer came back numerous times. Finally, in 1999, Dad walked the Hanging Road to the Ancestor Lands. He was 70 years old.


Once again, I lost someone to sickorettes.


In 1989, my brother had a massive M.I. and underwent an emergency quadruple bypass. He was 34 years old. He had been a diabetic for 10 years at the time. He smoked heavily.
He did quit smoking at that time. He remained smoke-free until 2012 when he had another massive M.I. and passed in his sleep. He was 56 at the time.


Another victim of sickorettes.


You would have though that I would have quit smoking many years earlier when I lost my Mom.
NOPE!!
I was hardheaded and just kept smoking away.
A little over a year after my brother passed, I underwent my own bypass. I was 54.
I threw my sickorettes away and have never looked back.
My journey is in the blogs I have posted here. I really hope that those blog posts help others to remain smokefree, or quit smoking.

 

Now is the best time to throw those Death Sticks away. If not for yourself, do it for your family.


I lost my health and 3 family members to sickorettes. I have lost many friends to them also.


That is why I wander the desert of NML each day trying to aid other travelers out there.
Stay strong my fellow travelers.
One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.
Larry the Caravan Master

OldBones-Larry

Username

Posted by OldBones-Larry Apr 25, 2018

Just a quick post to let everyone know I have shortened my username. I couldn't see having 2 dates on my profile.

I will still be roaming the desert and watching out for the travelers though. 

The caravan will continue.

One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.

Larry the Caravan Master

OldBones-Larry

The Caravan

Posted by OldBones-Larry Apr 21, 2018

Where did the caravan come from?
I came to this site when I was around 30 days into my quit. I was told that I was in the NML of my quit.
I already was experiencing the problems and temptations that everyone faces there. I was messaged by Ima Deer and told to follow the tracks. They were Gnu tracks I was told later.
I really felt that I was wandering deep in a desert.
To take my mind off of things, I began likening my journey as a caravan across the desert.
Nic was the evil villian that was trying to stop me from finishing my journey.
The Oasis stops were my time to rest and recover from what was happening.
I hit that point in time where a relapse was likely as the elders told me. One of them termed the spot as Relapse Rocks. I used that name to mark that point in the journey. I was experiencing a bout of depression right then and wanted to chuck my entire quit at that point.
I survived that and called that place Desolation Point deep in the Relapse Rocks.
The Old Goat was talked about high on the mountain at the end of my trek. I remembered a friend I had met years ago while driving a rig from coast to coast. I was told the goat lived high on the mountain. I took that mountain as the endpoint of the trek across the desert.
I kept that mountain in sight after I cleared Relapse Rocks and used it as the marker for my path.
After I cleared NML I climbed that mountain and entered the cave of the old goat. As my friend was a woman, I made the goat female.
She tasked me with guiding others on their journey through NML.
My mind was kept busy by doing this and it helped me to keep my quit.
The name for Desolation Point was inspired by something I saw scrawled on a wall. I was stuck on traffic, so I wrote it down. At the truck stop I stayed at that night, I asked about that area.
This will explain the history, and why I chose that name for the depression at that point in my journey. I have been prone to depressive episodes all my life.
To this day, I am saddened when I read this. I just found it stuck in the pages of one of my old road atlases.
_________________________________________________________________

Gone
I used to have money...
Gone!
I used to have a job...
Gone!
I used to have someone...
Gone!
I used to have health...
Gone!
I used to have passion...
Gone
I used to have love...
Gone!
I used to have love...
Gone!
I used to live...
Gone!
I have no money...
I have no job...
I have nobody...
I am sick and broken...
I am alone...
I am unloved...
I only exist...
I wish I was...
GONE!!!!

I!!
AM!!
GONE!!!!
Author unknown

Found on an underpass wall...
A body was found close by, the victim of a drop from the overpass. Police suspect it was a suicide.
There had been other bodies found in this area. Many of them were classed as suicide. Others were deemed as overdoses. All could have written these words.
Which one had written them?
That piece of information was taken to the grave by the tortured soul that wrote these sad and tortured words.
May their souls find that peace......
_____________________________________
This is the reason for Desolation Point. I really hope nobody reaches this point in their life while trying to straighten out their life by quitting an addiction.
Ask for help and take your journey as you need to.
One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.
Larry the Caravan Master

OldBones-Larry

The Last Nail

Posted by OldBones-Larry Apr 16, 2018

I was talking to someone the other day that said they were wanting to quit smoking. I saw that they had a nearly full pack in their pocket.
I suggested that they should just crush the pack and soak it in a bucket of water.
Their answer was that they wanted to smoke "just one more pack" before giving them up.
Just one more .....
Is that just one more going to be the final nail in their coffin?
Is it going to be the one that starts a tumor becoming malignant?
Is it the one that will cause a massive heart attack?
Is it the one that will cause a debillitating stroke?
Is it the one that will cause COPD and other breathing problems.
That just one more sickorette can do more damage than you could imagine.
I found that out the hard way. I wasn't having any problems at all. I had to take an EKG so they could remove my Gallbladder because of what was termed "sludge" before stones began developing.
The tracing they got looked like an abstract painting by Picasso or one of the other Masters of that field.
After a visit to the Cath Lab, it was determined that I needed bypass surgery. One week after the results from the Catheterization, I was on the table for 12 hours. I was now the recipient of three new vessels to bypass the blockages.
I was lucky. Others never knew what was happening and are now gone.
If you know someone that is thinking of quitting, please feel free to share my story with them. You just might save them from that just one more.
Remember....
One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.
Larry the Caravan Master

OldBones-Larry

Thank you

Posted by OldBones-Larry Apr 10, 2018

I thank each and every one of you, my friends, for allowing me to be a part of your journey on this, Our Earth Mother.....

 

Your words touch this one deeply.

OldBones-Larry

Words

Posted by OldBones-Larry Apr 9, 2018

Creator!
I enter the lodge with a clean heart.
I burn the Sacred Woods in the firepit.
I use the Sacred Plants in the coals.
Hear the words I speak I humbly ask.
Be with those that have relatives traveling the Hanging Road this day.
Touch those with the spirits of sickness and drive them out of the bodies of those that are ill.
Be with those that are injured and mend them.
I ask that you heal Earth Mother of the injuries inflicted by those that care not if she survives their attacks on her.
Be with our animal Brothers and Sisters and care for them.
I, Soaring Eagle ask these things knowing that you are able to do this.
I am finished.
I speak no more.