well even after 3 years i sttill get my committment tested...
my son who is living in my basement.. left an unguarded cigarette in my bathroom "by accident", it sat there on the toilet tank for 2 days..before he returned to look for it....it stayed there because i refused to touch it.if i touch it i will be tempted.
i am an addict.....if i smoke it i will be back to a pack a day in no time...this is my reality..
. i know this and i accept this to be true,...so it sat there in plain view for 2 days...untouched...
he came, found it, and put it behind his ear without even thinking about it,...
this is a struggle,...non smokers dont understand this...smokers justify their addictions by saying "gosh its only a cigarette"... only a cigarette, a cigarrette which is capableof taking all that you own,your job,your money,your freedom, your health.
the struggle continues even after 3 years of a battle...but it is a fight worth fighting,...i know this everytime i win one of these small battles, i remember when it was a all out war to get where i am... hang in there it is worth it.
