Yesterday was much easier, and seemed less stressful without them. Today, I can't stop thinking of excuses to have one. Searching teh Ex site, and instead of taking the advice it gives, using it, adn twisiting the words to make an sxcuse. Seems silly, but it's what I have done. The water, the wasabi peas, the gum, the cinnomon candy.... nothing much helping today. Lost my temper, for all the wrong reasons, apologized, and then just felt like an ass. About 7 more hours until bed now, so I got that to tell myself not to give in. Maybe going cold turkey wasn't the best plan.