Take it with a grain of salt?
"and the truth shall set you free." Isn't that what you want? freedom?
truth ends the argument you are having with yourself.
If you have the answer, there's no need to keep fighting for a different answer.
So, back to the grain of salt
Will you add that grain of salt to the bitterness of letting go/giving up something you think you can't live without and are afraid of losing?
Will that grain of salt be used to build towards something refreshing, say the rim of a margarita after you have some real time under your belt and are comfortable with your quit?
bitterness doesn't lead to a successful quit.