this is a journey whether you slip/fail/smoke or not. it doesn't end if you smoke again, unless you leave and go back to smoking for years. even then, they would be valuable to you.
SO>>>>SAVE YOUR HISTORY- Consider Your Blogs The Medical Records Of Your Quit
they will help you and us see where your thinking was. I certainly can't remember everyone's history and having the writings to go back and read would be helpful for me to help you.