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what's your favorite candy?

See, we know the pitfalls.

We know how to get through the hard moments.

We've learned how to step around the smoking thoughts.

I myself never think of smoking even though I'm here everyday talking about it.

I have disconnected myself from tobacco.

That's what we are trying to help you with. We want you to that point.

Is quitting easy? It can be if you get your thinking in the right place.

Is quitting uncomfortable? It has its moments especially in those first four months.

Can anyone do it! A resounding YES!!

We Have The Right To:

1. Wear the same shirt and pants 5 days in a row.

2. Keep track of our diet with our clothes.

3. Drive until they take our license away.

4. Forget anything, anytime.

5. Survive until we die.


anyone have any to add to the list?  feel free

Very dark green but, green.  It's from the iron supplement the Dr. started me on last Friday.

No hospital for me.

Please help me welcome "Poopypants".

(Clothespins available)

30 things to start doing for yourself:

  1. Start spending time with the right people. – These are the people you enjoy, who love and appreciate you, and who encourage you to improve in healthy and exciting ways.  They are the ones who make you feel more alive, and not only embrace who you are now, but also embrace and embody who you want to be, unconditionally.
  3. Start facing your problems head on. – It isn’t your problems that define you, but how you react to them and recover from them.  Problems will not disappear unless you take action.  Do what you can, when you can, and acknowledge what you’ve done.  It’s all about taking baby steps in the right direction, inch by inch.  These inches count, they add up to yards and miles in the long run.
  5. Start being honest with yourself about everything. – Be honest about what’s right, as well as what needs to be changed.  Be honest about what you want to achieve and who you want to become.  Be honest with every aspect of your life, always.  Because you are the one person you can forever count on.  Search your soul, for the truth, so that you truly know who you are.  Once you do, you’ll have a better understanding of where you are now and how you got here, and you’ll be better equipped to identify where you want to go and how to get there.  Read The Road Less Traveledimage.
  7. Start making your own happiness a priority. – Your needs matter.  If you don’t value yourself, look out for yourself, and stick up for yourself, you’re sabotaging yourself.  Remember, it IS possible to take care of your own needs while simultaneously caring for those around you.  And once your needs are met, you will likely be far more capable of helping those who need you most.
  9. Start being yourself, genuinely and proudly. – Trying to be anyone else is a waste of the person you are.  Be yourself.  Embrace that individual inside you that has ideas, strengths and beauty like no one else.  Be the person you know yourself to be – the best version of you – on your terms.  Above all, be true to YOU, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it.
  11. Start noticing and living in the present. – Right now is a miracle.  Right now is the only moment guaranteed to you.  Right now is life.  So stop thinking about how great things will be in the future.  Stop dwelling on what did or didn’t happen in the past.  Learn to be in the ‘here and now’ and experience life as it’s happening.  Appreciate the world for the beauty that it holds, right now.
  13. Start valuing the lessons your mistakes teach you. – Mistakes are okay; they’re the stepping stones of progress.  If you’re not failing from time to time, you’re not trying hard enough and you’re not learning.  Take risks, stumble, fall, and then get up and try again.  Appreciate that you are pushing yourself, learning, growing and improving.  Significant achievements are almost invariably realized at the end of a long road of failures.  One of the ‘mistakes’ you fear might just be the link to your greatest achievement yet.
  15. Start being more polite to yourself. – If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?  The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others.  You must love who you are or no one else will.
  17. Start enjoying the things you already have. – The problem with many of us is that we think we’ll be happy when we reach a certain level in life – a level we see others operating at – your boss with her corner office, that friend of a friend who owns a mansion on the beach, etc.  Unfortunately, it takes awhile before you get there, and when you get there you’ll likely have a new destination in mind.  You’ll end up spending your whole life working toward something new without ever stopping to enjoy the things you have now.  So take a quiet moment every morning when you first awake to appreciate where you are and what you already have.
  19. Start creating your own happiness. – If you are waiting for someone else to make you happy, you’re missing out.  Smile because you can.  Choose happiness.  Be the change you want to see in the world.  Be happy with who you are now, and let your positivity inspire your journey into tomorrow.  Happiness is often found when and where you decide to seek it.  If you look for happiness within the opportunities you have, you will eventually find it.  But if you constantly look for something else, unfortunately, you’ll find that too.  Read Stumbling on Happinessimage.
  21. Start giving your ideas and dreams a chance. – In life, it’s rarely about getting a chance; it’s about taking a chance.  You’ll never be 100% sure it will work, but you can always be 100% sure doing nothing won’t work.  Most of the time you just have to go for it!  And no matter how it turns out, it always ends up just the way it should be.  Either you succeed or you learn something.  Win-Win.
  23. Start believing that you’re ready for the next step. – You are ready!  Think about it.  You have everything you need right now to take the next small, realistic step forward.  So embrace the opportunities that come your way, and accept the challenges – they’re gifts that will help you to grow.
  25. Start entering new relationships for the right reasons. – Enter new relationships with dependable, honest people who reflect the person you are and the person you want to be.  Choose friends you are proud to know, people you admire, who show you love and respect – people who reciprocate your kindness and commitment.  And pay attention to what people do, because a person’s actions are much more important than their words or how others represent them.
  27. Start giving new people you meet a chance. – It sounds harsh, but you cannot keep every friend you’ve ever made.  People and priorities change.  As some relationships fade others will grow.  Appreciate the possibility of new relationships as you naturally let go of old ones that no longer work.  Trust your judgment.  Embrace new relationships, knowing that you are entering into unfamiliar territory.  Be ready to learn, be ready for a challenge, and be ready to meet someone that might just change your life forever.
  29. Start competing against an earlier version of yourself. – Be inspired by others, appreciate others, learn from others, but know that competing against them is a waste of time.  You are in competition with one person and one person only – yourself.  You are competing to be the best you can be.  Aim to break your own personal records.
  31. Start cheering for other people’s victories. – Start noticing what you like about others and tell them.  Having an appreciation for how amazing the people around you are leads to good places – productive, fulfilling, peaceful places.  So be happy for those who are making progress.  Cheer for their victories.  Be thankful for their blessings, openly.  What goes around comes around, and sooner or later the people you’re cheering for will start cheering for you.
  33. Start looking for the silver lining in tough situations. – When things are hard, and you feel down, take a few deep breaths and look for the silver lining – the small glimmers of hope.  Remind yourself that you can and will grow stronger from these hard times.  And remain conscious of your blessings and victories – all the things in your life that are right.  Focus on what you have, not on what you haven’t.
  35. Start forgiving yourself and others. – We’ve all been hurt by our own decisions and by others.  And while the pain of these experiences is normal, sometimes it lingers for too long.  We relive the pain over and over and have a hard time letting go.  Forgiveness is the remedy.  It doesn’t mean you’re erasing the past, or forgetting what happened.  It means you’re letting go of the resentment and pain, and instead choosing to learn from the incident and move on with your life.
  37. Start helping those around you. – Care about people.  Guide them if you know a better way.  The more you help others, the more they will want to help you.  Love and kindness begets love and kindness.  And so on and so forth.
  39. Start listening to your own inner voice. – If it helps, discuss your ideas with those closest to you, but give yourself enough room to follow your own intuition.  Be true to yourself.  Say what you need to say.  Do what you know in your heart is right.
  41. Start being attentive to your stress level and take short breaks. – Slow down.  Breathe.  Give yourself permission to pause, regroup and move forward with clarity and purpose.  When you’re at your busiest, a brief recess can rejuvenate your mind and increase your productivity.  These short breaks will help you regain your sanity and reflect on your recent actions so you can be sure they’re in line with your goals.
  43. Start noticing the beauty of small moments. – Instead of waiting for the big things to happen – marriage, kids, big promotion, winning the lottery – find happiness in the small things that happen every day.  Little things like having a quiet cup of coffee in the early morning, or the delicious taste and smell of a homemade meal, or the pleasure of sharing something you enjoy with someone else, or holding hands with your partner.  Noticing these small pleasures on a daily basis makes a big difference in the quality of your life.
  45. Start accepting things when they are less than perfect. – Remember, ‘perfect’ is the enemy of ‘good.’  One of the biggest challenges for people who want to improve themselves and improve the world is learning to accept things as they are.  Sometimes it’s better to accept and appreciate the world as it is, and people as they are, rather than to trying to make everything and everyone conform to an impossible ideal.  No, you shouldn’t accept a life of mediocrity, but learn to love and value things when they are less than perfect.
  47. Start working toward your goals every single day. – Remember, the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.  Whatever it is you dream about, start taking small, logical steps every day to make it happen.  Get out there and DO something!  The harder you work the luckier you will become.  While many of us decide at some point during the course of our lives that we want to answer our calling, only an astute few of us actually work on it.  By ‘working on it,’ I mean consistently devoting oneself to the end result.  Read The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Peopleimage.
  49. Start being more open about how you feel. – If you’re hurting, give yourself the necessary space and time to hurt, but be open about it.  Talk to those closest to you.  Tell them the truth about how you feel.  Let them listen.  The simple act of getting things off your chest and into the open is your first step toward feeling good again.
  51. Start taking full accountability for your own life. – Own your choices and mistakes, and be willing to take the necessary steps to improve upon them.  Either you take accountability for your life or someone else will.  And when they do, you’ll become a slave to their ideas and dreams instead of a pioneer of your own.  You are the only one who can directly control the outcome of your life.  And no, it won’t always be easy.  Every person has a stack of obstacles in front of them.  But you must take accountability for your situation and overcome these obstacles.  Choosing not to is choosing a lifetime of mere existence.
  53. Start actively nurturing your most important relationships. – Bring real, honest joy into your life and the lives of those you love by simply telling them how much they mean to you on a regular basis.  You can’t be everything to everyone, but you can be everything to a few people.  Decide who these people are in your life and treat them like royalty.  Remember, you don’t need a certain number of friends, just a number of friends you can be certain of.
  55. Start concentrating on the things you can control. – You can’t change everything, but you can always change something.  Wasting your time, talent and emotional energy on things that are beyond your control is a recipe for frustration, misery and stagnation.  Invest your energy in the things you can control, and act on them now.
  57. Start focusing on the possibility of positive outcomes. – The mind must believe it CAN do something before it is capable of actually doing it.  The way to overcome negative thoughts and destructive emotions is to develop opposing, positive emotions that are stronger and more powerful.  Listen to your self-talk and replace negative thoughts with positive ones.  Regardless of how a situation seems, focus on what you DO WANT to happen, and then take the next positive step forward.  No, you can’t control everything that happens to you, but you can control how you react to things.  Everyone’s life has positive and negative aspects – whether or not you’re happy and successful in the long run depends greatly on which aspects you focus on.  Read The How of Happinessimage.
  59. Start noticing how wealthy you are right now. – Henry David Thoreau once said, “Wealth is the ability to fully experience life.”  Even when times are tough, it’s always important to keep things in perspective.  You didn’t go to sleep hungry last night.  You didn’t go to sleep outside.  You had a choice of what clothes to wear this morning.  You hardly broke a sweat today.  You didn’t spend a minute in fear.  You have access to clean drinking water.  You have access to medical care.  You have access to the Internet.  You can read.  Some might say you are incredibly wealthy, so remember to be grateful for all the things you do have.

don't ask me how i know. lol

so i'm sitting here waiting for a call to see if the dr is going to check me into the hospital and climb down my throat to cauterize them or ?

i've been doing well keeping the acid reflux out of my throat but i  have no way of telling if the area with the lesions has been acid free because it's right above where the esophagus meets the stomach.

obviously something happened.

the chips at the mexican restaurant Saturday?

maybe i should've taken the bones out of the chicken?

the spike strips i ate on the freeway?

Cooking was a great way to distract myself when I first quit. I have some of my personal recipes further back in my blogs.

it makes me want to drive only when necessary.

i have a friend who i started playing music with about 46 years ago when i first learned to play guitar.

he dropped by yesterday and called from outside to see if i wanted to go for a ride.

he had repaired a guitar for someone about 35 miles away and wanted to return it and get his which he had loaned to her.

so it was a gorgeous day and a great trip. after we dropped off the guitar we stopped at the biggest music store in san diego county and played a bunch of guitars.

the freeway is being worked on and traffic was slow coming the return direction so we decided to take the old road back.

i haven't been that far east in nearly 50 years so it was fun to see how much everything had changed.

i mentioned i was really craving a chile relleno and we found a mexican restaurant in one of the smaller towns on the way home. i left my diet in the car. figured i blew about 4500 calories on that meal. lol.

later, after i was home awhile i went through my diet plan and added up what i had in the meal and with all the walking around i was still under my daily calorie count. UNBELIEVABLE


I'm feeling slightly better each day considering my body still needs to make up for half the blood loss.

ps (a neat aside) my friend fixes peoples guitars for free. it's his way of giving back for 50 years of pleasure that playing music has given him.

have a good day.

you all do the work

we just try to lift the curtain of doubt so you can see your way clearly.

we so care about each of you even though we may never meet.

to help you get free and stay free is our reward


and i never once thought i couldn't do it.

if you think you can't do it you're a goner.

stay positive.

craves won't kill you, smoking will.



laugh out loud when you get a crave.

bite into a lemon

stick your head in the freezer and inhale that cold air for 10 seconds

go outside where you feel comfortable and  safe and face the sun and close your eyes for 5 min. feel.

close your eyes and feel the breeze on your face at night.

play music or listen to music

the secret to quitting is diverting your mind when you get a crave. this only takes seconds.

these are the things that made my 2000 days possible.

come here and post the word HELP!

We'll teach you how to float

keep the faith

We're with you in this boat

hold on to life

and i ran across a member from 1241 days ago.

i had really high hopes for her.

she wrote great blogs and was very upbeat.

but never could quit smoking.

pretty sad

I guess the point of this blog is,

your decision to not smoke is much more important than how you write.

you can't quit until you decide to.

you don't have to want to quit.

but you do have to decide to.

i went to rehearsal and while waiting for the drummer to show up, i got real dizzy my body felt flush and my ears started ringing, the room started spinning and i knew if i didn't get to the floor soon, i was going to end up there anyway.

evidently i blacked out and was having convulsions and vomiting all over myself. i layed there for about 30 minutes after i came to and then moved to a more comfortable place for another hour before i could sit up.

they called 911 while it was happening but i told them to cancel it.

when i was able to sit up i had them hand me my guitar to see if i had normal function and could keep time so i would know if i had had a stroke and needed to go to the hospital. everything was ok.

anyway, they drove me home yesterday and my dad took me over to get my truck this morning

i just now got back from my primary dr.

i have felt extremely weak and light headed for the past three weeks since i left the hospital

evidently the heart medicine the cardiologist prescribed has a blood pressure medication in it and caused

my blood pressure to be too low because i was already taking a blood pressure medication twice a day. 

my hemoglobin was 7.4 when they sent me to the hospital for a transfusion 3 weeks ago. now its 9.6 and its supposed to be 11.4.

so, i got a ways to go.

on Tuesday the gastro doctor told me the biopsies from the endoscopy show i have Barret's Esophagus.

guess what one of the major contributing factors is?


I'm glad i don't smoke anymore

please stop smoking

Thursday, June 21, 2012
Depression: How to Challenge Negative Thinking
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If you or a loved one is among the 9 percent of Americans struggling with depression, you know that it can be a complicated condition. Finding a path to healing — and turning negative thinking to positive thinking — often takes more than just medication.

Depression can be so challenging, in part, because it alters your general way of thinking. Although a person who doesn't have depression will have a normal mix of positive and negative thinking each day, having depression tends to make you filter the world through negative thoughts to the point that it distorts reality and your overall outlook on life. Instead of seeing the glass as half full, you may see it as empty.

This type of negative thinking can be overwhelming. The problem is that people with depression get caught in a dangerous spiral, where depression leads to negative thinking, and negative thinking makes them even more depressed.

And putting a stop to negative thinking isn't as simple as just shutting off a switch. Over time, these patterns get so ingrained that they become your normal, everyday way of thinking. And negative thinking often becomes a defense mechanism to rationalize feelings of depression.

Read on for strategies that can help you overcome negative thinking.







Because it takes you to do each of these things in order to smoke

It takes a number of thoughts, decisions and motions to smoke.

You can stop this progression of steps required to smoke at any time


jacquiline towe is no mo

but where did her cousin pidgeon towe go?

here we have a spammer who has posted a blog about writing essays with a live link to an external site offering essays for a price denying "she's" a spammer. A blog comprised of poor sentence structure, repetition and grammatical errors. reminds me of our far east friend who loads this place up with spam every chance they can.

OH! BOO HOO HOO. "she" doesn't allow comments on "her" blogs.

never smoked either.  "here to give advice and share "her" feelings about essay writing?

and is probably some guy posting a picture they got off the internet along with a made up female name

addicts lie to themselves every day

No one can stop you from smoking after you've smoked!

You will never win this battle until you have something more powerful than your smoking memories to turn to when times get tough. That could be anything from your improved self esteem to religion or art or music.

Are you building a new life without smoking or are you just trying not to smoke? There is a difference!

Drinking alcohol is playing Russian roulette with your quit.

Give Yourself 4 Months Without Smoking And It Can Look Like This

It lowers your inhibitions and many just forget about their quit

Be Very Careful Of Your Quit This Weekend.

If you feel like smoking come here FIRST and post the word HELP as the title of your blog!

Some of us are A to B people. We don't want to read instructions.

We just want to know what is happening and how soon.

"When are we gonna get there?"

We won't read every little thing put on a site like this because we simply don't have time but, we want our answers, NOW!

I quit over 5 1/2 years ago.

I've spent alot more time here and on another site than most could.

I've pretty much seen and heard everything when it comes to quitting smoking.

Ask me a question. I'll tell you no lies.

If I can't give you an answer, someone else will.

when it didn't show up i looked up the tracking information which showed it had been delivered at 108pm the day before except we were home and IT HADN'T.

how can the post office say they delivered something if they didn't at least knock on the door or ring the doorbell.


so, there are three four possibilities.

they delivered it to the wrong address

someone stole it after they delivered it.

a postal carrier is now tracking their steps and calories burned

okra tastes good.


i know it's not number 4.

i called the company and gave them a few select words.  they are shipping a replacement and it will be here tomorrow

the most common saying used here is "NOPE" which means not one puff ever

if you think you can smoke once you have quit, you are kidding yourself.

every time you smoke, you re-awaken the nicotine receptors in your brain as well as weaken your resolve and strengthen the possibility of a full relapse.


you are either smoking or you are not.

there is no in dabbling with nicotine.

First, I did my weigh in and I lost the 2lbs I was supposed to lose last week


but sure

This dieting however is alot more time consuming.

It takes alot of time to weigh everything out and count all your calories

and package it all up to freeze so you don't have to do it every day.

thanks god for turkey burgers and the mcforman

with quitting smoking you just have to hold on until you don't think of smoking.

This is usually around 4 months

you don't have to smoke but you have to eat.

so food is something you cannot just stop.

i feel for you ladies.

someone here informed me most females spend most of their lives dieting. (to me that means not having something you want, rough word "denial")

that's rough.

So now I sing........

to all the pounds i've loved before...the ones that blocked me at the door....

I say goodbye to you no better than poopoo...... to all the pounds i have no more...

something spooked that cat....a memory? a smell? (I'll never tell)


back to the diet

hugs VS  tough love



depends upon your point of view.




 "To Quit"

in reality, you really just have to be aware of what you're doing in order to quit.

you start thinking before you smoke.

you decide you are going to make changes and you choose not to smoke.

you keep doing that.

change your mind for a weeks worth of smoking. 20 x 7 for a pack a day smoker = 140 x's

notice, i said change your mind, i did not use the word suffer.

catch those negative thoughts and turn them. make those your victories

we create our own suffering and we build it in our minds.

as you see your own progress, you realize, "hey, i can do this"

that's what will power your quit!

that's what powers every quit!

if you didn't believe you could do it you would give up. it would be over.

we will get you through the rough times if you blog HELP before you smoke

People who say it takes many attempts to quit are self excusers.

I smoked 40 years.

Do you think it was any easier for me to quit the first time than someone who tries 20 times and still can't  quit?

I decided to quit and I did it. Everyone who quits has that option.

It seems they would rather make excuses and do it over and

over and over because they heard it takes most people many tries.

This allowance other people give themselves to fail doesn't have to pertain to you.

See,  each time it gets harder.

Each failure sets you up for another. Each failure is a ***** in your armor.

This thinking is poison.

Successfull quits just don't happen because of how many tries you make.

I have a friend up North who has a phrase:    "SMARTEN UP"





and skipped town owing the hotel 7 million dollars.

the police couldn't touch her because she claimed diplomatic immunity.

Turns out the last time she was in Paris she went on a 20.5 million dollar shopping spree and skipped town then too.

These Parisians aren't too smart giving her credit are they?

"I don’t think I could ever get used to it"…..

This could be said about many things

Slimy okra

Not getting my morning cup of coffee

When I was in the hospital last week, they would not allow me to have coffee because of it over stimulating my heart.

I was never a major coffee drinker but I really liked loved that one big mug of coffee
to wake me up in the morning. It also got the wheels down below turning,
and, I liked the taste.

I kept about 6 of the major brands in the little 12oz bags, (variety is the spice of life)
I would buy a half gallon of ½ & ½ every two or three weeks.

Then, I would always “sweeten to taste” with white sugar.

The day after I got out of the hospital I bought some DD Decaf and a ½ gallon of 2% milk.

Today is the first day I tried it.

Honestly, it left something to be desired.
So, either I will get used to it or I will  just stop drinking coffee. I haven’t DECIDED yet.

Either way it isn't going to kill me.

Smoking Will.

It will take your breath away a little at a time


There is no good excuse you can come up with to keep smoking.




don't give up on yourself

Smoking was such a huge part of each of our lives.

How do we replace it?

How do we fill the big empty place quitting leaves?

You know, it's ok to try to stay busy to try and ignore that hole but it will only get you so far.

Someone wrote me today and was describing an addiction that was as strong as if they had just quit yesterday.

This is that hole.

They have stayed busy for over a year but I don't think they replaced smoking with anything which means that void is going to appear occasionally.

I would suggest you do something for yourself that lifts your spirit . A new "go to"

My fear is that if you never fill the void with something that enhances your being, smoking may always be waiting in the wings.

You need to let it go by finding something fulfilling that feeds your soul.

Whether it be religion or music, or meditation, or exercise. FIND IT

Going on with your day to day life may not be enough to keep your quit.

Find something better than smoking and let smoking go.

and how many calories could i burn doing that?




must be the new meds they put me on


Against your calorie allowance for the day?

I just had oatmeal.


I'm starting to get into the losing weight program.

my food scale should be here today or tomorrow. it goes from 1/2 gram to 16lbs for when i want that BIG PIECE OF MEAT.

i bought something really cool today. i won't name it but it handles keeping track of how many calories you are burning through movement. with my lack of being able to exercise normally due to my severed foot and umbilical hernia, it's probably my only way to track it.

its about the size of a volkswagon bluetooth. you put it in your pocket, any pocket. or on your belt. It has a wrist sleeve to tuck it in when you are sleeping to track how much sleep you are actually getting

it has 3D tracking capabilities and it can tell if you are climbing a step or any motion whatsoever.

when you get within 15 feet of the base/charging station, it wifi's your info to the website and incorporates your exercise with your diet plan and keeps everything charted and orderly.


it's just under $100. if anyone wants to know the name of it, let me know

I joined a site called my fitness You give them your weight and height and how much you'd like to lose per week (I chose 2 lbs)  and it figures calories, fat , carbs, protein, and sodium, etc.

Mine is 1680 calories a day

Then you type what you want to eat into their database for each meal and snacks and it adds it to your daily plan and makes a running total as you add things.

Pretty cool


1 cup of seedless watermelon has 3 calories and one carb


1/2 of a watermelon is no more than 15 calories and 5 carbs.

It's gonna be one of my main snacks!


(I already had to add a food that was not listed to the database- Chile Relleno Dinner w rice & beans) LOL



(that's your unhealthy future dragging behind you if you insist on smoking)

and turned my coffeemaker into a lean mean-green tea machine

Hmmmmmmmmmm.....I wonder if it would cook a burger.....maybe I should talk with George Forman

well, after getting out of the hospital after a 4 day stay i feel weak and dizzy.

They think i have a 20% loss of blood flow to the bottom of my heart

we had a fun party for 6 birthdays  and some graduations yesterday late afternoon into evening.

i tasted  the best cheese i've ever tasted. (english cheddar with carmelized onions)

But for the first time i really considered everything on my plate. maybe the hospital diet.







ever had a blog your were writing dissapear before you've posted it?

i lost 18 pounds in a week.

so at the party i really practiced restraint on everything that passed through my lips

and also portions.

you need to know that nothing even remotely considered diet or nonfat is not part of my eating vocabulary or has ever touched my hands or lips

compound that with the fact that 12 years ago i severed my right foot with an 80 place fracture then smoked and it didn't heal right

to be continued

or that i was carrying lifting and installing an 8 foot tall cabinet alone over a newly finished wood bathroom floor WHICH CAUSED AN UMBILICAL HERNIA

both of those pretty much eliminated any thoughts of being able to exercise

I am whipped today. exhausted. at least i wasn't awakened and poked every hour last night

i went out to walmart this morning to get my new rx's and while they were being filled i honestly committed the ultimate sin and bout a bunch of nonfat food. ....again, nothing diet has ever touched my lips...that 20% loss of bloodflow to the bottom of my heart. thats probably where all the fat is hanging. i lost 18 lbs in a week........i'm going for it...I 'm going to lose my excess pounds.




I bought a little wedge of that cheese (just to know I have it. LOL)

someone broke into a local little league snack bar last night and stole a whole lot of those little bags of snacks but then left a trail of empty bags the entire 4 blocks from the snack bar right to their front door.


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