We are not here to judge you so don't ever feel you can't be honest with us.
This is your life here and we want to get you back on track.
Just remember these two things.
Alcohol is a quit killer. Limit yourself to one drink when there is any chance of being around a cigarette.
Stress is life. That does not change whether you smoke or not. Smoking will take a toll on your health.
Build faith in your quit daily by making it another day and promise yourself 4 full months in a row without smoking.
The longer you delay restarting your quit, The easier it is not to.