I am pretty new here and today is my quit day and not a whole lot of support!

Blog Post created by jenn82209 on Mar 12, 2013

I am 30 years old and work in the healthcare field. I have been smoking for 15 years and desperately want to stop.

I am married to a wonderful man who is very patient with my trying to quit and not being too sucessful. This is probably one of the hardest things that I am trying to do, but I know for my health I have to  do it.

I am nervous, happy, scared. I am excited that the time has finally come for me to quit. This is the first time that I have been so serious about quitting and staying quit.

I am so afraid I am going to mess up. I just keep thinking if I can get through the next couple of weeks and not slipping that I will make it. I have quit for 3 days the most, so I know I may make it that long, but I pray that I keep going. I am probably being a wimp, but I am scared of this, like having some realy anxiety about this. Is that normal?

Unfortunately, I don't have alot of supporrt systems except for here and my husband who is great but as a non smoker doesn't quite get why this is so hard. When I told my family, they basicall thought it was a joke. Mind you almost all of them are smokers.

I am 30 years old , I want a healthier lifestyle and want to be there for my nieces and nephews and watch them grow!

I know that I want need this!!