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Thank you becomeanX for offering ME help with ALL those here on this site. Thank you Sir Mark for keeping the UNITY OF LOVE to ALL who come for help to this site. I think your the BEST Chief I have ever served under by thinking of ALL us nicotine addicts beginning this adventure and those of us who offer the help we have been given FREELY to ALL who want it.... Only by Gods grace for ME.... 2500 days NICOTINE FREE... One day at a time because of My Higher Power Daddy God and ALL the people here and Sir Mark and ALL who keep this site OPEN and running for any suffering from nicotine addiction... May God bless you double for your trouble in Jesus name amen... Please take what helps and let go of the rest...to be helpful is MY only aim... Thank you again for helping ME STAY QUIT NO MATTER WHAT TOGETHER! 

indingrl.01.06.2011

TONS OF TIME

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Nov 5, 2017

I am thanking My Higher Power who is God.... and letting it be known how God has blessed me with have TONS OF TIME.....so I made a decision to volunteer for thanksgiving at church.... to help clean and serve where ever they need help....the church puts on a thanksgiving meal for the military in our area and for those who have no where to eat thanksgiving meal...since God blessed me with a NICOTINE FREE life...I asked my husband to join me....he never used nicotine LIKE ME....not his drug of choice.....he will be helping cook the turkeys....just want to share that there is HOPE  in living a NEW CHRIST LIFE.....and for ME..... enjoying MY CHRIST LIFE by giving to others ABOVE myself....not thinking of using NICOTINE.....just thinking of MY Daddy God and showing him by OUR action the love and gratitude WE have for his tender mercies, faithfulness, and never ending love for those who show GOD... respect, honor, praise, worship, and who give ALL CREDIT TO GOD ALONE...who gave US his grace to DESIRE to show love by giving our lives and time to those in need.....when I was using NICOTINE...I only thought of my next cigarette and the money I needed to get my carton of death sticks...thoughts of... ME... MYSELF... AND... I ......TONS OF TIME ....NOW TIME IS SPENT THINKING OF WHAT I CAN DO FOR GOD...... I have spent TODAY...thinking of God and asking what WE can do for him because of what he has done and continues to do for those who love him and of our OWN FREE will chose to have His Son as our Savior and Lord...it is a FREE GIFT....please take what you like and let go of the rest....please get a bible and read First Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1-4....for YOURSELF...thanks...it was said to ME and I am just passing on the love from God to any WHO SO EVERS....in Jesus name. amen...God is still into miracles......because I choose NOT to use NICOTINE.....I choose to love MYSELF to love OTHERS and offer the FREE GIFT given to me.. I try to share this site with all those who are using nicotine and share the love and support I have received here for the beginning of January 6, 2011 to this very day...and with MY TONS OF TIME TO BE A BLESSING TO OTHERS....to next suffer nicotine addict here.......sharing the FACT life without using NICOTINE is REAL AND FUN.... and to give blessings to others who have no family at thanksgiving time and to OUR MILITARY WHO GIVE THEIR TIME AND LIVES FOR OUR FREEDOM......the church also has volunteers to let the military use Skype and cellphones of volunteers so the military persons can call family or friends too....tears of gratitude for God letting ME live to share HIS LOVE by giving away MY TONS OF TIME. thanks for letting me share A BLOG filled with the FACT....I really do have a happy free and joyous life giving it all away to others in Jesus name amen

indingrl.01.06.2011

FREEDOM

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Oct 26, 2017

Only by Gods grace I have not used nicotine since Jan 6, 2011....I was walking here to the library...I have no personal computer....FYI....I walk every where since I do not have a car....laughing out loud and smiling...I JUST FOUND OUT SOMEONE GAVE NATIVE AMERICANS THE MONTH OF NOVEMBER.......I never knew November was Native American month.....maybe who gave the month of November to us.....you might want to tell us......I will not use nicotine over this.....MY thoughts are now on sharing HOW.. being honest with myself today and my responsibility to stay  GROWN UP....I try to remain OPEN minded to accept life on life terms and to share my experience strength and hope that I handle life with a great attitude most day and just for today I am OK.....staying quit has been living in the present moment and trying to help the next suffering nicotine addict to hope and believe if I can NOT USE NICOTINE A DAY AT A TIME..so can YOU....question is are YOU ready to believe.... if all these people are staying quit and dealing with their lives one day at a time so can I.....it is the new mind set YOU MUST CHANGE ALL YOUR USING NICOTINE ADDICTIVE THINKING..... to think on......NEW NICOTINE FREE IDEAS....talking to yourself...NO I DONT USE NICOTINE ANYMORE I AM A RECOVERING NICOTINE ADDICT ONE DAY AT A TIME...my new free life....MY..new nicotine free life...one day at a time....TO REPEAT A SONG...I NO LONGER USE NICOTINE BECAUSE I LOVE ME AND I DO NOT WANT TO DIE AN EARLY DEATH FOR USING....LA...LA...LA...LOU...that's MY love song to me......I have faith in you just for TODAY that you to will CHOOSE love for yourself to sing a NEW SONG.... and just wanted to share..i know there is tons of crap to use nicotine over...YET...I turned....that thought of OLD NICOTINE USING THINKING AND WOULD NOT LET IT LIVE....I REJECT THAT THOUGHT......and I PRAYED and ask MY HIGHER POWER WHO IS GOD please who can I help and was given the wisdom and knowledge to REMEMBER what was SUGGESTED TO ME A LONG TIME AGO.....blog......blog.....blog.....so I  walked  to the library and remembered the next suffering nicotine addict so I just want to share the encouragement given to me a very long time ago......it was SUGGESTED....just live for today....and don't use nicotine...blog....blog...blog....so that is what I did....pray and ACTION all done in LOVE just like they LOVED ME INTO BELIEVING ONE DAY AT ATIME....I give it all away to keep it so thank you for teaching me to STAY QUIT NO MATTER WHAT...TO CHANG MY THINKING OF MYSELF TO NEW THINKING OF OTHERS ABOVE MYSELF in Jesus name amen....please take what helps and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim....thanks for letting me share.

Just when I thought I was handling changes.....NEW SITE....changes.....THEN BAM!!! Walked to library today to visit and type a blog......readjusting MY attitude.....just wondering how to be constant with going with the flow of the computer age.....just when I thought I was getting the hang of this NEW SITE.....changes....I know Sir Mark will tell ME of all the wonderful changes for the good of keeping this SITE NEW AND UPDATED WITH ALL THE REST OF THE COMPUTER......world of recoveries reaching far and wide.....yet I believe there is the ONE site that RESTS on the love of all the members involved that like SIMPLE...put a pic up....send a love graphic pic to all members page...now you can sent a.....hmmmm....stickers......well God willing I will NOT let my emotions run ME away to stay at another site because this one is just too high tech for ME....simplicity is MY middle name and I love to keep it simple....thank you Sir Mark for letting ME VENT over MORE.....NEW EXCITING.....CHANGES.....why is NOT my avatar changed on the top.....WHY SIR MARK.....I am crying now ...I must go and pray to be mature .......like you Sir Mark and just keep remembering its all about updating this NEW SITE....no worries this to shall pass and God willing I will be back to celebrate ONE DAY AT A TIME....for ME...in Jesus name amen....please take what HELPS and leave the rest......this sucks....learning and accepting NEW UPDATED.......going home to finish crying.........sad ......just sad.....yet STAYING QUIT NO MATTER WHAT TOGETHER HERE AND AT MY OTHER HOME......gentle hug Sir Mark for you job...toughest...and you gottat be pretty cold at times yet that's progress in the updated computer world....I understand....don't like it ...yet I understand..bye....

indingrl.01.06.2011

The Full Sandwich

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Oct 13, 2017

Today I am sharing MY living each day for MY Higher Power who is God....so please take what helps and let go of the rest...thank you......I believe God chose ME to be helpful to others who suffer with nicotine addiction.....and I personally must TRY to give ALL away the was given to ME......freely  given......I TRY to share with those who suffer daily from life on life's terms.....people, place, situations, circumstances, or when life JUMPS OUT OF THE BUSHES AT YOU.....today God has made me tender toward the nicotine addict who is in denial of their addiction to nicotine.....I share what I did and how God gave ME his free gift of salvation....I accepted Jesus Christ as MY Savior and Lord on November 5, 1986 and on January 6, 2011 he freed ME from MY nicotine addiction....I was blessed with a cold turkey quit....I tried may ways and for YEARS to quit on MY OWN....I will do this MYSELF.......I have been on this site since December 2010 and I was still smoking 2-3 cigs a day and then quit and start  yet....I kept reading the blogs here and then I would exercise 2 to 3 miles everyday and still smoke 2 - a whole pack and quit and then round and round while still on this site and also a whyquit.com which Joel had a video of an early death by a person named Bryon....this video preyed open MY stubborn closed mind, heart, and eyes to really look at MY nicotine addiction NOT ANYONE ELSE....just ME and admit I was too weak to quit on MY OWN...so I cried out to MY God for HIS..... tender-hearted mercy, kindness,humility, gentleness, and long, long, suffering to make ME willing to be willing to admit I was completely powerless over nicotine and I need Gods help.......long story short....I have been coming here and sharing MY continuous NICOTINE FREEDOM IN CHRIST JESUS FOR ME.....with anyone who wants to be set free....I pray for others and  I ask God to help me to forgive and not be offended by ANYONE...to remember but for the Grace of God go I....the Lord Jesus forgave me when I offended him and I MUST forgive others too.......above ALL I try to live in Gods love for MYSELF first .....because you can't give away what you do not have.....The Full Sandwich is when ALL of US are UNITED AS ONE WITH ONE COMMON BOND......Recovery from nicotine and staying quit TOGETHER while loving ourselves and each other to keep coming here and helping the next suffering addict to HOPE.....to BELIEVE..... to TRY and take the SUGGESTIONS..... each of US share out of our OWN individual life experiences that JUMP OUT at each of US...separate.... since we all have test.... trials.... temptations...... DIFFERENT....so ALL of US will be able to be helpful.....ANYONE who suffers with nicotine addiction can get HELP..... now that I am full for I have eaten freely for many days in this NEW life and have come to share MY FOOD with whoever wants the suggested variety and flavors of NEW life food given here to ME freely.. please remember you get to CHOOSE for God gave you FREE WILL...when your troubled in the mind and heart and soul that you are all alone...you are welcome to come and blog... blog ....blog and share with us so we can offer NEW FOOD by the suggestions WE have been fed for WE have been where you are....to learn that I don't think I can trust MYSELF without using nicotine..  I came and blogged and it worked the TOUGH LOVE OF THE TRUTH ABOUT NICOTINE STILL KILLING PEOPLE AND IT WOULD KILL ME EARLY IF I CONTIUED TO USE IT .... this truth...this NEW FOOD CLEANSED ME to know the truth about ME inside....ALL THE THINGS I DID TO TRY AND NOT USE NICOTINE...I admitted I HATE THE BRUSSEL SPROUTS GIVEN yet when inside of ME the NEW food nourished ME to hope for the first time.... A NEW THOUGHT came to me.... IF THEY CAN QUIT SO CAN I........please come and blog and share with us the desires to use nicotine BEFORE you take that first puff over you and the tender love comes with suggestions of TOUGH LOVE....that reminds you to REMEMBER what nicotine does to you when you choose to use it.....the food offered here is the HEALTHY kind that leaves you with the HONOR to be responsible for yourself and to STAY with us bound in HARMONY to learn NEW WAYS.....NEW IDEAS....NEW LIFE that teaches you to eat NEW food.....vile BRUSSEL SPROUTS included at times because REAL LIFE IS RAW AND IT HURTS.......so I came and took the  SUGGESTED NEW FULL SANDWICH..... by trying different ways of coping with your old and new emotions, thoughts, days , hours, seconds....that it is possible to live without using nicotine.....God is love and I believe He brought you here for a new meal shared from those who he brought here BEFORE who to teach you how to eat NEW food and chew slowly the WISDOM that comes from each individual heart that shares what was given to them... NEW food too......we are in RECOVERY by eating the full sandwich of WE....US....OUR....TOGETHER....the best kind for NO ONE HERE can claim they did it on there OWN....many where here BEFORE ME.....and in these YEARS OF RECOVERING....many NEW CHEFS have taught ME new sandwiches of 2017....thanks for letting ME share in love...and for ME.......MY Higher Power who is God for ME is MY FULL SANDWICH.....and those who fed ME on January 6, 2011....may God continue to bless and use you to feed others in Jesus name amen.

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Grateful for you

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Oct 8, 2017

I want to thank all my teachers here. It is very nice not to be alone in all the changes that have happened inside and outside of me.... it is wonderful to be nicotine free and have teachers who keep teaching change is continually..... so remember no matter what...... using nicotine is not the solution today for ME. Only by Gods grace it is to remember all you teachers here that suggested to blog blog blog BEFORE I use nicotine... blogging still works YEARS later for ME..... thank you MY beloved teachers in Jesus name amen Please take what helps and leave the rest... thank you.

Today is a great NEWS day for ME....MY daughter and grandson who live in Florida are safe....we just received a text from her.. she text......we are OK......I was praising and thanking God this morning....I prayed for God to poke the eye of ALL 3 hurricanes....Irma...Jose...and Katina...in Jesus name amen and amen...MY thoughts are of MY own....how spoiled I am here where I live and SOMETIMES.....I  take things and people for granted......I TRY to be of service....the library and church I TRIED to be a volunteer has not worked out...nothing heard back from library and I went to church meeting to help with babysitting after school teens...not MY cup of tea...I passed....so I came here to local library and thanked God for FREE COMPUTERS....I logged on to site and I read some blogs......I TRY to be of service here and NOW when I finished God willing..... I will walk home to do MY bible studying...what really amazes ME...how it takes ME to think of others.....BEFORE....ABOVE....MYSELF...only by Gods grace does this happen...bad news gets MY attention....I am only talking about ME....not anyone else...when I received a text from a friend......her husbands mom passed away.....when......I received a text from a friend...they are safe in Florida....when I  received a text.......MY husband sisters were both .....healed of lung cancer....one of them was a witness to her church community....I received a text....MY husbands mom is very ill with heart and kidney troubles.....she is at home now......he went to see his mom for himself and spent time speaking love and remembrance and thanking her for being a great mom...grandma....great grandma....and the rest of the family was there and it was freeing for MY husband.....He shared with ME when he returned home.....then I come here and I remembered Doris who use to send me love graphics of encouragement when I first quit using nicotine......I sent Staci a love BADGE...I hadn't seen her here until the Florida storm....then I read Sootie blog on Lady Betty......I remember Betty sent me love graphic when I was a NEWCOMER....then I read a comment from Thomas to another he was helping...and....I sent a love note to Thomas...I remember HOW HE NEVER GAVE UP ON ME......he taught ME in early recovery to keep coming back and reading blogs.....and to LOVE OTHER ABOVE MYSELF....that's what Thomas still does today......I am sharing MY thoughts....TODAY.....due to ALL the texts of loved ones not just affected by a earthly storms.....TODAY......MY storm is of the heart....to continue to be WILLING to accept when I LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY..GOOD AND BAD NEWS AND REMAIN SPIRITUALLY BALANCED THROUGH IT ALL...one day at a time...yet it took ME to pay attention to how PRECIOUS AND SHORT THIS LIFE REALLY IS....TO ME......it is due to life JUMPING OUT OF THE BUSHES.....AGAIN...to teach ME not to take life and those I love for granted.....you never know.....this could be MY last day on this earth.....YOU NEVER KNOW.....just sharing MY thoughts....I sent a prayer card to my friend who......lost of a mom......I was prompted in MY heart for ME to.... text MY mom....I love you and then I called her to talk awhile....then I got on MY facebook page....Joy McKinley Taylor....if anyone wants to be friends on fackbook with ME....I am  inviting you NOW.......just sharing MY thoughts....I am going to TRY and be more aware and NOT wait to get texts of sorry news...bad news...or things that JUMP OUT OF THE BUSHES AT ME...TRY IS MY WORD FOR TODAY.......to help ME remember....life and people are PRECIOUS and fleeting....it is written.....Your life is but a MIST.......thanks for letting ME share MY thoughts....STAY QUIT NO MATTER WHAT I THINK OR WHAT JUMPS OUT OF THE BUSHES......in Jesus name amen....PLEASE take what helps and let go of the rest....to be HELPFUL is MY only aim.

indingrl.01.06.2011

PEOPLE

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Sep 7, 2017

I walk to library to meet people......to make a friend it was SUGGESTED TO ME to be a FRIEND.....for ME and I am talking about ME not anyone else....so PLEASE take what helps and let go of the rest....thank you....I was decided to ask God for help a llllloooooonnnnnngggg....LONG...time ago.... how to be friends with MYSELF....because you cannot give away something you DO NOT HAVE.....so I love me today and I am my best friend to ME and MY Lord Jesus....My precious Holy Spirit who leads me....because I ask Him.... day by day to love and meet others along MY path....the local library in MY community has a quite room where they set up a table to fix a jigsaw puzzle....they have a sign that asks...please leave some for others to fix too......so I obey the rules....for a couple of months I stop by fix a few pieces yet didn't meet anyone....then TODAY... I met Ellie...so sweet and gentle and very pretty....a quite soul....full of love...these are MY thoughts of Ellie....anyway...before I use to just like people who treated ME like crap....I didn't know any better since I am a survivor of MANY ABUSES AS A CHILD...yes I made peace and sought professional therapy in 1988 for all the crap.....TODAY....I ask the Holy Spirit to help ME...I spent the morning with another of MY friends...I met her 5 YEARS ago...and she is willing to get to know ME and ask questions about Jesus and the bible too which is MY FAVORITE talking and sharing Jesus love and the Word of God...the Bible.....I TRY to remember to walk everyday.... God willing and TODAY I  choose to walk the park paths by MY NEW apartment...the park has a path with a tons of trees....so beautiful......then I came here with plans of fixing puzzle and blogging to all here and let you know to MY CHOICES are for loving people and the NEW adventure of meeting NEW PEOPLE.... to be MY friends.....those My Holy Spirit leads ME to are very kind....remember...these are STRANGERS....people that come to the library....anyway....I didn't have to use NICOTINE for courage or for meeting NEW PEOPLE...I prayed and I really enjoy fixing the puzzle and I was directed by the Holy Spirit to take it easy ....I have a tendency to get VERY EXCITED and JOYFULL.....at meeting NEW people....AGAPE LOVE SETS ME ON FIRE TO LOVE PEOPLE...just like God loves ME AND ALL OF YOU TO IF YOU DESIRE HIM..YOUR CHOICE...Ellie is Gods gift to ME..MY BELIEF......and I also have FAITH to BELIEVE... Ellie and  NEW PEOPLE will soon be a puzzle friend too...DOUBLE LOVE GIFT FROM GOD.....then a gentleman came in and we both said hello...I asked if he would like MY chair to fix puzzle...he said no he has to go home for lunch ...he spent too much time on computer.. I said I have to go and eat lunch too and thanked Ellie for fixing puzzle with ME and it was very nice meeting her...I ask Holy Spirit to help ME remember her name...I am getting better at remembering names...PROGRESS......I just wanted to share that I NEVER paid attention with love leading ME to get to meet NEW PEOPLE...today...I do and I am so grateful to have friends to talk with ....fix a puzzle at library with....and most of all for God blessing ME with ALL OF MY RECOVERING FROM NICOTINE FAMILY here....thank you ALL for teaching ME to share MY heart with new PEOPLE and trust God's AGAPE LOVE...not human fleshy love with strings attached...some PEOPLE ARE LIKE THAT....USERS....FOR SELFISHNESS....I KNOW PERSONALLY BECAUSE I USE TO BE ONE... UNTIL....MY Lord Jesus saved ME....I am so joyful to be healed in those areas so I could love me and be a friend....to ANYONE...I meet today...even if it is just to smile at....or say good morning in passing.....YOU NEVER KNOW....it was SUGGESTED....smile....you speak first and to NOTICE PEOPLE first......we all want to be LOVED.. to have friends...I know I do...so I am stepping OUT and making the FIRST MOVE...also...staying QUIT no matter what TOGETHER WITH ALL OF YOU....this NEW NICOTINE LIFESTYLE.... is well worth ALL the pain I went through to know in MY HEART...I am a TRUE FRIEND for I know I am loved by God....God loves you and so do I.....please remember smile at PEOPLE.....you NEVER know you may save their life!

Please I am talking about ME and not anyone else....so take what HELPS...and let go of the rest....thank you...I was walking here this morning and I was praying to not give up.....life on life terms is hitting BACK TO BACK...with NO RECOVERY BREATHING IN BETWEEN... changes is constantly happening good and bad...prayer is helping ME.......... I am a RECOVERING NICOTINE ADDICT with the BIG baby in ME FROM OLD BEHAVIOR TO FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF FOR NO REASON...life is life so deal with it...that was SUGGESTED TO ME......the immaturity in ME OLD HABITS....OLD FEELINGS...OLD WAYS OF COPING.....not ACTING EMOTIONAL MATURE at handling life on lifes terms...just go with the flow...what is MY business and NOT MY BUSINESS...this OLD BABY ME IS TRYING to take ME to the pity-party....so I called the Trinity Broadcasting Network to ask for prayer that I don't give up....the woman was very loving...called me her sister and prayed so fast......like she had drank forty POTS OF CAFFINE.....I asked the Holy Spirit to help ME TO LISTEN....all I know is I am here TRYING to give out badges of ENCOURAGEMENT TO OTHERS.....and now to share MY emotions that are from EXPECTATIONS of life....people.....places....things....situations....OF MY OLD WAY OF LIFE WAYS....I WILL NOT BE A BIG BABY AND QUIT LIFE...I called for help NOT TO GIVE UP ..to ACCEPT LIFE MY LIFE AS IT IS AT THIS MOMENT.....just life on life's terms....nothing in particular...yet the life that is happening is ALL NEGATIVE CRAP.....my husbands mom is very ill and some of her children are saying she wont make it to thanksgiving....most of my friends are very ill due to physical ailments....its seems....I am letting MYSELF...not see the good with the overwhelming negatives of life just being life....my friends are getting old and suffering the consequences of life in the physical...FROM THEIR CHOICES OF OLD LIFE LIVING IN THE PAST.....some due to falling and breaking of brittle bones....some with no one to care for them at home due to insurance changes....if you don't DO THIS MEDICADE WILL NOT PAY.....I always TRY to remember to PRAY FOR OTHERS ABOVE MYSELF....yet today I had NOTHING TO GIVE.....I really didn't care at the MOMENT....I woke up and I  did PRAY FOR OTHERS FIRST....yet I notice in ME the.... false guilt.. then I remembered.......I was taught....SCREW GUILT.....I never have asked for PRAYER FOR ME...so today I let go of FALSE BELIEFS...FALSE GUILT...and called for prayer for ME...and now...I am thinking better about ME and MY LIFE in Christ Jesus....just because I have Christ does NOT mean I do NOT have to do any foot work ....I am responsible to have disciple and self-control to say....out loud and walk MY TALK....I pray and TRY to believe more and more......I am content and EMOTIONAL STABLE TODAY.....in Jesus name amen HOORAY FOR JESUS!!! Just wanted to share that it is OK to ask for prayer for MYSELF because how can I give away something I do not have to others.....so I am STAYING QUIT NO MATTER WHAT.... not using NICOTINE OVER ME...AND I AM NOT GIVING UP AND I AM VERY GRATEFUL I AM GROWING UP INSIDE AND NOT ASHAMED TO FACE ALL MY FEARS OF ADMITTING....I too need encouragement and who better to do it than MYSELF....with OTHERS LEADING BY THEIR EXAMPLES......not using nicotine over MYSELF....or letting FEAR OF SELF NEEDING PRAYER AND CALLING A PRAYER LIFE-LINE.....Gosh it is wonderful that I will remember.....r ALL God has done to bring ME this far.....GOD ALONE...God loves to hear from ALL his children.....even ME...when I am at MY weakest....to cry out and tell MYSELF...DO NOT GIVE UP.....step by step I made it here to share TODAY....the VICTORY in Christ in Jesus name amen....GOD IS LOVE....TO ALL WHO CHOOSE HIS LOVE....HIS GRACE.....THE GIFT OF THE PRESENT.....PRAYER to ask for HELP AND NOT TO GIVE UP! Thanks for letting ME share with all of you who MAY have to encourage themselves too.

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PAUSE

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Sep 1, 2017

I was taught 6 YEARS ago...when I first stopped using nicotine....my thoughts were OBESSIVE and MY main objective was to USE NICOTINE for everything in ME and MY new RECOVERING LIFE in Christ.... I WAS CONSTANTLY THINKING OF USING NICOTINE ALL THE DAYS LONG......PLEASE take what HELPS and let go of the rest......THANK YOU......so it was SUGGESTED TO ME..it was SUGGESTED TO COME HERE AND TELL ON MYSELF AND MY THOUGHTS.....I was taught to PAUSE....BREATHE....PAUSE...... by MY brother Jonathan to PAUSE.....BREATHE.....for every I thought I had of USING NICOTINE.....so I took the SUGGESTION and I still apply the PAUSE.... when dealing with life on life's terms for ME......TODAY.....before I do anything in MY NEW NICOTINE LIFESTYLE..PAUSE..THINK WHAT YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT....in MY EARLY RECOVERING...THOUGHTS WERE CONSUMED WITH SMOKING MY 50 CIGS A DAY AT THE END OF MY USING NICOTINE..... thoughts were so obsessive that NOTHING I CHOSE TO HELP MYSELF WORKED....so I would blog... blog...... blog..... BEFORE I took that first puff over ME..... I remember it was SUGGESTED to PAUSE....come and blog and let everyone know what was going on in MY NEW NICOTINE FREE LIFESTYLE and MY OBSESSIVE THOUGHT LIFE....I confessed MY thought life in the NEW life was OLD THOUGHTS....NICOTINE THOUGHTS CONSUMMED MY EVERY THOUGHT.....I was told to go to whyquit.com and watch videos...read nicotine free books by those WHO it worked for them....try it and if it doesn't work for you TRY another's example that they are WALKING AND STAYING QUIT.....PAUSE......also to come here to this site and read the BLOGS of those staying quit..i still MISS THE OLD SITE..so I PAUSE and change MY THINKING attitude of gratitude for MY acceptance that NOTHING STAYS THE SAME...I can be a PART OF THE SOLUTION....or be SELF-CENTERED to be part of the PROBLEM.....this suggestion to PAUSE...and take the NEW suggestions OFFERED IN LOVE....to TRY......these NEW IDEAS and suggestions....I have thrown away ALL MY OLD WAY OF THINKING.......I would PAUSE...I would not take MYSELF so serious for laughter is the BEST medicine to  HELP ME let go of MY PRIDE......these PAUSE were taught by many many besides these I am listing here......Tommy...Froguelady.....Barbara.....Cindy.....Iriseyes...Izzy...Terrie...some of these people don't come here any longer......I would PAUSE and remember Doris who has now passed away....Doris helped ME everyday by loving ME and teaching ME to love this NEW WAY OF LIVING WITHOUT USING NICOTINE OVER ME.....everyday Doris left ME love graphics.....I love and miss Doris....I remember Laura who USE to come here and no longer does....taught ME TO PAUSE.....to get a menthol cough drop and breathe to get a NEW thought and say out loud...I no longer use nicotine....I remember Peggy who would encourage ME to PAUSE and think of others ABOVE MYSELF she always did....... I remember to PAUSE and be grateful I can breath after 38 YEARS OF USING NICOTINE....that PAUSE was taught to ME by my beloved brother THOMAS...attitude of gratitude I could BREATHE FREELY.......I remember G who was so pissed that I kept CHANGING MY ICON.....the PAUSE G taught ME was to let go of all MY CONTROLLING OLD WAYS....to be of SERVICE in tough love just like G was given.... the PAUSE I was taught by my beloved brother Denny.....who is no longer here .....he gave ME a new thought.....THINK....THINK....THINK......If one of us is going to use nicotine I feel sorry for you.....which I still PAUSE and thank MY Higher Power who is God...by his grace I PAUSE and surrender ALL OF ME....to God's perfect will for ME to PAUSE and try to help ALL those who suffer from nicotine.....PAUSE....has helped ME....to mind MY own business and remember to use MY experience at being taught a NEW WAY OF THINKING AND LIVING....for ME.... is to PAUSE.....give God thanks FIRST and come to blog MY experience at living ONE MOMENT AT A TIME....and to pass on the knowledge and wisdom freely given to ME....this is the one TOOL that helps ME....I was given many FREELY by others STILL HERE.... to PAUSE and thank ALL OF YOU.... even though.... I HAVE NOT NAMED YOU HERE IN THIS BLOG....THE LIST WOULD BE TO ETERNITY.....if I have NOT typed your name PLEASE PAUSE ......and know.... YOU ARE IN MY HEART FOR I HAVE MET ALL OF PEOPLE HERE IN MY SIX YEARS OF TRYING TO BE OF SERVICE TO ANY WHO SO EVERS....in Jesus name amen HOORAY FOR JESUS!

This past MONTH we have been dealing with confrontation with the NEW management at our NEW apartment home. The management selling point for us was....everything in the apartment you are going to be moving into is NEW...ALL NEW...well none of it came to pass and we were given another apartment the management said was clean and ready to move in....it wasn't....we CHOOSE to accept the management offer...we had no money to move to another place that DAY....we had all our belongings in a RENTAL truck that DAY.....NOW the consequences of OUR CHOOSING TO ACCEPT...moving into someone else filth and unprofessional management who are liars......We....fyi.... is my husband and ME ....we started July 28, 2017 with requesting the PROMISES MADE TO US in the beginning......NEW everything.....painting done....carpet done... stove done. TOOK A MONTH OF CONSTANT REQUESTING...you PROMISED and then stating over and over the LIST of PROMISES.....fyi ..delivered a microwave from the stone age...it had *****....*****.....we took microwave to office requested a 2017 model....that's  a whole different soap opera.....we have had to fight to get the management to do what they promised....I had to unpack and re-pack for painters and carpet people....the management said I should be good at that by now..  the management took his anger out on ME when they delivered the NEW stove for 1950...it would be different if I was remodeling for I love Lucy  era... my husband said to management yes the stove is NEW....we will accept 1950 model.....I CHOOSE to not be easily offended by any of this crap happening on those DAYS....now time has passed and TODAY.....thoughts come and go of vengeance....hateful FEEELINGSSSS.....not getting enough clean breathing...I catch MYSELF holding MY breathe as I fantasy getting vengeance on ALL of them to make them SUFFER........FEEELLLINGSSSSSS of dizziness....thoughts UNDISCIPLINED.....so I cried out to JESUS......please take what HELPS and let go of the rest....thank you....I prayed and confessed all my hate-filled thoughts and I ask the Holy Spirit to hold me and teach me to be disciplined and self-controlled just like Jesus....it is written.... love you enemies....so I am TRYING to accept MYSELF and love MYSELF....for I was taught .....if some person place thing or circumstance situation is bothering ME....I MUST ACCEPT.....that person place thing or circumstance situation as Gods will for ME.....I am talking about ME not anyone else......so I cried for Jesus to help ME because I want vengeance NOT discipline NOT self-control NOT love MY enemies.....I admitted ALL MY hate filled thinking and asked forgiveness.....received forgiveness with NO GUILT OR CONDEMNATION....and NOW I am here to confess to ALL of you.....MY really inside healing that has been done for I surrendered to JESUS ALL MY RIGHTS......ALL MY THINKING....and I claim by faith....it is written ....I have the mind of Christ.....this was taught to ME .....that I seek in MY heart to do Christ Jesus will above ALL I think....I sincerely want to be DISCIPLINED AND SELF-CONTROLLED....just like Jesus wants ME to be I confessed I didn't KNOW how to be genuine inside with REAL AGAPE LOVE and desire to be responsible for ME and MY thought life.....MY prayers were answered for here I sit after praying and exercising for one hour and 20 minutes by walking quickly and remembering to breath......then I chose to  walk to library to tell ALL of you who understand a RECOVERING ADDICTS addictions that will get out of control and TRY to created STINKING THINKING ACTION..... it is MY responsibility to be DISCIPLINED and SELF-CONTROLLED over ME....ONLY ME AND MY ATTITUDES....not the management ...WE did our part.....WE must wait for the rest of the PROMISES made by management.....so to walk MY DISCIPLINED AND SELF- CONTROLLED LIFESTYLE....I must share the WHOLE story with God...myself and I chose and made MY decision to share with ALL of you.....it is still possible to have thoughts of INSANITY AND FANTASY and NOT let them have CONTROL OVER ME....plus I am doubled blessed to have ALL of you to come and pour MY heart out and know I am still being of HELP to some  ONE and NOT ONE PUFF OVER ME.....I truly am DISCIPLINED AND SELF-CONTROLLED....I stay quit no matter what and choose the HIGH ROAD to be loving and enjoying helping MYSELF FIRST....for how can I give away something I don't have...TODAY I have the willingness to be all God wants ME to be TODAY...healthy...NICOTINE FREE....and DISCIPLINED AND SELF- CONTROLLED.  Thank you ALL for letting ME share...a moment of MY day.....NICOTINE FREE....HOORAY FOR JESUS!

indingrl.01.06.2011

H.O.W.

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Aug 28, 2017

How I STAY QUIT....I do not take that first PUFF over ME...H is for HONESTY WITH MYSELF....I am a recovering nicotine addict...one day at a time by MY Higher Power....who is God....gives me His grace....My Lord and Savior Jesus to remain NICOTINE FREE by MY faith in the Holy Spirit keeping ME....thinking of other NICOTINE addicts above MYSELF and to share MY experience, strength and hope with them ...FREELY GIVE...freely GIVEN ALL AWAY.

How do I put this in ACTION....by praying first and asking God to keep ME....O is for open- mindedness.... to LEARN from those who are YEARS living and staying quit and by taking their SUGGESTIONS...to always remain TEACHABLE IN LOVE and remember to HELP some ONE.

How living is done by Faith in the God I serve and the blessing of this site SUPPORT GROUP...to TRY and help out when I am able to come to MY local library to use their FREE computers...and to blog how the W is for the willingness to do Gods will and service other in His love to help give hope and share what I am living....A NEW LIFE NICOTINE FREE....in MY own skin...in peace with God, myself and others....to believe I can be of service to some ONE...that  if you CHOOSE to follow the SUGGESTIONS given from those with YEARS of living in THEIR OWN SKIN WITHOUT USING NICOTINE....you to will learn HONESTY WITH SELF....to remain OPEN-MINDED...to be TAUGHT by the WILLINGNESS of others on this site reading their blogs when they remember what they USE to be like using nicotine...what HAPPENED inside of them and what they are doing TODAY by living NICOTINE free....They taught ME...to admit in MY heart ...I am a nicotine addict and powerless over nicotine....I came to believe that with My Higher Power who is God and the support of this on line RECOVERING FROM NICOTINE GROUP.....we will STAY QUIT TOGETER NO MATTER WHAT...in UNITY...with each other loving and teaching each other NEW IDEAS.....NEW COPING SKILLS...also.....to enjoy life NICOTINE FREE....by living in the PRESENT of each NEW DAY and enjoying EACH THING WE DO......like sharing this blog with those who are NEW AND THOSE RECOVERING TODAY....I took the SUGGESTIONS and I still do by coming and reading and sharing MY HEART with just living in the MOMENTS. Please take what HELPS and let go of the rest .....to be helpful is MY only aim...in Jesus name amen. SMOKE FREE AND REJOICING IN MY CHRIST- LIFE STYLE.....in Jesus name amen.

indingrl.01.06.2011

Friendships to ME

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Aug 21, 2017

I came here today out of learning NEW changes....learning about NEW friendships too.....I have to put forth the effort of going and trying to meet NEW people....I overheard this man telling this man not to get old....I realized I am not the only one looking for company just to chat with....I put my NEW attempts out there and now I wait for a response....this waiting period is when I USED NICOTINE TO RELIEF THE ANXIETY OF WAITING....to be accepted or passed by.....I try NOT to look at being passed over as REJECTION.....people are busy and have appointments as MY friend just told me because I said you text ME when your not busy because I am tired to being rejected...she said I am not rejecting you I have things to do in life..so I said ok I understand.....yet NOT until she brought to MY attention...I am NOT perfect...that took ME along time to accept that I was not perfect because I tried so hard to be .....I am laughing..... it took YEARS....I am becoming more and more human...yet I MUST stay grown up in Jesus name amen......I have gotten grateful at accepting being passed by and not even thinking of USING nicotine or escaping through FOOD... I just keep trying NEW THINGS I have never done before because TODAY I will NOT live in fear......I do realize I always went LOOKING for some escape from the deadness space of waiting....for love ...for chit chatting....for company....for friendship......for someone's attention....NOW only by Gods grace....please I am talking about me not anyone else...take what helps and let go of the rest....thank you....I am able to admit to God to MYSELF and now to all of you...I trust MY recovering from nicotine family for understanding MY mental twists and emotional insanity at moments of MY recovery.....FRIENDSHIP'S OF TODAY.....I try daily to improve....MY ACTION.....I love people and I enjoy helping them daily....smiling at someone...saying good morning to all those I see and meet TODAY....going out of my way to lift people in prayer as My spirit is prompted to as we pass each other or thoughts come to mind to pray.....in MY heart to  prayed for all the schools that hold the next generations this morning on my walking here to the library....I tried to get together with a friend to fix a jigsaw puzzle...passed by she had busyness and life to do today....I got out went and exercised the walk paths at the park...walked here to the library...blog....BEFORE I give into emotional immaturity and LOOK for an excuse to be emotionally out of control and let my feelings lead me to ADDICTIONS......NOT ONE PUFF OVER ME....I made the decision to be honest with MY Daddy God and MYSELF...and now all of you....I asked God to be MY friend...I ask Jesus to be MY friend ...I ask Holy Spirit to be MY friend and to teach ME to be a friend to MYSELF first.... for how can I give away something I do not have...so what would I give to a friend first...a loving Good morning....and a comforting nudge to SUGGEST.... lets go for a walk and share our love with all others we meet and lets smile and be kind and gentle as we meet those on our path today...this is what I do to think NEW...live NEW....and to TRY...to be NEW in MY heart this day and remember to always be grateful to God ...I have all his blessings each day to see with MY own eyes to blog and type this love note to MY recovering family that I am very responsible for MY own joy and friendship to God and self first then to others....growing up nicely one moment at a time....God is good to ME always....the local library has free computers I can use for two hours...they started a jigsaw puzzle in the quite room for anyone who wants to fix....remember to let other fix it too...I obey the sharing rule....before I would be the ONE to fix it all the puzzle for pride not friendships....I am so grateful to be living life not using nicotine to PRETEND living life......thanks for letting ME be your friend.

I try helping others by sharing how I use to smoke 50 cigs a day...I prayed and was given a cold turkey quit...I have been coming to this site for over 6 YEARS....I still give what was given to me... you cant give away something you do not have.... as far as SUGGESTIONS....the lesson I am learning as of lately.....it was SUGGESTED TO ME....you GOT TO WANT to quit using nicotine for you....so I prayed and I was given MY FREEDOM through MY HIGHER POWER WHO IS GOD.....I come here to help ALL THOSE SUFFERING FROM NICOTINE ADDICTION.....not any other reason....to give support to RECOVERING MEMBERS HERE....and to the NEWCOMERS.... who are the most important members HERE.....it was SUGGESTED to educate MYSELF on MY nicotine addiction....I must admit to MYSELF....in MY heart....I am a nicotine addict and I am powerless over nicotine....one puff will send ME right back to 50 cigs a day and MAYBE...instant death...massive heart attack since MY addiction has been in remission or MAYBE a slow suffocation death.....CHOICES and I am choosing of MY OWN FREE WILL......I WILL NOT TAKE ONE PUFF OVER MY....please take what you like and leave the rest....to be HELPFUL is MY only aim....let go of the rest....don't deceive YOURSELF into thinking that MY BLOG OR USE OF MY HIGHER POWER....or the way I CHOOSE TO HELP..... causes you to have an excuse to use NICOTINE....by blaming.....SUGGESTED TO ME OVER 6 YEARS AGO.....admit complete defeat and let OTHERS who have YEARS LIVING LIFE ON LIFES TERMS.....teach you with your MIND OPEN to their STAYING QUIT NO MATTER WHAT......THEIR TRUTH....FACTS....WALKING THEIR TALK......if you think you can quit by YOURSELF....go for it....if you want HELP AND FELLOWSHIP WITH LOVE AND TRUTH....choices....choices...choices....then BEFORE YOU USE NICOTINE....give YOURSELF a chance and blog... blog.... BLOG!.....before you use NICOTINE over YOU and tell on YOURSELF... blog the TRUTH about YOU AND YOUR ADDICTION...NO ONE ELSE...that was said to ME...over 6 YEARS ago...I still blog to vent...blog to help...blog because I need  HELP...LOVE ....FELLOWSHIP TO KNOW I AM NOT ALONE.....and MOST OF ALL I NEED ALL OF YOU HERE....I WILL NOT DO THIS ALONE...I TRIED AND FAILED....it was SUGGESTED TO ME...I was the problem and MY PRIDE....MINE...not anyone else....ALL ME!!!  I was in the way of MY receiving the helping words with love....from ALL here that were LIVING NICOTINE FREE....its a LIFESTYLE now....thanks for letting ME share!

indingrl.01.06.2011

Self- deceived

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Aug 16, 2017

Back in the PAST of MY using nicotine... I thought I will NOT get cancer from smoking nicotine.... OTHERS get cancer from smoking nicotine not ME.... then I watched an early death video from using NICOTINE..... Bryon was his name... his wife and famiy wanted to post it at whyquit.com.... it OPENED MY EYES on how I deceived MYSELF... Bryon was so young... I looked at his wifes face and at his young son as the watched Bryon die.... sharing this video in HOPE that Bryons early death would HELP someone to QUIT smoking nicotine.... I emailed Bryons family to thank them and let them know how grateful I was for their love and courage to give unconditionally LIFE to ME.... I am no longer self-deceived... NICOTINE is still being used to cope with the issues inside of users thinking CANCER HAPPENS TO OTHERS....I thank God for ALL here who suggested I go educated MYSELF here at this site AND at whyquit.com... May God bless Bryons family and ALL here who TRY to help ALL those who WANT nicotine FREEDOM in Jesus name amen PLEASE take what helps and leave the rest... thank you.