It's been 15 days since my last cigarette. We just moved to a new apartment that is huge!! It has two balconies!! One off the master! All I keep thinking is, how I'd love to just sit out there and smoke and stare at the stars. I tried to just go out and stare at the stars but it made me want to smoke. Obviously, I won't. I have no smokes and I'm alone with 2 kids so I wouldn't leave the house to go find someone smoking to bum one. I have no choice but to sit here and NOT smoke. I just wish I didn't want to. I miss it. Don't get me wrong- I'm happy to not be killing myself and not spending money on it but I miss it and when I think about- "A few weeks ago, I'd be smoking during this situation." How do you change that self talk? It comes on without consciousness. I redirect and say, "Yes but you made it this far! You don't want to relive that first few days where it physically HURT to not smoke. You'll get through this!!!"
Plus- saving money- 3 months and we head to Disney World!! Glad to not feel guilty about not being able to save money because I spend all our extra money on smokes. Nope!!
