Well, I guess it was 473 or 474...but really?
I was standing at the door to my van - passenger side, door open. Windy. Watching something, or waiting. And smoking. sheesh. The ashes were flying into the door - the speaker at the bottom of the door(which is actually a flashback to the car I totalled right before I quit smoking - I have not smoked since I owned the van). I remember the ashes kind of melting the plastic. The black spotty ash melted plastic. At least I wasn't smoking insive the van.
Weird. The whole dream was weird. Unrealisitc. But I woke up remembering the smoking part and thinking in the dream that I had anther pack in the console....and for a brief moment I wondered if I did have a pack left over before remembering I never smoked in the van and th console I was remembering was in the Toy. As well as the burn marks.
I hope everyone had great Holidays. It was different and hard without my son but we got through it. It was just a little different and I think my girl loved doing so much on her own. She helped with the tree. She made the Christmas Eve soup, she made the NYE pizza...She was amazing and I think she had a great Holiday season.
This is my second holiday season. I have lots more second seasons to get through this year. But I am not a smoker any more.
We took down the tree and inside decorations yesterday - but it started snowing again before we got to the outside ones. 9 inches of fresh snow. I went out and played in it and shoveled all of the neighbors' walks and enjoyed it, instead of huddled in a coat smoking and freezing. YAY!
I will be having my first physical since before I quit smoking in two weeks. I am excited to get the results.
Be well!
Lisa
I have just not smoked every single day for 475 days in a row.
