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10 Years Today!!!

Posted by ctm Sep 8, 2018

I remember joining this site about 2 months after quitting in 2008.  I spent A LOT of my spare time here giving and receiving support during the first year of this quit.  I don't remember the details but based on some of my blog posts, it was a rough and rocky ride to say the least 


Fast forward to now and I can't remember the last time I had even the slightest craving for a cigarette.  These days, the smell of second and third hand smoke is completely beyond repulsive to me.  I love the freedom that comes from no longer having that ball and chain attached, and that dictated what I did every waking moment.


I'm writing this to thank everyone who was there for me when I quit although I'm not sure how many of you are still active here.  I'm also writing this to support newer quitters because I know that there are people out there who are wanting to smoke and I want you to know one thing:


This addiction can be beaten!!!!

Happy quitting and have a wonderful weekend!


ctm Archived Profile

Posted by ctm Jan 23, 2017


Hello. My name is Chuck.


  I'm 48, married and have one daughter who is attending college.


  I smoked for 32 years and tried to quit several times but always failed. Fifteen years ago, I was able to quit cold turkey for 6 weeks. At the time, I thought I had "the habit" under control and smoked a pack just for fun.




  I did not know it at the time, but I broke the law. The "Law of Addiction" (stated below from


  The law of physiological addiction states that administration of a drug to an addict will cause reestablishment of the dependence on that substance.


  I had completely blown my quit and continued to smoke.


  Fifteen years later, during a physical exam, the doctor told me that I did NOT have emphysema. He also told me "we have put people on the oxygen bottle as young as 50". After 32 years of smoking, I figured it was finally time to stop making excuses and stop before it permanently ruined my health.


  I found a great website ( that had A LOT of information about nicotine addiction. I had always failed to "quit smokin" so this time I tackled the problem from a nicotine addiction perspective.




  I quit cold turkey on 9-8-2008 after spending about a week reading the materials on and have thus far never looked back. I am convinced that EDUCATION regarding the nature of this addiction so that we can UNDERSTAND what we are up against and SUPPORT are the keys to making this work.



Chuck's Stuff...

My wife Ann and I with our daughter Katherine.

Giving blood is an easy way to help save lives. It only takes a few minutes and it doesn't hurt. I strongly encourage you to do so if you can.

My Quit Meter!!!

I highly recommend the site below for information regarding nicotine addiction and how to quit smoking. - a free online quit smoking forum offering motivation, education, skills development, counseling and serious group support


Here are some good books which discuss nicotine addiction:


Never Take Another Puff by Joel Spitzer
This one was my "holy bible" of quitting for the first month or so. I've read it many times and highly recommend it.


Freedom from Nicotine The Journey Home by John R. Polito
Another outstanding read from the people at Lots of information with lots of references to back it up.


The Easy Way To Stop Smoking by Allen Carr
Another great book. I didn't read this until I was several months into my quit. I do like the book and a lot of people swear by it.


SCANDAL by Allen Carr
Another interesting read by Allen Carr written before he died.




Other interesting sites:


Warning: The picture on the homepage of this site is pretty gross.


Joe Chemo
Nice. I love this marketing...

Lots of anti Big Tobacco stuff on this site.


Misc Stuff...

The "Marlboro Man"

and after...

Wayne McLaren was one of the "Marlboro Cowboys" and died of lung cancer at 51 years of age.



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I love the smokers at work...

Posted by ctm Apr 18, 2013

I have almost 5 nicotine-free years under my belt now and have basically forgotten what it's like to be attached to the ball and chain.

There aren't very many smokers where I work but they do provide a number of reminders:

Smelling the smell.

Seeing the pack of poison.

Seeing the cough drops next to the box of poison.

The coughing of people who are too congested to breathe even after eating cough drops like hard candy.

Switching to e-Cigarettes as a quit smoking aid.

Watching them suck on the e-Cigarettes to get their nourishment like a person drawing their life saving breath after being submerged under water to the point of death.

And so on...

At one time, they disgusted me.  Now I just use them to continue strengthening my own quit.

The reason I'm writing this is because today, I came way closer to someone smoking an e-Cigarette than I ever want to be.  After that episode, my brain felt "off" for a bit.  Thankfully, it's over now.

Thanks for letting me vent.  I wish all of you the best.

Never Take Another Puff!!!


4 Years Today…

Posted by ctm Sep 8, 2012

After spending 32 years of my life incarcerated as a practicing nicotine addict, I am elated to be celebrating 4 years of FREEDOM today!!!

I don’t remember the details of what it was like to be “locked up”, but I do know that I never want to go back to that place.

I would like to thank the members of this site for their AWESOME support because I could never have done this without you.

I wish all of you the best in beating this addiction.

Never Take Another Puff!!!


3 Years Today…

Posted by ctm Sep 8, 2011

When I was actively involved in quitting for my first year or so, I never had a problem articulating my thoughts about smoking and quitting.  The process of recovery for that period seemed to consume most of my waking hours.

After making 3 trips around the sun sans nicotine in any form, I just don’t think about it anymore.  I can’t even vaguely remember the last time I wanted to smoke.  I don’t even remember the gory details of the journey without rereading my old blogs.

For newer quitters who are struggling, I can tell you that your struggles WILL end if you just stick with it.  I can also tell you that the long term rewards more than make up for the initial inconveniences of quitting.

For me, nicotine addiction education ( and a great support group ( were instrumental to my success.  I wish all of you the same success that I have enjoyed.

Never Take Another Puff!!!


Just had to share this one... :-)

Posted by ctm Mar 17, 2011

A penguin is out on a road trip when his car breaks down in the middle of the desert. He walks to the nearest service station. They tow his car in and he walks next door to an ice cream shop to wait while they work on it. The penguin orders a dish of vanilla ice cream. It's very hot out, so it's almost melted by the time he eats it, and he gets melted ice cream all over his face.

The penguin walks back to the service station and asks the mechanic, "So, have you found the problem?"

The mechanic says, "Looks like you blew a seal."

"Oh no," says the penguin, "it's just vanilla ice cream."



24 Years!

Posted by ctm Sep 12, 2010

My wife and I are celebrating our 24th wedding anniversary this weekend.  To celebrate the occasion, we booked a “romantic getaway package deal” at a hotel not too far from our home.

The check in process was a real eye opener for me.  The entire facility was non-smoking and you had to sign a waiver agreeing to a $250 fine if you were caught smoking inside the facility.

We were hanging out by the pool today and I saw some pathetic wretch in the parking lot getting his nicotine fix.  He didn’t look like he was enjoying the experience at all.  More like a leper than anything else.

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO thankful that I no longer have to deal with the ball and chain anymore and am grateful for these kinds of reminders that come up from time to time.

Wishing all of you a Happy Sunday and…

Never Take Another Puff!!!



2 Years Today…

Posted by ctm Sep 8, 2010

I don’t post here very often anymore but I do poke my head in from time to time just so that I don’t forget where I came from.

After reading some old posts of mine, apparently my first year of quitting was quite a ride :-)

Thankfully, the second year was for the most part effortless.  The only time I ever really think about smoking anymore is when I am exposed to 2nd /3rd hand smoke against my will.  I find it to be beyond repulsive at this point.

So, for you newer quitters out there, there is a light at the end of the tunnel (and it’s not a train coming at you :-)))).

This is one of my favorite smoking standup routines.

Please enjoy and Never Take Another Puff!!!

Bill Hicks



Third Hand Smoke Blog…

Posted by ctm Feb 24, 2010

I’m not talking about being the third person down the line who gets to suck on the joint!!!  This is a blog about legal drugs :-)
OK.  Enough humor…

“Third hand smoke” is basically the residue left on a smoker’s body after smoking a cigarette.

Over time, I have become EXTREMELY sensitized to it and my reaction is unpredictable.

Sometimes, I could not care less… :-))))))))))))))

But then there are the other times… :-(((((((((((((

In general, my basic policy is to stay as far away as possible from people who smoke.

Due to circumstances outside of my control, I cannot enforce my basic policy (at least for the time being).

Over the last few days, something within me seems to be not right.

Getting to the point of this blog…

When you smell “third hand smoke” in other than minute quantities:

Does it make you feel not quite right?

Does it make you want to smoke?

Are the feelings “in my head” or is there real “brain chemistry activity” going on?

How long does it take to not care less forever (if ever)?

Any suggestions to face this trigger head on and kick it in the a$$?

I feel like I want to effing kill something :-(

Thanking all of you in advance for your responses…



17 Months Today!

Posted by ctm Feb 9, 2010

My reward?


The only person who smokes in my office was moved into the cube next to mine.


Joy :-(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((


Never Take Another Breath At Work Puff :-)))))))))))))))))))))




One hour at a time…

Posted by ctm Feb 1, 2010

I was doing some spring cleaning this weekend and stumbled upon what now looks like something that belongs in a museum.

When I first quit, I created a spreadsheet where each column represented a day and each row represented an hour.

The “one day at a time” thing was too much for me to do in the beginning so I took it “one hour at a time”.

Every hour, I put another X in the box and every morning, I filled in the blanks for every hour of sleeping the night before.

It might sound extreme, but it worked for me.  It’s pretty easy to build time on the fast track using this method and the numbers game helped A LOT in the early stages of my quit.

At this stage in my quit (approaching 1.5 years) counting hours almost seems silly.  I don’t remember the gory details of how hard the early days were, but apparently, they were hard enough that I had to take it “one hour at a time’.

OUCH :-(

I folded the spreadsheet and put it into my copy of “The Easy Way to Stop Smoking” by Allen Carr.  I like to have a reminder of how far I’ve come to help me remember that I don’t ever want to go there again.

The main reason I’m sharing this is to let new quitters know that what you’re feeling now is only temporary.  Take it “one X at a time” where X is an hour, a day, a minute, a week or whatever.  Be patient and before you know it, you’ll forget what it’s like to smoke and you’ll be not smoking effortlessly for days/weeks/months at a time.

Never Take Another Puff!!!!!



500 days…

Posted by ctm Jan 21, 2010

While I don’t actively participate in this site very often these days, being a participating member was instrumental to my success in quitting for the better part of my first year.

I see that there are a lot of recent quitters here and I just want let all of you know that IT DOES GET BETTER.  Be patient. Take it one day at a time or even one hour at a time if you need to.  The day will come when you don’t want to smoke or even think about smoking.  Try to enjoy the journey and don’t focus on the destination.

Learn all you can about nicotine addiction and help others when they are in need.  The more times you tell someone they don’t need to smoke, the more you believe it yourself.

I found humor to be an indispensable tool when I was quitting.  To that end, I would like to share a funny I heard today (thanks Diane).

 Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. Give her sperm she will make a baby, give her a house she will give you a home, give her groceries she will give you a meal, give her a smile she will give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what she is given. So if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of ****! Just passing along some words O'wisdom.

 Never Take Another Puff!!!!!


Eye M Sea Nile :-)…

Posted by ctm Nov 26, 2009

My daughter recently became a vegan and this was the first Thanksgiving that we’ve had to consider different options.

I’ve eaten a predominately vegetarian diet for years and could probably give up meat but vegans bring the concept of not using animal products to a whole new level.

At any rate, my wife and I were shopping and reading lists of ingredients to make sure that we could have a traditional Thanksgiving meal.  The vegetables are easy, as are the mashed potatoes.  With a bit of effort, we were able to find a stuffing mix and a bread mix that had no animal products whatsoever.

Then we went to the spice aisle and started reading the poultry seasoning ingredients to make sure that the seasoning was vegan friendly.  After about a minute, it dawned on me that who cares because my daughter won’t eat the bird anyway!!!

Kind of funny…  Today, my wife double checked the poultry seasoning to make sure that it was vegan friendly.  I reminded her that she didn’t have to bother... :-)

Happy Thanksgiving and…

Never Take Another Puff!!!!!



Another Holiday Pledge :-)

Posted by ctm Nov 25, 2009

I tried to repost a blog from last year but was unable to do so.  Here is the link to the original:

The holidays can be tough times for us even when we were smoking and even tougher when we’re trying to stay quit.

The state of the economy isn’t exactly making things any easier.

I’m seeing too many relapse posts lately and while I feel for the people who have to start over, I am 100% committed to keeping my quit throughout the holiday season.

To that end, I make the following pledge:

No matter how bad things may get, I promise to reach out to the people on this site before I reach for a cigarette.

There is strength in numbers.

I welcome all who would like to join me.




I found this article (Man Eats 200 Cigarettes to Quit Smoking) and could never imagine quitting like this. Whatever works is the bottom line I suppose.

Man Eats 200 Cigarettes to Quit Smoking

By Ashley Neglia

Some people choose the patch. Others the gum. Not Richie Magic. To kick his 40-year smoking habit, he put out 200 lit cigarettes on his tongue and then chewed them to ensure they were fully extinguished.

In just 6 minutes and 3.7 seconds, Magic, 53, set a world record for "orally extinguishing, chewing and expelling" one carton of cigarettes, Dr. David Adamovich, president of the Record Holders Republic, told the New York Daily News.

"I got pretty bad blisters," says the Scarsdale, N.Y. native. "After I finished I definitely felt dizzy... I was gagging. It was horrible, but I didn't want to leave to go to the hospital."

World record rules only permitted Magic to extinguish five cigarettes on his tongue at a time. However, there was no limit to how many he could have inside his mouth. Since he had to chew the cigarettes to make sure they were fully extinguished, at one point he had 40 or 50 in his mouth.

For Magic, though, it wasn't about himself, the pain or even the world record. It was for the kids.

After retiring from a 26-year career as a Westchester County correction officer, Magic legally changed his last name and became a master magician, a hobby he had been toying with since he was 10 years old. As a result, his new vocation found him surrounded by kids, some of whom look up to him. He didn't want to pass his habit onto anyone else, especially children, so he decided to quit smoking and get his message out loud and clear.

"I came up with the idea to tell [kids] how disgusting it was, for me to say that your mouth is going to taste, smell and feel like a human ashtray," he says. By Magic's count, nearly 100 children and teenagers attended the August 29 event. "After 20 or 30 [cigarettes], I started to feel like I was gagging. I was just staring at the little kids and [wanted to] yell at them, 'This is for you!'"

"I'm not smoking," Jennifer Mitchinson, 9, of England, vowed after watching Magic's act, according to the Daily News.

"I'm still ecstatic. I'm so hyped up with adrenaline. I’m so happy that I helped a lot of kids," he says. "They looked at me like a hero."

In the past, Magic hadn't really committed to kicking his two to three pack a day habit. "I chewed the gum, and I smoked with it and got really dizzy," he says. "I guess I wasn't ready."

Even though Magic admits he wasn't concerned with his own welfare, a medical doctor was on-hand to take his pulse and check his mouth while he was performing the stunt. "There were burn marks and blistering, but he wasn't that concerned about it," he says.

Two days later, the blistering in Magic's mouth still hadn't subsided, making it painful for him to talk. The only treatment he's used to assuage his throbbing mouth is gargling with salt water. "I'm going to survive," he says. "But I can never smoke another cigarette. I can't let these kids down. It was so worth it."