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Good morning Ex land

Posted by crazymama_Lori Jan 21, 2017

Holy-Moly, what a week this was. Monday was freezing rain. Nothing was moving. Several power outages due to falling trees and downed power lines. Work is finally picking up for me. December and January are always slow months due to the holidays and no court. I'm what they call a scopist and I work for court reporters. When I lived in Phoenix way back in the very early '80s, I was going to be a court reporter. I was going to be trained as a scopist by our court reporter when I worked in traffic court in Waukesha back in the '70s. I turned it down. And then 20 years later, I graduated from my training and have been doing this ever since. Absolutely love my job. Hate being an independent contractor because I never seem to get that estimated tax right in line, but I come close.

 

For over 20 years, I sat in my office and chain smoked while working away. My keyboard snowed when turned over. My tray that held the keyboard to my desk had ashes stuck in the back. Now it's basically crumbs and the tray is ever so clean. It's so nice not to have that perpetual yellow ET finger. I'm so looking forward to spring so I can paint my office. My bookcase filled with my smelly reference books will have to survive as is. It would cost thousands of dollars to replace all of those. It's just a reminder to me of yesteryear. Oh, and did I mention in about 4 days I'll be quit for a year...... hard to believe.

 

I may not be able to visit these sites myself personally on a daily basis. This is just a helpful suggestion for those of you new to this site. Give yourself a break once in a while. Be gentle with yourself. We all know life is full of stress, frustration, but you know what, that's just the way it is. It's important to learn how to reactdifferently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups or just click this link https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke for that day. “That day” adds up to 30 days, 60 days, for the rest of your life.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

crazymama_Lori

read blog in comments

Posted by crazymama_Lori Jan 18, 2017

it loves fighting with me this morning

crazymama_Lori

Conversation with Peggy

Posted by crazymama_Lori Jan 17, 2017

Nothing is in America anymore.  Broken English is the thing of the present.  After repeating myself to four different people, I finally got the problem resolved.

Now, mind you, last year around this time, I would have been huffing and puffing and getting so irritated by all this repeat, repeat and probably would have hung up.  By the fourth person, I think I was singing my problem to them.  I think I scared them because my problem was resolved pronto.

So to you, Peggy, bless your heart with the rest of your commarades.

To my favorite Ex peoples, stay smoke free out there......... Time to go ice skating

crazymama_Lori

Good morning Ex land

Posted by crazymama_Lori Jan 14, 2017

I remember the beginning very well. I went from the blubbering idiot to the raging psycho all in the matter of one minute.  The blubbering idiot never comes around anymore.  And if it does, it only stays for a short time.  Now the raging psycho likes to sit a spell and wreak havoc all ova the place.  I'm still working on that.  I have a lot of pent up anger that I need to resolve.  I never thought of myself as having a hair-trigger anger problem, but I guess I do. Out of all of the emotions that came swirling around the drain as I exited NML, anger stuck around the longest. The rest of the entourage, sadness, self-pity, etc., seemed to have died off eventually. They do show their head once in a while but I know that those emotions are what dragged me into the addictive thinking. We're getting that parsed out slowly but surely.  But I am liking this whole new patience thing going on.  I'll just take it in sections, it's all good. It's been almost a year, but I'll figure it out. Maybe I'll have an ephany one day. Who knows.

 

I may not be able to visit these sites myself personally on a daily basis. This is just a helpful suggestion for those of you new to this site. Give yourself a break once in a while. Be gentle with yourself. We all know life is full of stress, frustration, but you know what, that's just the way it is. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups or just click this link https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke for that day. “That day” adds up to 30 days, 60 days, for the rest of your life.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

January 8, 2016, Day 8 - Just real anxious for my sleep patterns to finally return back to somewhat normality. Read a post from a fellow smoker who is also quitting along with me about seeing these next 2 weeks as an ocean storm. the cravings are the waves that are coming in hard and quick, but go back out again only to come crashing back. After week 2 the calming starts and after the month mark, it's clear sailing.  An interesting article to read, just ignore the advertisements: http://www.quitsmokingsupport.com/withdrawal1.htm

My other observation is when I "fell off the wagon" the other day, after smoking my legs felt so damn heavy. I just thought to myself no wonder why I felt so tired all the time. the upswing is I'm getting a whole lot of things accomplished around here keeping busy. I'm more emotional today, but I'm sure that has to do with the lack of sleep or broken sleep I've been having. it's so nice to finally be able to lay down and not wheeze and to actually make it up the basement steps without being winded. Just remember if I can do this, you can too !!!!!

Once you stop romancing the thought of smoking just one cigarette again, that action of lighting up and pulling in the smoke, slowing letting it out, once you accept that it's only a thought you have now and not an action, you'll learn to not panic when it enters your mind. My thought, embrace it and see it for what it is. It's only a thought. Let's face it, we all have crazy thoughts, irrational thoughts once in a while. We just simply choose to not act on them. Yes, smoking is a choice, but to not smoke is another choice. This is not an either/or type of negotiation. It's not a thought of well, I'll only have one once in a while. I will guarantee you that in a few months you will be back to being a full-time smoker in no time. You're still feeding that need. I will bet that when something stressful in your life comes about, you're going to be puffing away. You're still refueling those receptors in your brain. If you continue down that road, you're only seeing smoking as a habit and not an addiction to nicotine.

 

Ask yourself why are you the one who lights up when no one else in your family feels the need. I'm taking the word “smoking” out of the equation in this conversation. Smoking is the action we do repeatedly. Nicotine is what keeps drawing us back. The simple answer to that is you are addicted to the nicotine in the cigarette that keeps you coming back and coming back. The weekend warriors are not addicts because they have no need whatsoever during the week to pull out a cigarette. They don't have to because they have learned other ways to cope with life in general. We somehow throughout the years have lost that ability, but it can be relearned.

 

Give yourself a break once in a while. Be gentle with yourself. We all know life is full of stress, frustration, but you know what, that's just the way it is. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups or just click this link https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke for that day. “That day” adds up to 30 days, 60 days, for the rest of your life.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

crazymama_Lori

Yada, Yada, Yada

Posted by crazymama_Lori Jan 5, 2017

Ah, yes, the addictive brain. It works overtime sometimes. It tells you that no one listens to you. Everyone misconstrues what you're talking about. Nobody wants to be around you anymore. No one cares. Maybe it's just me that's angry all the time. Why can't everyone just cooperate and do what they're supposed to do. The dialogue goes on and on and on.

 

I don't hear that much anymore, but I sure did the first 6 months of my quit. It was like the carrot in front of the greyhound at the track just replaying over and over and over. I remember that conversation from years ago. That voice always made me slip up. Had me running back to the store to get a pack because that solved everything. I'll deal with it tomorrow. Let me just have it today. I can't do it right now.

 

I remember vividly my first 30 days. I was crawling the walls. I was foggy, couldn't concentrate, tired all the time, yelling at everything and everybody. I had this tension that I just couldn't get rid of. I ripped up so much wallpaper and shelving paper in this house. I cleaned windows, ceiling fans, ripped apart my home office, washed curtains. I went through cupboards and rearranged things. The first 2 weeks I didn't have any work which helped a great deal because I could distract myself constantly.

 

I think the most frustrating part of quitting was the concentration for the first 6 months. My job is not physical but requires a lot of head work, research, grammar, sentence structure, conflict resolution. In the beginning I had to do a lot of things twice because I was missing so much. Then I learned to slow down and keep track of what I was doing. I had to revamp the way I worked to keep on top of it. I adapted.

 

Quitting smoking is just that. We have to learn to adapt to our new way of life. Learn new coping skills. Try different things. Move things around. Change things up. You smoked on your porch; rearrange it. You drank coffee with a cigarette; drink with the opposite hand. You stood; sit down. You smoked in your car driving; hide the ashtray or put it in the freezer. Take a different route to work or back home. Switch things up. Create new memories that don't involve smoking. Have fun with it, be adventurous, just take it one day at a time. You can do this; you really can !!!!!

crazymama_Lori

Happy Tuesday post

Posted by crazymama_Lori Jan 3, 2017

Remember these?

Or even these when you had to go to an actual shoe store

 

This stained and burned like the dickins

 

But this is something you can learn to forget

Second day of the new year, welcome to the first chapter of your new year. You have 364 blank pages to write on, what will your entries be? You see, we all have control over our lives, over our actions. We can choose to be victims and surcumb to our old habits, our self-destructive ways or we can choose to be proactive and do something about it and then stick with it.

 

My biggest trigger and still is actually is anger/frustration. It took me months to get the hang of stepping away from the situation/person that was frustrating me, regroup, take a few deep breaths, and then return to what I was doing. Now, let us put that into perspective of our smoking habits. Isn't that what we did every time we lit up? Weren't we just simply removing ourselves from the situation? The only difference is that now that we've quit smoking, we've used other tools to calm ourselves.

 

As most of you know, I'm always on the search for more information to share and different philosophies and theories concerning smoking. I found this article interesting: http://www.hebiofeedback.co.uk/hebf-latest/do-you-find-smoking-relaxing-here-are-5-reasons-why/

 

I can attest that I am calmer now. Life stresses just roll off my back now. I've learned throughout this year that sometimes I just can't change the world to my liking. Like the saying goes here take what you need and leave the rest. Remember that you are not alone in this fight. We are all here to help you along the way. Whether you are only quit for a week, a month, a year, we all hold each other hands and have each others back. Together, my friends, we are doing this!!!!!!!!!

 

Well, Happy New Years Eve, everyone. This is my first New Years with you all. Last year I was lurking in the background at this time struggling to quit. Hope this next year brings us all good health and happiness. This is just my Saturday blog to direct you to some helpful sites on here for you newbies and for some of us oldies. Relearning life as a nonsmoker can be stressful at times and sometimes scary, but only if you allow it to be. If you find yourself going towards old habits, old ways of thinking, take those 5 to 10 minutes to breathe deep, relax, ask yourself what is causing you to feel this way, figure it out and move on. If you can't figure it out, no worries. Take yourself away from the area that you're in. Find something else to do that requires concentration or a shift of attention. Did you notice the sudden urge went away? Retrain your brain. Unlearn your behaviors. By obsessing about smoking is like a hampster on a wheel; you're going nowhere fast.

 

I may not be able to visit these sites myself personally on a daily basis. This is just a helpful suggestion for those of you new to this site. Give yourself a break once in a while. Be gentle with yourself. We all know life is full of stress, frustration, but you know what, that's just the way it is. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups or just click this link https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke for that day. “That day” adds up to 30 days, 60 days, for the rest of your life.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

I started test driving smoking at age 12. I was the fat kid with glasses wanting so desperately to be accepted, liked, be popular, belong. I think with most addicts that's how it all starts. We all search for something to make us into somebody we wished we'd be. We don't learn until later in life that we have the inner strength to do that, to accomplish that ourselves. Some people never do.

 

We're a rare breed that we started recreationally and then developed into a full blown addict. We by far are not slipping off into the alleyways and scoring a bag. But some of us do sneak off around the house, sneaking a few puffs here and there because nobody will ever know. Like the functioning alcoholic sticking their whiskey in their soda can or coffee cup, nobody will never know. I remember when I was 16 when my addiction was finally becoming stronger going in the bathroom, opening the window, and spraying the air freshener. My dad smoked, nobody will ever know. Mom did as she found the burn marks on the windowsill.

 

I was a Benson and Hedges type of gal and then went on to smoking Virginia Slims. Then they came out with these lower tar and nicotine cigarettes and then these new filters at the end. Somehow that was to help people. I'm still trying to figure that one out, but hey, it was a good marketing technique at the time. I remember my first time trying to quit. Never did understand way back then in the '70s why it was so hard. My goodness, it was only a habit. I remember my doctor giving me a nicotine patch to wear back in the '80s. Why, it's only cigarettes I'm quitting. What do I have to wear that for?

 

Then we came out with these wonderful e-cigarettes. Nasty things. I always (so I thought) enjoyed the taste of a cigarette. All of those e-juices all tasted like Betadine smells. Anybody remember Mercurochrome? Stuff stained everything for days. You also could buy your cigarettes online for the longest time. I'd order between 4 to 6 cartons a month. Only cost me at the time $75 to $150 a month. Then came roll your own cigarettes. Smoking pipe tobacco, what was I thinking? But hey, it was cheaper than buying them. The state tax keeps going up and up and up. People would say, then why don't you just quit. Pffft, I don't want to quit right now. I'll quit when I'm ready. Yeah, right.

 

I remember for the longest time you could buy a carton of cigarettes for $35. I always said when they get to 50 bucks a carton, I'm quitting. Well, they did. When they get to $60 a carton, I'm quitting. I think I finally got with the program when I paid $60.53 without tax. Now the price is unbelievable. Even those raunchy cheaper brands are 6-something a pack. The last time I bought a pack of cigarettes was around this time last year and it was $7.00 with a mini lighter. That began the process of “cutting down.” What I was thinking there, I have no clue. To think I thought I was doing so well when I was only smoking 2 packs a week, but then we both know that the following week crept up to 3, and then next 4 and you know what happens then.

 

When I write about this almost a year later, it seems so silly to me now. How I had that stranglehold on that cigarette. How I never wanted to give it up. How I could never imagine myself not smoking. If I ever had one vice in life, it will be smoking. If I'm going to die of something, it will be with a cigarette in my hand. Remember? Does it make any sense to you now? Yes, when I get really, really upset about something (I'm encompassing upset with depressed, sad, angry, frustrated, lonely, etc.) and it comes out of the blue, one of those excuse me, what?? moments, my mind goes back to the tried and true for a split instant but then I stop it. It's like a spinning jack on the floor. Bam, my hand goes down and it stops. I know what it's doing and it's not going there.

 

I don't have everything figured out. I'm sure there's going to be a boatload of situations yet to come in this upcoming new year that I have to deal with. I know there will be a few pitfalls that are going to show up. But I'm going to learn from all of you here. I'm going to listen to all of you here. I'm going to know that you all will be here if I'm struggling. I'm going to know that no problem is a small insignificant problem. It's a problem that will be heard. I want to wish all of you a very happy new year. I'm very happy to announce that I will be a year free as of January 25th. The evolution of this smoker has come full circle and it's because of all of you.......... thank you.

There are different philosphies on this site about this subject. My take on it is that once you accept that you are an addict to nicotine, you will always be an addict to nicotine and this addiction will never go away, you will be sucessful. In time you learn to see its signs, you learn your weak spots, your main triggers, things that draw you back to smoking. Smoking is just one aspect to this disease. I truly don't know if you could ever really call this a disease because there's no cure for it. There's all kinds of different theories. One that I found from the National TASC site is: It is a complex brain disease characterized by compulsive, at times uncontrollable drug craving, seeking, and use despite devastating consequences - behaviors that stem from drug-induced changes in brain structure and function." Five million smokers annually smoke themselves to death.

 

Another good article that I've seen posted on here several times, but never hurts to reinforce is: http://whyquit.com/pr/041210.html. This contains the above stated quote. This also contains many links to different types of publication for you to read over. Everybody uses a different method to quit smoking, but the main one is never to take another puff. Not do not ever have a cigarette. Never take another puff. It really tastes awful. How we ever thought it tasted good is beyond me. It tastes like an ashtray smells, really it does.

 

Treat this quit with the respect it deserves. It can be lost at any time, but only if you allow it to. Don't be frightened when a long-standing member here fails. We're all human, but we have to remember to always take that five minutes to STOP, DROP and ROLL. Before reaching for the pack that someone had laying there, before grabbing that cigarette that's being offered to you, STOP. Think about what is pushing your buttons at that moment. DROP that cigarette. ROLL that feeling right off your back and out of your mind. Remember that moment. Remember your solution. Rejoice in your triumph. Life moves on. We can't put the brakes on it. Go with the flow. It's good to be free.

crazymama_Lori

Good morning Ex land

Posted by crazymama_Lori Dec 24, 2016

Good morning, fellow Ex'ers. Just my Saturday blog to check out a few sites on here for you newbies and for us oldies but goodies on here. Sometimes a little reminder doesn't hurt. Posting this uber early this morning as I have lots and lots of things to do today. By the way, Merry Christmas to you all. This will be my first christmas as a nonsmoker. Man, has this been quite the month. First the IRS contacted me about my 2014 taxes. My error. Time to pay the piper. Bills are somehow getting crossed in the mail. Have to call about that. Medical bills not getting sent into insurance. Not sure what's going on about that. Now, last year, I would have been huffing and puffing over that. And I literally do mean puffing, blowing smoke like crazy. Now it's like, I'll call them in the morning and find out what's going on. Something must have been crossed somewhere. Things don't phase me like they did last year. Namaste, right?

 

Give yourself a break once in a while. Be gentle with yourself. We all know life is full of stress, frustration, but you know what, that's just the way it is. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups or just click this link https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke for that day. That day adds up to 30 days, 60 days, for the rest of your life.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

I've noticed in my first year that when things come up for the first time as a non-smoker, that I go through all the stages again a week prior. I have the anger, the frustration, the self-persecution which brings on depression/sadness, all these emotions rolled up in one that in the past drew me back to smoking. They had me running back to smoking again. This time I recognize what the addictive brain is doing. Some of you call this as bad habits returning, signs of spiraling down. But there is a difference in how you handle it.

 

The anticipation of the event usually outweighs the actual outcome. With the holidays approaching, many of you are going through them for the first time, myself included. I've learned throughout this year now that the signs/stages reappeared again in the same way for the fourth time, that it is my addictive thinking kicking in. I realized that because I acknowledged it the second time it happened. Ah-ha, this is exactly what I felt like the last time.

 

I'm not saying to over think your quit, but pay attention to it. Some people don't have the strong emotional ties to smoking. I write these blogs because I did have very strong emotional ties and am learning to recognize them and deal with them accordingly. I write blogs like these to help others to sit back and think about what they used smoking for and see the patterns they made. We can't break the ties that bind us without first breaking the cycle that created it.  

crazymama_Lori

Ho-ho and just say no

Posted by crazymama_Lori Dec 20, 2016

First of all, I want to wish all of you here on Ex a very joyous holiday. This site is a mixture of so many different types of individuals all with one goal in mind; to quit and stay quit from smoking. We each have our own stories from being medical professionals fighting this addiction to a person fighting to figure out where the next meal is coming from. The anonymity on this site is the appeal that it had for me to join. It wasn't canned theories from researchers. It wasn't quoting statistics. It was just a bunch of people doing the same thing.

 

I remember years and years ago when I was first married scraping up enough money to buy a carton of cigarettes every week. I remember selling things just to buy cigarettes. Those were the most important things to me. Back in the '70s it was just a habit. I remember being in a bar and having to buy a pack of cigarettes from those vending machines and it was $2.75 and then $5.00. Counting out those quarters, clink, clink, clink. Little did I know that habit was going to dictate to me where, when and how I was going to complete something.

 

Now, I realize that I have the control in this relationship with my addiction. I am the true warrior wielding my sword against its chains. I am the one who dictates where, when and how I'm doing something. The balance of power has been shifting. My tension is lessening. I've learned to be more patient now. Things will get done. I know when I was puffing away things never seemed to get done fast enough. Now that I don't do that anymore, I can see why. I spent most of my time stewing about things not getting done while wasting my time puffing away on a cigarette. Let that sink in.

 

So in closing, no matter where you are in your quit, slow down, take one day at a time. Instead of rushing life in front of you, look at life around you. Appreciate the little things in your life. Never take for granted anything, because in a blink of an eye it's gone. Find something each day to smile about, laugh about. Bring joy to your life every day because you, my friends, deserve it.