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Good to see many newbies showing up here again. Please stick with us. This is probably the only site I've been on or observed that is easy to navigate and is so responsive to people in need. The old saying goes around here of take what you need and leave the rest. Sometimes some responses to blogs seems harsh or abrasive. Just remember sometimes we all need a kick in the pants, but don't you dare leave us. You will go through many, many different cycles while quitting and being overly sensitive is just one of them. You don't appreciate someone's comments, let them know about it. Don't you leave us, ya hear?

 

You will go through the hole in the pit of your stomach feeling. Some people go through some really bizarre crying jags. It's okay, because you're grieving. Believe it or not, you're divorcing your best friend and it's leaving a hole somewhere in your life. I'm of the school of taking just five or ten minutes when a craving hits you to figure out why you want that cigarette so bad. Some will fight it and say they have no clue why. If you really take a minute, I'm sure you can figure it out. All you have to do is grab a piece of paper, a napkin, jot down exactly what you're feeling at that moment. Are you anxious, tired, hungry, bored, angry, tense, lonely? Others will have the on again, off again cycle. They get only so far and they jump ship and go back to their old friend. It keeps happening and happening. There's an easy answer to that, my friend. There is something at that moment in time that drove you to that cancer stick. Something that you used it for to hide an emotion, hide a feeling, stuff back some bad stuff in your life. This is a fairly easy concept to grasp for anything in your life. If it keeps happening over and over again, you never really thought of a plan when it happened the first time to stop it from coming around again. Get your game plan together.

 

Not everyone goes through the same stages as everyone else. If addiction was so cut and dry, you go through this for 10 days, this for 20, this for 30, if someone could have given me a precise timeline of exactly what's going to happen exactly when, I'd be sailing through this whole quitting ordeal. Once you come to the acceptance of this will be with you for the rest of your life, it will pop up from time to time, sometimes unexpectedly because something in your memory is triggering it, whatcha gonna do? How are you planning to handle that when it comes up? Have you thought of that at all? I'm by no means an elder, but it always amazes me how 3, 4, 5 plus year quits get lost along the way and we go right back to smoking again. It's a powerful thing if you give it the power. Remember that day one. Put that memory in a box in your mind, because you just might need it someday. Do you honestly want to go back there again?

 

We all have physical withdrawal for 2 to 3 weeks. Then we have the retraining process, 130 days to even 200 days for some. Get through 30 days and give it 6 months. Before long you'll get to the 300-day mark and a year is just right around the corner. You made it a year and you created new memories over anniversaries, birthdays, family gatherings, etc. You'll find they are easier the second year because you have those new memories. Sometimes our anticipation of the event in the first place in the first year far outweighs what they in reality are all about.

 

Addiction is a funny thing. Ours is probably one of the hardest ones because it kills slowly but surely. Some quit because they ended up with a smoke-related disease. Some want to quit before they do. It is doable. It can be achieved. Come along for the ride and let us help you along the way. We've all been there and know exactly what you're going through. Go to the members tab and click on Active members, those are the people that are online at the time. Send them a message to their inbox or their message board. Trust me we'll respond to you. Ask away, ask for advice, help, anything you need, we're here. Think of it as the first day of spring and you get to open up the windows for the very first time after a very long and hard winter. Oh, it's so good to be free. Happy Hump Day, everyone !!!!!  

crazymama_Lori

Good morning Ex land

Posted by crazymama_Lori Nov 26, 2016

Good morning, fellow Ex'ers. Just my Saturday blog to check out a few sites on here for you newbies and for us oldies but goodies on here. Sometimes a little reminder doesn't hurt. I remember very clearly fighting to quit back in December. I tried everything because I wanted this done and wanted this done now. I remember the panic of the thought of quitting smoking. Heck, I've tried it many times before. It was almost like trying on shoes. If it didn't feel right, I just didn't buy it or do it. It was easier to just keep on smoking instead of learning why this is so hard. Of course it got easier once I realized that this is a lifelong thing. This will never go away. I just need to manage it and control it.

 

In my case, my father was an alcoholic and a very heavy smoker. He never quit until he lost his leg back in the '90s. My mother was a borderline alcoholic and a heavy smoker, but I have no memory of that as she quit when I was young. There's so many theories about what makes some people suceptible to smoking and others do not, as with alcohol. It's the wonderful world of how the brain works. Maybe someday they will have an answer to addiction. Like there is this little part of your brain that didn't grow right when you were young and is inflammed, or you caught this infection when you were very young and it caused you to be a smoker, here, take this pill and it will never come back again. Wouldn't that be wonderful? Why are some so easily swayed and others are not? Why are there people that can just smoke on the weekend and we're biting our nails and crawling the walls just to make it through a day? Is it genetics that we are more suceptible to smoking or is it just learned behavior? Simple answer to that one is we're addicts. But what makes us more prone to it? Is it because we were born with a shortage of dopamine receptors? There's so many theories out there that you could drive yourself insane chasing that answer.

 

Very early in my quit, I was chasing that answer. I was like a dog chasing my tail. But in actuality was it my addictive self just trying to find an excuse, create a reason to give up? I've always been a heavy thinker. Perhaps overthinking at times, but that's how I deal with my life. I have this thirst for knowledge and reasoning. It's probably an occupational hazard. The old saying of everything happens for a reason. This recovery as with any recovery from addition can be obtained by staying committed, having acceptance, stay the course, ride out the rough waves and stick with it, you'll do just fine. Just resolve yourself to accept that that's just something that you don't do anymore. It's always going to be there, but you just don't do that anymore.

 

Give yourself a break once in a while. Be gentle with yourself. We all know life is full of stress, frustration. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups or just click this link https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke for that day.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

I'll be heading up north very early tomorow morning.  I have work yet to be completed and running around to the bank and getting gas.  Traveling with an active beagle is an outer life experience since she loves hitting that button to make the window go up and down on the passenger side.  Don't mind it much in the summer, but the wintertime is another story. Hope every one remains smoke free over the holidays.  this will be my first Thanksgiving as a Ex-smoker.  Last year around this time I was a chain smoking fool.  Have a great day today and a blessed Thanksgiving tomorrow.  I'm thankful that I finally found my way and you can too !!!!!!!! 

crazymama_Lori

300 days

Posted by crazymama_Lori Nov 20, 2016

Well, folks, only 65 more days to go and I'll be a 6 percenter. Never thought I'd make it this far. To all of you starting out, give yourself 30 days. If that's too long, then give yourself 7 days at a time. After 30 days, you'll think you have this beat but then the frustration looms overhead because you want to know exactly how long this is going to take. They will tell you that it gets easier with time. I know in my case that answer was never good enough because I wanted to know exactly. Exactly when is this going to be over, when is this going away, when is this going to stop. I did my dance with the devil for 190 some days and we were whooping it up. The ups and the downs, the highs and the lows, the back and forth, the push and pull. Now, me and the devil or the devil and I (for you grammar *****) are doing a few slow side to side motion now. You know, those who have no clue how to dance but just want it to look good. My little devil friend is losing his power, his hold, his strength. But I know he'll hang around just in case and I accept that now.

 

I'll let you in on a little secret. Once you accept that you are an addict to nicotine, once you accept that this will never go away but becomes much more manageable, you are on your road to lifelong recovery. You have to accept that you are an addict, because you see, we cannot just stop at one. One puff is never enough. We have to smoke the whole cigarette and then it's another and another and, poof, the whole pack is gone. Then our little addictive brain kicks in and just waits for another life's dilemma to show up or a perceived dilemma to show up and we're off and running again. The first year is trying. I still have two more months to go until my year mark. You'll be amazed how much you used smoking for masking feelings and how many things you associate with it. Sometimes our anticipation of an event far surpasses the actual event itself. Once we get through it, we think wow, that wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. You see we smoked like chimneys when we had to do something we didn't want to or were nervous about, mad about, but you can make that cycle stop. You have the power to make that cycle stop.

 

Smoking is an individual thing. We all use it for different things. You know what sets you off. You know what it takes for you to light up one. I've seen a few of you on here that somehow magically find a cigarette from somewhere and call it a relapse, a slip up, a whoops. But you know what, you consciously lit up that cigarette. You chose to light up that cigarette instead of giving yourself that five minutes. I wish there was an exact science to this. I read your struggles and feel for you. I wish I could give you an answer. In my case, it took 195 days, approximately 6 months, to finally get back to the swing of things. My major problem was feeling so damn foggy all the time. My concentration was waning. I still have times like that, but it is what it is. It doesn't bother me much anymore. I made that cycle stop. I have the power to make that stop.

 

Things in life that would happen would frustrate me or anger me, upset me in general, sometimes self inflicted just to give me an excuse, would send me over the top and have me running to the store for a pack. If you're starting off, throw everything away, lighters, empty out and clean out all ashtrays and put them out of your sight, place them in the garage, the attic. No more smoking in your house. If you have a significant other that smokes, then agree on a place for them to smoke and then just don't go in there. The first 30 days, if I smelled smoke, that would trip me off. Try putting Vicks under your nose so you don't have to smell it. Suck on a menthyl cough drop. Try cutting up straws the length of a cigarette or buy yourself cinnamon sticks and have that between your fingers when you drive or doing something that you normally smoke at.

 

You have to retrain yourself. Remember this is a thing you did ritualistically for a very long period of your life. Many times we didn't even think about smoking and just grabbed for the pack. I did that many times in my first 60 days. I'd just go and reach for it and it was not there. Go back in my blogs, read them, do you see yourself yet? Go back in some of the other elders on here and read their older blogs, Marilyn, Terrie, Nancy. It's amazing how similar we all are. How we go through somewhat the same phases, the self-realization, the same roller coaster. Addiction is a funny little thing. It just never goes away. It's that itch that you just can't scratch. You scratch it, it comes back twice as bad. Remember your mom used to say, if you keep touching that, it won't heal. Just don't go there. Come here instead. If you don't want to blog, then read, hear the words that people are saying. You can do this. It's doable. It becomes too much, then simply remove yourself from that space and find something else to do. It passes. It goes away. Learn meditation, deep breathing exercises. Terrie has one on her page. And once you get there, it's a glorious thing. It really is. Stick with us. Believe in yourself. You can make this possible. You are your own legacy.  

crazymama_Lori

Come Saturday morning

Posted by crazymama_Lori Nov 19, 2016

Good morning, fellow Ex'ers. Just my Saturday blog to check out a few sites on here for you newbies and for us oldies but goodies on here. Sometimes a little reminder doesn't hurt. Whew, what a week I've had. Feel like I'm writing my Christmas letter here. Been working 16 to 18 hours a day. Been over a year since I've had this much work all at one time. So this was a first for me not sitting here chain smoking because I was stressed to the gills. Puffing away thinking there's not enough hours in a day to get everything done. Just amazes me now how I thought that smoking was going to take away that stress. Thinking back in that first 30 days just thinking to myself, this is too hard, I'm too stressed right now to quit, I have to smoke right now to get this all done. Well, surprise, surprise, I am proof that I truly didn't need to. I just wanted to.

 

I remember way back then the Elders were telling me that it will get better. Give it time. It will be easier. I'd just shout out when, just tell me when. You see, us smokers, we want it and want it all now. Not six months from now and not working and striving to our goal. We need to start taking each small victory and turning to the next challenge. Sure, I did find myself saying this week, boy, could I ever go for a cigarette right now. But you know what, that thought stayed with me for as long as it took to say it. I said it, I acknowledged it as simply the thought that it was, and I went back to my work again. If you stay committed, stay the course, ride out the rough waves and stick with it, you'll do just fine. Just resolve yourself to accept that that's just something that you don't do anymore.

 

There's nothing wrong with thinking those crazy thoughts once in a while. It's not like we're going to run to the store and start puffing up a storm again. It's just really a saying now. Kind of like this is going to drive me to drink. Just a phrase, no biggy. Give yourself a break once in a while. Be gentle with yourself. We all know life is full of stress, frustration. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. 

 

When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also for awhile we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups. OR just click this link

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

Good morning, fellow Ex'ers. Just my Saturday blog to check out a few sites on here for you newbies and for us oldies but goodies on here. Sometimes a little reminder doesn't hurt. Glad to see new people signing up again. I'm looking forward to see that freedom train with a huge list of quitters to celebrate. Of course once we quit, it's a celebration all onto itself. If I counted right, I should have 300 days in on my birthday this month. If you don't believe there's a reason for everything, I think that's pretty neat it falls that way. If you stay committed, stay the course, ride out the rough waves and stick with it, you'll do just fine. Just resolve yourself to accept that that's just something that you don't do anymore.

 

We know is life is full of stress, frustration, in my case bewilderment. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our problems away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. 

 

When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also for awhile we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups. OR just click this link

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

At times it helps to reaffirm our quit by pledging with others to not smoke for that day. Be sure to join others by going to: https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/daily-pledge/ to virtually hold hands with other members and pledge not to smoke.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

Lord have mercy, what a week. I had that wedding I attending and survived.... did not smoke. I had my furnace die on me and it's now 40 degrees in my house ….... did not smoke. I have a stepdaughter calling constantly for something for my mother-in-law …..... did not smoke. I have a boatload of work piling in and can't seem to get to it because the stepdaughter is constantly calling …..... did not smoke. A whole host of daily frustrations that go on around here....... did not smoke. Oh, I could have just gotten in my car and drive to a gas station somewhere in this town and bought a pack of cigarettes, light up and be back at ground zero. Is that 5 to 10 minutes of flame worth all that trouble? I think not. Why would I even entertain the thought of going back just to go through this again because I was upset/frustrated/depressed/sad/angry. Those things will never go away. They will always be there day in and day out because that's just life in general.

 

One thing we know is life is full of stress, frustration. It's important to learn how to react differently to the actions that we did for so many years, light up and puff our sorrows away. It's also important to look on the positive side instead of the negative. Check out Positive Affirmations for Success: You can take what you want and leave the rest. And you can always find and contribute your own. 

 

When you click the Group Button just to the right of the Blog button and when that window comes up look for the featured group button we are the first group listed   Also for awhile we are on the Home Page under Featured Groups. OR just click this link

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/positive-affirmations-and-support

 

But don't miss the daily interactive discussion called Love Yourself. Whether you're dropping in to say hello, offer love and support to your friends or need a place where you will truly feel listened to, we are there - every single day! Take a look and feel free to join us! ALL are welcome!

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/3533-love-yourself

 

Sometimes we just need a laugh to get our minds back on track. Be sure to visit https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/laughter-is-the-best-medicine to bring a smile to your face daily or just a pleasant distraction. Sometimes that little hit of dopamine from laughter is the trick.

 

We'd love to have you join us!

crazymama_Lori

My first 30 days

Posted by crazymama_Lori Nov 4, 2016

I've seen a lot of posts from people who have been failing before and just after they hit the 30-day mark. I'll give you my story and maybe you can relate to it for those of you that haven't heard it already. And this is a long one, so buckle up.

 

I started my dance with the devil at age 12. Overweight kid, alcoholic father, growing up in the '60s, stay-at-home mom. Didn't have a lot of friends when I was younger, preferred to stay with my mommy. Quite the introvert, but cigarettes changed that. Don on the green army jacket with a cigarette out of my mouth and I was a tough kid. Age 16, I was a full-blown nicotine addict. Back then it was kick the habit. Remember those god-awful Now cigarettes. Gee, those were supposed to be better for you because of the lower tar and nicotine. Mr. Big Tobacco really sold that one.

 

Just an excerpt from an article from the Reports from the Surgeon General:

The report highlighted the deleterious health consequences of tobacco use. Smoking and Health: Report of the Advisory Committee to the Surgeon General held cigarette smoking responsible for a 70 percent increase in the mortality rate of smokers over non-smokers. The report estimated that average smokers had a nine- to ten-fold risk of developing lung cancer compared to non-smokers: heavy smokers had at least a twenty-fold risk. The risk rose with the duration of smoking and diminished with the cessation of smoking. The report also named smoking as the most important cause of chronic bronchitis and pointed to a correlation between smoking and emphysema, and smoking and coronary heart disease. It noted that smoking during pregnancy reduced the average weight of newborns. On one issue the committee hedged: nicotine addiction. It insisted that the "tobacco habit should be characterized as an habituation rather than an addiction," in part because the addictive properties of nicotine were not yet fully understood, in part because of differences over the meaning of addiction.

 

The 1964 report on smoking and health had an impact on public attitudes and policy. A Gallup Survey conducted in 1958 found that only 44 percent of Americans believed smoking caused cancer, while 78 percent believed so by 1968. In the course of a decade, it had become common knowledge that smoking damaged health, and mounting evidence of health risks gave Terry's 1964 report public resonance. Yet, while the report proclaimed that "cigarette smoking is a health hazard of sufficient importance in the United States to warrant appropriate remedial action," it remained silent on concrete remedies. That challenge fell to politicians. In 1965, Congress required all cigarette packages distributed in the United States to carry a health warning, and since 1970 this warning is made in the name of the Surgeon General. In 1969, cigarette advertising on television and radio was banned, effective September 1970.

 

We traveled through life without a care in the world because it was just seen as a habit back then, like biting your nails. Even though advertising was banned on television and radio, the print media was still banging their drum on the tobacco train. Then in the '80s the nicotine patch came out. Hmm what is this new thing. An addict, what in the world are they talking about. Certainly not me.

 

I think all of my prior quits lasted 5 days. In that span, I talked myself into this is too hard, I can't take this anymore, I'm too stressed, the list went on. Now I understand that's my addicted self just talking myself into feeding it what it craves. Interesting concept, life moved on before I ever smoked, why can't it move on now? Why is the hands of time stopped because I don't have a cigarette in my hand. And let me tell you, I was a big-time chain smoker. When I was conscious of my smoking, I could keep it down to a pack and a half a day. When I was just frazzled (self-inflicted, of course), we're talking 2 to 3 packs a day and then of course alcohol was mixed in there too for good measure.

 

Then the government decided to hike up the tax on cigarettes. Man, were those things getting expensive. Let's roll our own. What I was thinking there, I have no clue. The worst mistake of my life. That was short lived because guess what? I was having a hard time breathing. Of course, in my mind it was because of the pipe tobacco. It had nothing to do with smoking at that time for 40 years. The rationale is mind blowing to me now that I think about it. But again, enter the addictive mind. Give me what I need at whatever cost it takes. Give it to me and give it to me NOW.

 

Okay, well, finally I'll get to my first 30 days. I joined this site back in 2015. I lurked in the shadows. I'd log in and then not come back for 6 months or so. I was at that time doing the e-cigs, the drops, the wellbutrin, the cleansing pills, anything and everything that would just simply make this go away, make this easier because those 5 days in the past were not fun. I researched and researched different sites and different theories. I had a conversation with my doctor about it. Talking to ex-smokers about it in the community just didn't cut it because they were of the philosophy of just quit. I smoked my last cigarette and that was it. Oh, I went on Chantix or Wellbutrin and that helped. They mentioned nothing about weird things happening to your body like sudden prickling in your hands, feet, or face. These bizarre mood swings. Being a menopausal woman, I'm a champ at those. This all-encompassing depression. It sweeps over and just drags you down. I was never depressed before.

 

Then I started at times, wish I knew then what I know now, removing the crazy emotion and just watching at how long these mood swings, sensations, physical symptoms lasted. How sometimes in the beginning of the day it hits and then just disappears. They were almost like having a physical craving in the beginning (the first 2 weeks), then they just went away. Then I started hitting the books on the explanation for that. Why is that happening and why am I seeing it happen to others at approximately the same time. I had this link to another blog I wrote, but it just explained so much, at least to me, that I wasn't going crazy. There's actual science to all this. Here's the article: http://www.achoice2live.com/quitting-smoking-gets-easier/.

 

As I'm getting closer to my year anniversary, I can see the truth in this article. A lot of people call it NML (No Man's Land), but I personally think it's more than that. Yes, people think you should be over it by now, it shouldn't be that difficult after all this time. But I'm of the thinking that if you don't take the time to look into yourself and understand what you used smoking for, to bolster some insecurity, to replace a loved one, to give you hugs when no one else will, these self-soothing actions or emotions, you're going back to smoking in a heartbeat when one of many reasons you use smoking to replace happens. There's an exercise on here that helped me a great deal to identify when and why I smoked. It actually made me stop and think and put to pen and paper or keyboard to screen my smoking habits. I'm addicted to the nicotine. The smoking is an action I performed every day, multiple times a day. When you separate the two and not see them as one distinct thing, you're on the road to success.

 

Another thing that helped a great deal is going back in some of the Elder's blogs. An Elder is someone who has a year in of being smoke-free. They are around here. Some have their quit dates as part of their screen name. Go to their early blogs, way back in the beginning of their quit. Read their entries and you'll see yourself there. You'll see that everyone went through the same thing. This is a process that is for the rest of your life. When you get further along, you're going to find you think about it less, the thought sometimes never crosses your mind anymore, but it's always there when you are at your weakest. I call smoking the perpetual band-aid. When we are in need to cover up something we don't like or is hurt, we smoke. Let that settle in for a minute. You have an addictive mind and addictive tendencies and that's just what we do. Is it genetics? Is it a predisposed tendency? Is it something we learned because we were around someone who smoked? Is it just part of our brain chemistry? Those answers are remained to be answered.

 

Your success to quitting is in your head. It's not from a pill, patch, gum, strip, though those can be used as a tool. But your main tool is your brain, your willpower, your commitment. Are you willing to finally say no matter what happens, no matter what, I will do this. If never is not part of your vocabulary, if never scares the hell outta you, then simply say I will do this today. I will not have a cigarette today. I cannot tell you how many times I chanted either out loud or in my head, you can do this, you can do this. The fogginess was my hardest part. I felt so scatterbrained in the beginning. Drove me nuts. I simply had to start making lists to remember. When I felt super frustrated or angry, I cleaned something or did deep breathing or took a walk, a break. I acknowledged the feeling and I acted proactively about it. I didn't dwell on it. I didn't obsess about it. I acted on it.

 

I never did that before in my other quits. I dwelled on it and went and bought a pack a cigarettes because it was just easier that way. Take a few minutes and get to know yourself. Develop a game plan. You get to the point in the first 30 days where you find yourself wanting to run to that store, STOP. Say to yourself, what am I feeling right now? Okay, what can I do to fix this? Why is this upsetting me so much? When you are pondering different ways to solve the problem, didn't that impulse to go get those cigarettes pass? I'm sure it did. You don't have to have a Ph.D. To quit smoking. You don't have to be a psychologist. This isn't rocket science. This is all about your resolve to be committed, to be proactive, to treat yourself kindly and not act on your impulses. STOP, DROP and ROLL. Take just a few minutes before you act on those impulses. I'm about 2 ½ months away from being quit a year. Could I easily go and buy a pack and light up today? I most certainly can. I choose not to because I'm never going back to day one ever. How could you even be thinking about doing the same? You know that one leads to 20 or more. Let's be honest now. That's the reality check we need to reinforce to ourselves when in our weakest moments. It is truly worth it??????