just a little something I found from 2012 when I first wanted to quit

[crazymama_Lori]

   smoking 8/2012

  

     Smoking has been my life, my everyday wake-up call.  This is my milestone in life.  I never knew what to do without a cigarette.  I've always had one.  So this will be my blog when I quit in about two and half days......  so bear with me people.  I need support and my rantings will probably be a little irate, but it will help me and you can track my success..... I have to do this because I want to see my grandbaby and future great grandbabies...... how much inspiration do we need, right?   

         

3/19/13

         

wow, in August I typed the above....... I've got four more packs of cigarettes and we're going cold turkey.  They say it only takes 3 days for the nicotine to get out of your system.  I need to do it that way to feel the waves of craving, to remember how this has taken over my life.  I lay down to sleep to only wheeze myself to sleep.  I had a father that had emphyzema and died of bladder cancer.  I had a mother who died of lympoma.  I had a paternal aunt who had breast cancer.  I had a maternal uncle who died of prostate cancer.  Wake up call.  I was brought up as a very strict Catholic.  Went to mass every day for 5 years (back then it was in Latin).  I sometimes wonder if this is God's reminder of the evils of the world.  Enjoyable things that can kill you, i.e. alcohol, smoking, drugs.  It just makes you think sometimes why we do the things we do sometimes..........  So bear with me, my friends.  There will be ramblings, rants and carry ons in the future week or so.  But I need to try to do this cold turkey to only experience what this terrible addiction has done to me to not make me want to go back...........

         

4/18/13

         

Well, tomorrow is the day.  Not spending $6.55 a pack and not spending $61 or so for a carton any longer.  Going to try the e-cig for awhile and then we'll be tobacco free.  I've got V2 e-cigs here and really like them.  Just have to stick with it for the last time.  Actually kind of excited for this.  I'm sure I'll feel a hellofa lot better........ wish me luck!!!

         

Well, to finish the story, it took me until 1/25/2016 to finally find my way and you can too!!!!!!!