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Well, the Sun is shining today

crazymama_Lori
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This is the most craziest thing I've ever been through.  First 30 days is I'm going to kill someone if I don't have a cigarette.  It's like you've locked yourself away because you so desparately want this.  The next 15 days or so, it's like we've got this, talk yourself through it, you're good.  2 months into it, bam, you're hit with an event, an anniversary, this seems weird not to smoke my way through this.  You lock yourself away for a few days. 15 days after that, boom, you're depressed for a week, crying because the sun isn't shining, the dogs are barking too much, no one loves me anymore.  You're finding any excuse to find a reason why this is not even worth it.  Why should I even bother?  Why do people pick fights with me when they know I'm going through this?  How can they be so damn insensitive?  It's that addict talking again.  There's no passing the buck anymore.  See the situation for what it is.  Sometimes you can't persuade people into your way of thinking or even seeing it from your side of things.  Do you really think that cigarette is going to wave its magic wand and make things better?  No, but it sure is going to cloud it for the next ten minutes.  Think about that.  The next week the sun is shining again.  It's funny, you know that it's how this needs to all unfold.  How we relearn life after living most of it already.... 

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Never be afraid or embarrassed about your "smoking thoughts" while quitting, they're there to remind us how strong we truly can be. Always remember, you will always WANT to smoke, but you have to CHOOSE not to. We can't break the ties that bind us without first changing the cycle that created it.