Well, so far I've saved myself $435.87 by not smoking here for 5 weeks and feeling much better. I remember the days of searching through the ashtrays when I was out thinking, oh, look, I can get a couple more hits off of that one. Digging through each one until I had about seven to equal to one smoke until I could get to the store to buy a pack. Our addiction is a legal one as is alcohol. It's always there staring you in the face as you go to the gas station or the store. Waving their little imaginary hands saying, yohoo, you know you want to take me with you. Oh, come on, just a little bit won't hurt you. Just one more........
We all know that one more sticks us right back to where we were and then some. The overwhelming sense of why did you even light that up, why did you even take that sip, why, oh, why. It's funny in my first week I subconsciously reached for my pack of smokes after I was done working on something and caught myself. I found myself staring out the window thinking god, I could really use one right now. Second week was the thought of this is never going to end. Third week was how long is this going to last. Fourth week was well, this is getting better. I actually made it 30 days. Fifth week was I'm good, I'm not good, back and forth. This week was hard for me because of lack of work. I'm self-employed. One can only watch so much TV and it's cold outside. I live in the Midwest. Next week will be rainy all week long. But on a brighter note, I do have some cheese to go with that whine 😉
