Blogging about all this crap. But it really helps. I'm so "ill" over all this I'm actually dizzy. But typing it all out helps it lose it's power. And I have friends that know all I've been going through. But they all have their own problems. Life just seems so much harder than it use to be, and not just for me. But I'm done for the day, and I just wanted to apologize for all the negativity.