I feel like I have been to hell and back over the past 2 months. I'm not going to get into specifics but just 1 thing after the other. And not little issues like the mail being late. Health issues and watching my 33yr. old son going through emotional/mental hell.
My teeth are in awful shape. I was diagnosed with periodontal (gum) disease when I was 19. I didn't know then, but smoking is a huge contributor to that. I had already been smoking for 6 yrs. Well there was a long period of time. when I was a single mom of 4 that I didn't have dental insurance and was not able to take care of it, and I'm paying for it now. I still don't have dental insurance. Medicare doesn't provide for that. So I broke a back tooth yrs. ago, and it never bothered me so I didn't do anything about if. Well, it started hurting last week and Fri I woke up with it being infected. Horrible swelling and pain. I went to urgent care and got antibiotics, and I'm going to have it pulled next week. I've said all this to say that, with everything else that has happened over the past few months, I woke up today feeling like I had absolutely had it. Very agitated, and I had smoking "urges" all morning. No physical cravings, but I always used cigarettes to "comfort" me when I've been in distress, and I guess that was what I was longing for the morning. I now know the difference between cravings and urges.Last week, when I was going through the severe cravings of the 1st couple of days, there was not getting away from them. All I could do was the suggestions on here to stay busy and get through them. Today, with the urges, I was able to ignore them by staying busy. After a few hours, they were gone. Thank God!!!
God bless you all!!!