Beyond Thrilled (I think)

Blog Post created by constanceclum on Aug 26, 2017

Who know that venting could save a life? My past relapses with alcohol and cigarettes were always about not having adequate coping mechanisms and when things would get tough, I would smoke (and drink). But I've never reached out when things did get tough-not even to my husband. He doesn't deal well with mental or physical issues when it comes to me. I learned very young not to bare your troubles. Well this time I did. Not only here but to my husband and anyone else willing to listen.I call what I went through last week my mini nervous breakdown. But guess what? I didn't smoke or drink. I read all of your comments and they got me through! I went for my antibody infusion and I'm feeling a little stronger but I won't know for sure how much it helped until after I have labs drawn on Mon.


What I'm not so thrilled about? NML.These chest feelings like I need nicotine because it really is my oxygen just won't go away. It's been 2 weeks now and until 2 more weeks is a very vulnerable time for me because I usually relapse between 6 and 8 weeks. I'v bound determined not to this time because I'm telling myself over and over to not stop just short of the miracle.


I'm hoping this blog makes sense because I got up at 4:30 and I'm tired!!!


Wishing you all a happy smoke-free day. Also hoping for good outcomes to all our Texas friends and family!