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day 1

Posted by constanceclum Nov 29, 2016

I didn't think it would be so hard because I didn't smoke much during the past week with each day thinking I would quit the next but it's just as difficult as my last day 1Very shakey and feel like I have a huge hole in my chest. I'm just going to get up from here and get busy.

Glad this site has a revolving door!

Connie

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I did mess up

Posted by constanceclum Nov 28, 2016

On the day that would have been my 6th week of freedom. I know what I did wrong and so I know not to do it again. Today was going to be day 1 but I woke up in a panic and went outside immediately and smoked a short. My new quit date is tomorrow. Since I smoked that 1st cigarette this morning I have been fine. Almost like I didn't smoke at all this past week. I hate starting over but of course, that's the consequences when we quit on our quits.

Connie

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3rd blog today

Posted by constanceclum Nov 19, 2016

in about as many minutes. I did something different today. I blogged before I read blogs. We are not (I don't think) in danger with the fires directly but I am worried about my already very damaged lungs. Trying to stay in but can't always be in indefinitely.

Connie

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Had to vent

Posted by constanceclum Nov 19, 2016

I do have a 7mg. patch on. Broke down on 3rd day because I really wanted to smoke and the cigs are here-my husbands.

A little more concerned about the fires as the sind has picked up. The fire is in Lake Lure which is where Dirty Dancing was filmed. Pretty close by.

Just pray as we all continue praying for each other!

Connie

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horrible day

Posted by constanceclum Nov 19, 2016

Bad sinus headache which I have been having a lot of lately and bad cravings. I can't wait until today is over!

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nicotine free

Posted by constanceclum Nov 18, 2016

No nicotine patches since I woke up yesterday morning. I stopped at the 14mg just to see how I would do. I was in bed most of the day, had a horrible crave after dinner last night. Reminded me of the craves of the first few days. Didn't sleep well last night so slept most of morning. Now it's 2:30 and I feel fine, just lazy.

I'm trying to stay in anyway due to the wild fires close by. However, these are expected to go on for awhile and we can't stay in forever. Or I guess we could but not much quality of life though.

My goal is to get through until Sun a.m. without using a lozenge. I feel that I could continue from there totally nicotine free which would be such a huge blessing!!!

Hoping everyone here has a wonderful smoke-free weekend!

Connie 38 DOF

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salt rock lamps

Posted by constanceclum Nov 16, 2016

Has anyone had experience with these for better breathing and lungs? I was looking at them for seasonal affective disorder where they are proven to help but it is also suggested they may help with allergies, asthma and other lung disorders. I'm looking for more info before I buy some.

Today is the last day of my 14mg. patch. I'm not going to use the 7mg. but I do have some 2mg. lozenges. I don't plan on using them-just in a do or die situation. I had such as easy transition from 21mg patches to 14 so I'm praying for the same.

Connie 36 DOF

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good confusion

Posted by constanceclum Nov 15, 2016

I just reviewed my blog from yesterday and I stated I had 33 DOF. Today I have 35 DOF. That's pretty uplifting. I'm feeling better and having a little more energy. I heard something yesterday "move a muscle, change a thought" and I do find I feel better when I move.

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Hey all

Posted by constanceclum Nov 14, 2016

I do get on here everyday to pledge and read blogs but don't really write one everyday. I'm not really creative and my life doesn't change much from day-to-day.

I went through a few days of being negative and didn't know why. I still feel fatigued and out of sorts sometimes. I have to remember that I'm still a novice at this quitting smoking thing. The good thing is I don't want to smoke because I know that will only make me feel worse. In fact I think of smoking less and less. Patience is just not one of my virtues.

Anyway I am feeling better yesterday and today but just thought I'd mention this to others, a month in that still just don't mentally feel quite right. The roller-coaster rides on!

We will get through this together!

Connie 33 DOF

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month 2

Posted by constanceclum Nov 12, 2016

So I'm preparing for NML and I'm thinking the same thing is true with nicotine addiction as what we say with alcohol addiction. "Cunning, baffling and Powerful". Not a time to play!

I've gone through withdrawals of initial quits before so I knew what to expect but I have to admit I'm a little afraid of this unknown. What I do know is that so many of you have got through so I will too! I'll have to be EXtra cautious.

Connie

1 month of freedom and it has got so much easier. I do not think of them every minute of the day and when I do, it just kind of runs right through my brain.

I am going in that period of the yr. when my depression gets worse. It's getting colder and way less daylight. I am working with my psychiatrist and hopefully she will come up with something helpful but usually I am just very fatigues, weak, foggy-headed, sore joints etc... Yet I don't feel that old familiar belief that smoking will help. I know it won't. It will only make me physically feel worse which will exagerate my mental issues.

So for everyone that is newly quit or thinking of joining us, we all have our battles but we can still overcome our addictions.

Connie

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4 weeks ago

Posted by constanceclum Nov 7, 2016

I made the best decision of my life. I did not pick up a cigarette and I haven't since so when today is done, I will have 28 DOF.

I was confused with that until today. Each day I tracked I counted as a DOF but at this point, it's all just semantics. I know there is still some tough times ahead. But it is getting easier and easier. Weeks 3 and 4 were the toughest for me. It's different for everyone.

So stick with your plan. No matter what, do not smoke. N.O.P.E.

Connie

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Stress

Posted by constanceclum Nov 5, 2016

I know I don't have as much stress as a lot of people but I do have quite a bit. Health issues being the biggest stressor. Living on a lower income (but certainly much better than many) There's been quite a bit of tension in my home. It's been off and on over the past yr. but has got a lot worse. Last year when we had to move because our apartment complex got sold, we had very little time and money. I ctually relapsed on alcohol and started to smoke again. We found a nice mobile home in a small town that we wanted to move to but it was out of our budget. We also had a neighbor that is very low income and was in dire straights with finding a place to move so it was decided that he would move with us which made it very affordable. Last spring, I started going to AA meetings as I really want a sober life and almost a mo. ago, I decided I wanted a smoke-free life as well. The housemate is a bad alcoholic-everyday falling down drunk. Our lease is up in Dec. and in redoing the budget I have found that with some sacrifices, my husband and I can afford to stay here. We have told the housemate that we do not want to live with him anymore. It is truly ruining the serenity I am working so hard to get. 

The purpose of whining about all that is to say that yesterday I cut down to 14 mg. patch. I feel no need to smoke. In fact I haven't even used a lozenge. My chest still feels "empty" for lack of a better word but I know that smoking is not an answer to anything. In fact by not smoking will help a lot with us paying the rent out here.

I heard back from the lady whose car I bumped into. Estimate is $150.00 to $200.00. Very doable.

It's so amazing to be alcohol and cigarette free and I know the best is yet to come!

Connie

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24 DOF

Posted by constanceclum Nov 3, 2016

$192.00 saved and 960 cigs not smoked. Last evening I was getting some take-out and I had a SUV next to me pretty so close so I'm backing out but not really able to cut my car as I would have liked. I was inching out paying attention to both the SUV and the car behind me and bumped into the car behind me. I've never hit a car before. There is no dent in her car and about 1/4 inch of paint removed so we both agreed to not get insurances involved but that is probably where all that money saved plus twice as much will go. It's all good though because I have learned how to live life on life's terms without feeling the need to smoke over it. In fact smoking would not help anything.

I have reached this good place because of you guys and I couldn't love you more! Something to be said for a group of people that I have never seen!

Connie

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confusion

Posted by constanceclum Nov 2, 2016

I think my last blog was a leader misleading. I have 23 DOF so I am in my 4th week. I'll have 4 weeks of freedom on Mon. 11/7. 

Hope everyone has a great smoke-free day!

Connie

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The disappearing blog

Posted by constanceclum Nov 1, 2016

I have know idea what happened and that is the first time I have just lost a blog.

I was blogging about my 4th week being health week. That is what I'm going to be working on and I think it will bring EXtra incentive to stay away from cigs.

Right now I'm giving up sugar. I've been up and down with that. I'm fine if I don't by sweet products but it they're in the house I'm like a crazed person-remind you of anything else? So the easy answer is to just not buy  them.

I'm also working on exercize progression too but there are other things to think about to. Is everyone having their yearly physicals and labs? And ladies how about our female checks. 1 simple PAP can be lifesaving from cervical cancer and mammograms saves lives as well but for some reason a lot of people put off (sometimes too long) doing these simple things.

Any ideas you guys come up with are also very welcomed!

Connie

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Health week

Posted by constanceclum Nov 1, 2016

Other people came up with some different ideas for this 4th week but for me, I'm gonna start thinking of other healthy things. Doing some form of exercize everyday. I have some weights and stretch bands and walking when I can. There is mostly hills with curves, very little shoulder and a 45 mph speed limit which most people don't pay attention to and speed. I'm looking into getting some kind of machine for at home. I'm also getting sugar out of my diet again. I have been up and down with that but sugary products are not even tasting good anymore so I'll go back to not buy them because when they're in the house, I'm obssessed even though I am really not liking them.

That's a good start and I will build from that. I will read all suggestions and I know Thomas has a wealth of knowledge!

Have a great smoke-free day!

Connie