So if things go as expected, I should have a few good weeks before NML. I will start heavy preparation now as 2 mo. has usually been my breaking point. Well not this time. The more I read the more I learn. I am not a victim and I don't have to act like one by smoking.
Today I am grateful for pulmonary rehab. I have the opportunity to exercize 2x/week paid for by my insurance. I feel so good after I am done even though I have never been a big lover of exercize. After my program is over and insurance quits paying for it, I will have the opportunity to do maintenance for $35/mo. I can go 5 days/week if I want. It is surely helping my strength and endurance as well as my mental state.
I don't know about the home depot job yet. I still have to interview with the big boss. I'm not sure I want the job now as I will be working 6-10 p.m. 5 nights/week. It will interfere with time with my husband and meetings at my home group (AA). It's in God's hands. If I'm offered the job I will take it because we need the money for our move but I will be looking for another one. Whatever happens I will not smoke over it.
I don't feel a need to smoke because I have become convinced that it will only make things worse!
