I do okay (for the most part) during the day but am awake all night eating. It's starting to become exhausting. I use to wake up to smoke and I guess this is part of that awful habit. I haven't gained any weight yet but I'm already 20# overweight and I don't want to gain anymore than the 5-10# that I would naturally gain from a slower metabolism.
I think God is trying to tell me something. The topic of the last 2 AA meetings I have been to has been on surrendering. I can easily apply this to smoking. One of the definitions of surrender is "To give the control or use of (smoking) to someone else (God)" This needs, for me, to be done on a continual basis, at least for now. I need to also apply that to food.
I am doing okay with cravings but I do have this void. The feeling of missing something. I am filling it with food and I don't want to do that. I don't eat raw veggies so I'm at least trying to think of something healthy to eat at night. I'm allowing myself to eat a protein bar and/or greek yogurt before bed so it's not like I'm hungry. Uggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!.