and no excuses from me. It happened and now I'm ready to be done with it. I've been coughing so hard my sides are painful. Since they took all my mood stabilizers away from me and the steroid they gave me causes depression, I am pretty much a basket case. I am going to mental health ER tomorrow early in the morning. It's usually a 5-6 hour ordeal.
This morning was hard but I'm doing better now. The shortness of breath I'm having along with the cough from just a few days of smoking reminds me that smoking is not really something I want to do.
I'm just thinking of what I did or thought that caused me to smoke. I think it's always the same for me "stinken thinken" Being sick most of the summer gave me an attitude of not really caring about the consequences. Unfortunately, that attitude goes away as soon as I light up and I can't wait to get back off them.