day 10

Blog Post created by constanceclum on Jul 1, 2015

Yes, double digits. I last 9 days have felt like a month but it is getting easier. I still have an urge to smoke with the mental fog for a couple of hours in the morning. I am always real groggy when I wake up in the morning and the seroquel that I take makes it worse. So my history is to wake up, drink coffee and smoke about 10 cigarettes the first 2 hrs. I was up. Yesterday, when that horrible crave went away, about 1:00, I had the best afternoon, evening yet.  Other than frequent short-lived thoughts of smoking I felt totally free.

I am a realist and I know this battle won't be over for about 4-6 months. But I am looking forward to it being easier.

To answer everyone that commented on yesterdays blog about patches. It's not that I can't afford them and I would rather leave the free one's for people that really needs them. The patches cost me about 1/3 of what I spent on smoking. I just hate nicotine so, of course, I don't want to spend money on it. I can't wait until I'm free of nicotine. For people that aren't aware though, nicotine is not the harmful element in cigarettes fo patches are relatively safe if used correctly.

Sat. is my birthday and I will be so happy to burn all the cigs I haven't smoked. I am going to take the $90.00 I will have saved to get my hair cut and cover up the chrome.

I certainly didn't do what i said as far as being a "happy quitter" the past week and 1/2 but I am becoming much happier now.