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Welcome back!

Posted by constanceclum Apr 27, 2015

I can't wait to hear the stories and see the pictures. I know you all had a blast.

I am hanging in there. Still cutting back and staying aware of when I smoke. I'm also aware that is just isn't tasting good or seem to be doing anything for me anymore. I have to change my quit date. I am scheduled to quit on 5/5. That is the actual date of my 1st cessation class and I will put a patch on that night. So my quit date will be 5/6.

Thanks for the advice on stopping the pop ups. I just started having the problem and I'm not sure why.  I'm working on getting it to stop.

Thanks, also, for continuing with the encouragment. I appreciate it and, I know, this site is the biggest asset  I have with everything else I am doing. This is the aid that I will have long after everything else is over.

Hoping everyone has a great Monday!

Connie

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Posted by constanceclum Apr 25, 2015

Why are all these ads showing up whenever I get on this site or switch between pages. It's very irritating.

Connie

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Hi Ex family

Posted by constanceclum Apr 25, 2015

I haven't been on here for a few days, had a bad stomache bug and then my computer was down yesterday. I've been thinking about what an EX friend messaged me, about how I am over thinking and analizing my quit and I think he is right. However, the craves of the first few weeks are horrible for me and I don't look forward to them. My quit date is 5/5. I'm looking forward to it because my breathing and cough are really bad but, at the same time, am not looking forward to the craves. I have done all the readings and am using all the support I can possibly get.

I met an 80 yr. old man in pulmonary rehab that quit smoking 25 yrs. ago. He said he had prayed for 3 yrs. for God to help him quit smoking but then thought that maybe God wasn't going to help him. Then he woke up one day, evening came, and he realized that he hadn't smoked. Woke up the next day and the same thing happened. After 3 days, he knew he was a non-smoker. I have been praying for years too and am hoping God will work for me the same way.

I think a lot of what happens when quitting has to do with timing. When the time is right, and you are truly committed, it will not be as hard. I think to judge others who are doing their best and finding it impossible, is wrong. I don't believe in tough love but, rather, gentle encouragement. Most of you on this site has provided this for me and, for that, I am grateful.

Connie

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Good news for me!

Posted by constanceclum Apr 21, 2015

I just got off the phone with the nurse from the pulmonary clinic. No cancer/malignancy found on my pet/ct scan. I'll repeat the ct scan in 3 mo. I'm more motivated than ever to give these evil cigs up. 5/5.

Connie

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re-committed

Posted by constanceclum Apr 21, 2015

I am getting my motivation back and the only thing I am doing at this point is getting on here every day. Reading the blogs of EX friends that have been on here for years and the newbies, just starting their journey. I think the pulmonary rehab. education and exercise and starting the mediterranian diet (light) at this point is also helping. I have given up white foods almost entirely. I did have a spoonful of mashed potatoes and gravy on Sun. I have lost 4# over the past 2 weeks. Did you know that white foods also raise CO2 levels? That's why the respiratory therapists recommend the mediterranian diet. I need to increase my fruit/veg. servings though and drink more water.

I have asked myself what I did/didn't do last time, after my 2 mo. quit to start smoking again. I stopped getting on here everyday and then I ran out of patches and thought "it's okay, I got this". Then the cravings came back as strong as when I first quit and I wasn't prepared. My disease told me, after 5 days, that it didn't matter if it killed me, I was going to smoke. I cannot let my guard down for 1 minute for the 1st 6 months at least. I have smoked too much for a very long time. I will use the patches, as recommended doing the steps and I will get on here everyday, if not to blog, then at least to read. That is my committment.

Wishing everyone a wonderful, smoke free day!

Connie

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new day/new attitude

Posted by constanceclum Apr 20, 2015

Feeling physically well today, a rarity and I'm going to enjoy. Perfect weather here in Charlotte. I have a stretch band at home from pulmonary rehab. so I'm starting to do those upper body exercises here at home. I have trouble with some of them because of my shoulders. I have chronic tendonitis (tendonosis) but I am doing the best I can. I'm sure it will all pay off.

For those of you that asked, it's Constance Lenore and, yes, my mom used both names.

I hope each and everyone of you has a wonderful, smoke free day.

Connie

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n/a

Posted by constanceclum Apr 19, 2015

For all of you calling me Constance, please call me Connie. You sound like my mother when I was in real trouble. Love you all.

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Hi friends

Posted by constanceclum Apr 19, 2015

I so love the advice and encouragement of all your comments. Please know that I am feeling more optimistic today. Barbara, my nodule is not a mass and certainly not a tumor. However it has grown from 1.3mm to 1.6mm over the past year and the technology of the pet scans now can detect if their is any activity. Last yr. my pulmonary Dr. had the chance to offer 10 of his clients a blood test to check for lung malignancy, a cost of $10,000 a pop. and I was one of them. No activity. Now they are talking about removing the nodule so I am way more concerned about the copd than cancer. I did quit smoking for 2 mo. in the fall but I have lost motivation. I have been depressed and isolated over the winter. I am hoping being in a class, meeting other people working toward the same goals, will provide the extra umph I need. They also provide the nrt's. It is run by the Levine Cancer Institute here in Charlotte and they are having good success. It's not that I don't have the tools, it's just that the tools are rusty. In the mean time, I am cutting down on smoking. As awful as it sounds, I am down to a pack a day and will keep cutting down until May 5. Even when I am not motivated, every time I come on this site, I get motivated. 2 weeks is not going to make much of a difference and in the meantime, they are brutal in pulmonary rehab, making me work out for an hour with the exercise machines, weights and a stretch band for upper body and chest strength.

for those of you that don't know me, I am 56 yrs old and have severe copd. My mother died at 58 of coped. I also have a nodule in my lung that has grown over the past yr. They are talking about taking it out but I don't know if it's malignant or not. I am still trying to quit smoking. I am in pulmonary rehab and will attend 3, 90 minute smoking cessation classes starting in May. If this doesn't work, I am done. I have smoked for 43 yrs. I can't do anything without being short of breath. I really have no quality of life. I am going to keep blogging here just so you can follow my journey. Believe me, you don't want to live like I am and you don't want to die like I will in the next 2 yrs if I don't quit smoking

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Checking in

Posted by constanceclum Apr 17, 2015

I have been using this site for a long time and it has helped me to quit smoking for periods of time. I am smoking now unfortunately. I am starting with pulmonary rehab that is helping me to cut down by 1 cig/day. I am registered to go to a local cancer hospital that sponsers a quit smoking program, 3, 90 minute classes over 3 weeks. They are having good success. So my new quit date is May 5. I am a hard case. I am going to keep using this site and all the wonderful friends I have met for support. I am an addictive personality and have used cigs for my dopamine (along with alcohol and drugs) since I was 13. I am now 56. I am dieing of copd and have a nodule in my lung that has grown. I just had a pet scan to check for malignant activity. Not really wanting to die this young. This is my last effort.