It definitely is getting better at day 13. My Dr. prescribed me a mos. worth of phenergan so I went back to the recommended dose. I'm still having some nausea but it's much milder.
I still feel the deprivation. When my husband goes outside to smoke and I am so thankful he goes outside, I want to go with him to smoke. He has copd too and not to sound too morbid, we have had this long term conversation that we want to be the first to go. He is 50 and I am 56 and I know it is terrible to be having this conversation at out ages. Well I don't smoke and he does so I pretty much know the outcome of this unless God has different plans.
I think some of this is an excuse to smoke. I want to die first. Seeing this in writing I know how rediculous it sounds but I do have an addicts brain. I have been clean of cocaine and alcohol but cigarettes are absolutely the hardest. Of course that's just another excuse.
I am sorry for this blog. I'm not thinking straight but I feel like I need to express this. I absolutely love the elders for their comittment to hang around and help the newbies and I love the newbies for understanding exactly where I'm at.
Hope everyone is having a wonderful Monday.
Connie
