For some people the glass is half full. If it's half empty there is still room for wine. I really appreciate all the encouraging comments on my negativity blog. Having you guys really helps. I think the best advice I got was from my friend who lives in the outer banks of NC. I use too live there too which is how I met her. I was so much more grounded living near the ocean. She suggested omharmonics which I never heard of but I will look into. I have bipolar depression, I live in a dark gloomy apt with no sunshine or ventilation, I am in a rut that all my girlfriends have moved and I have no life. I am overwhelmed and don't know where to start. Not smoking has been surprizingly easy but I am my own worst enemy. Scott is content to work fulltime and spend all his off time in the apt. He is so not social. I'm sort of introverted but I need to get out more and have at least one girlfriend to help me stay balanced. I am so off track right now. I will start walking, stay off the computer, turn off the tv, medicate. My best friend for over 15 yrs. wants to move back to Charlotte but right now her sone is recovering from leukemia. I am really rambling but I am lonely and just want to talk. Also my 4 grown sons live in Va, NY, and Pa and I miss them terribly.