chehin82

quitting... again...

Blog Post created by chehin82 on Oct 25, 2014

So I've already been through this process before, and even had an account on this site! And even though I have NOT gone back to smoking full time, I still have the occasional cigarette and the past couple of weeks, I've been smoking on a daily basis. I want to nip this in the butt before it gets out of hand.

I HATE the smell of smoke and the way it makes me feel. I don't really know why I started up again. I'm okay for the rest of the night tonight, but I'm afraid of the trigger that my morning coffee will give me tomorrow morning. And when I go to work tomorrow afternoon, I'm hoping that I can stay smoke free since half of my co-workers smoke and lately I'm used to having a cigarette on my way there and then back home. (Driving is also a trigger.)

On Sunday, since I'm off of work, I plan to go to the gym and workout, and usually that will get rid of any desire I have to smoke. I haven't worked out at all for the past month, and usually I workout 5-6 days a week. I think that once I get back on my schedule I will be okay. But I just need to GET back on that schedule and stay smoke free. The last time I quit, which was about 5 years ago, working out played a huge part in helping me stay smoke free.

My biggest triggers are coffee, driving, boredom, and stress or fighting with my boyfriend. My biggest reasons to quit, besides the obvious health related effects, are that my grandma smoked and died of lung cancer, the horrible smell, the way it makes me feel, coughing up nasty stuff, stinking up my car and clothes, having my parents feel disappointed in me... that's all I can think of for now.

A few hours ago, I smoked my LAST CIGARETTE EVER! Here's to giving them up for GOOD.

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