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Minor slip, NEVER to be repeated!!

caz75
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I cant believe i had a slip up....  

I finally reached my full week, +1....    This was the hardest dat yet, if that makesany sense at all!   I woke up thinking of them and just couldnt shake the thought of smoking out of my mind.

I could feel myself becoming more and more consumed by these thoughts and didnt know how to handle them.  I was snapping at my son for no real reason, fidgity and generally just crawling out of my own skin.....

I finally broke down after a few hours of this and asked my neighbour for one...  He knows im quitting and was really trying to talk me down but i was wwaaayyy to far gone at this point...

I took it, i smoked it and it did NOTHING.... i didnt feel any  better, any more relaxed or content.  In fact all i felt was guilty, for letting myself, my husband and my son down!   As soon as i put it out i sent my hubby a text to tell him what i had done and told my son as soon as i got back into the house!

I felt like shit, yeah that sums sit up, like shit!!

To my surprise they were both very supportive.   My son said, "im not proud of you for what you did, but i am still proud of you mamma!"  This of course threw me into hysterics, i could i be so stupid as to jepardise this quit for one stupid cigerette?

My husbands response was pretty much the same, "Dont hate yourself for this slip up, you are still doing amazing and in sooo proud of you"

O.K.    So  i guess yesterday is yesterday and today is today!!!   I have a beyond amazing support system amd im  gonna do them proud!!

 

Goodbye cigerettes!  You will no lomger rule my life!    I have more to live for than a stick of nicotine thats gone within 3 mins!

Bring on today, tomorrow and everyday after that.

 

IM AN EX SMOKER!!   SO SUCK IT CIGERETTES!!!!

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