Wow, the title says it all!
I have been smoking since i was 13yrs old, which is nearly 27yrs ago. I have been hooked since the first drag. I had always hated cigerettes with a passion but always knew that someday i would be a smoker.
I remeber as a child, riding in the car with my Grandad, choking in the back seat as he smoked away. It was more accepted back then but i hated it. It's weird coz my parents never smoked and really the only smoker i ever really around was my Grandad.
Tomorrow will mark the last day that i smoked a cigerette!!!!!! 🙂
This is HUGE for and homestly i never thought i would beable to do this. Ive always found self disapline very difficult. To do something just for my own benefit has always ben hard. I have stopped smoking many times before but that was when i was pregnant. I could muster the self disapline when it was dor the sake of a child but just for me! Couldnt do it.
If you noticed i used the phrase "stopped smoking" ! Thats coz to me, as im now realizing, that thise times in the past are very different than now. Back then i was not smoking but knew as soon as i wasnt pregnant anymore i would once again become a smoker.
Its pretty sick now i really think about it. It had that big of a hold on me even when i had the biggest motivation and head start, i couldnt take it.
Anyway, as i said this time is different! Im QUITTING not stopping smoking.
This is it! Im 37 years old, have my best friend as my husband and an amazing 14yr old son that wamts nothing more than to see me stop smoking.
Im doing this for them and i have to remind myself that its for me too. I am done with this FOREVER!
Im done with- The smell, the coughing, the wast of money, the time i miss with my family, the last cigerette that i must have before going ANYWHERE.
- Hearing my sons frustration of waiting for me to finish, hearing both him and my husband telling they want me around for a long time.
- The smell that gets on EVERYTHING!! , my clothes, my car, my hair.
Cigeretts are a drug, they get a hold of you, they isolate you, they make you sneeky and desperate, they are all consuming!
O.K......... I guess what im saying here is that IM A EX-SMOKER!!!!!!
Excuse me for my rant but i feel better about this already, just from actually writing this down, well typing, who writes anymore, right!
I am now going to have my dinner with my amazing husband then go for walk to walk off my cravings.
Love & Thoughts to everyone who is on their own quitting journey.....
W E C A N D O T H I S !!! 🙂
