Have been ill the last few days. The cravings have been even worse since I've been sick. What's up with that? Have been trying to figure this out between episodes of nausea. I think I may have hit on a reason--when I feel sick and I am here all alone, I get scared. There's nothing and nobody to help if something happens. FEAR sets in and feeds itself. What did I always do before when I was scared. I smoked.
I'm just sick. I just need to roll with that and let it go. It will be better. And smoking isn't going to make it better. Ok. Just the thought of it has made me feel nauseated again. Signing off now.