I WANT TO LIVE!!

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   Up almost in tears this morning. I failed again! Why do I keep failing. I was doing great, and I was certain that I would not smoke. A bad wave (withdrawal) came over me, as I was headed out the door to take care of some business and I felt like I couldn't do it without a smoke, and so one smoke led to many! I smoke even more after trying to quit, and my heart starts racing off until hours later. What am I doing wrong?

  Well, I'm up this morning starting again. Please don't give up on me guys. I really want to be a non-smoker. Their is something that I'm not getting.