Wow, what an interesting week. I've been on an emotional rollercoaster. I was really looking forward to May 1, the 2 year anniversary of my quit date. I was planning a special anniversary dinner party for everyone at the Ex Cafe. https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/blogs/c2q-blog/2012/04/30/ex-cafe-grand-opening
And then, on the eve of the big day, I didn't feel much like a party. I suddenly was unemployed. The company I've worked at for the last 9 years has been going through a major restructuring and restructured me (and a dozen others) right out of a job.
Some might point out that those of us who are over 50, and those of us with the highest salaries, were the ones not to be selected for rehire. But I'm not going there today.
I am struggling with the blow to my self esteem, and I am afraid for the future. We'll loose our house if I don't find something quickly. we are way under water on the house, so that will leave us with nothing to show for decades of hard work. And I am 62 - who is going to hire me? I haven't even gotten to the pissed off stage of this mourning process yet, but I'm looking forward to it. I need some relief.
Now, during this whole thing, did I ever once even think about having a cigarette? Nope. If anything, I think I would be sick if I had to be around someone who was smoking right now. Smoking is so completely yesterday for me. So I do have one thing to feel good about, right? Happy 2 years smoke free to me!