Bernie here. I haven't been on the site for a long time I guess my attitude was bad. And I was off my meds.
Today is 2 years smoke free. In the early days I thought I would die, this site helped me a lot. I am ashamed to say that I don't remember all the names of the people who helped me. But one person stands out and that's Ellen. Her journey is so courageous. She has a good word for everyone no matter how hard she is struggling herself. I love her for that. Thank you Ellen. I hope someday I can come and visit you.
I live in the Frozen Northland, Minnesota. Right now I am snuggling in bed , so happy I don't have to get up and go outside in the cold and smoke. I think that's why I chose December 5th as my quit date. That was the one thing I hated was huddling in the cold. At the end I was getting up in the middle of the night and having a cigarette. How stupid! I screamed and cried and wailed. I stayed in bed for days. I made chocolate cake after chocolate cake and ate it for breakfast. I did what I wanted to do. I was a ***** a lot of the time. That's gotten better. I am now happier.
It's been a long hard Road. But I don't regret it. I don't miss it anymore. I can finally say that. So for you newbies out there don't give up! It is totally worth it. Just let yourself go through the emotions. Don't try to stifle them , just let yourself feel them. That's my advice.
I hope I can spend more time on this site. My health is going downhill. But I expected that after 45 years of smoking. I am still happier than I was. Love to you all.
By the way, I changed my username to Gma_bernie.