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5 months today N.O.P.E.

Posted by bsheats May 5, 2018

When I quit smoking on December 5th 2017 I didn't know if I was going to make it or not. But I have made it 5 months today! The road is still bumpy and I still want a cigarette. Sometimes it makes me crabby and angry and I Cry. But I am going through it. There's no other way. Just want to encourage anyone out there who's in the beginning days. Don't give up. Don't let anyone else influence whether you smoke or not. It is your life. And ultimately you are the one that is responsible for your health. Happy Cinco de Mayo everyone!


I want to effing smoke

Posted by bsheats Mar 12, 2018

My dearest husband just came storming downstairs to declare here's something you can do in your God damn spare time! I have been sick with the flu for the last 4 days. Yes I am still lying around in bed. No I don't feel guilty. But I am very very very angry right now. He's a ******* *******. I want to go buy a pack of cigarettes


Mayo NDC June 2017

Posted by bsheats Mar 3, 2018

Hi. Anybody out there that was in the June 2017 Mayo Clinic residential program.? I am going on 90 days. I quit for 3 weeks after the program, but didn't quit for good until December 5th. I could really use some help dealing with everyday frustrations.


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"when" never happens

Posted by bsheats Apr 2, 2014

I have no excuse. No job. No money pressure. Just chronic pain, depression and anxiety. But I know the cigs are increasing the pain and still can't stop myself from putting that first one in my mouth every day.  Raising 2 grandkids, ages 12 and 14. They are good kids, a little naive maybe, but that's o.k. with me. They are smart, so maybe what I don't know can't hurt me--unless you're talking about smoking. I KNOW it's hurting me.

I have so much I could do to distract myself. But it only works so much and finally I am facing the need for a smoke. I am so discouraged . . . 

Don't know what else to say, except I haven't stopped smoking and have never used online chatting to help. Are there really people out there that are willing to walk me through my cravings? Hello? I need help.