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Grief did not conquer me

Posted by agthornton007 May 28, 2019

Hello all it has been a long time since posting a blog, I have been incredibly busy and also had a terrible February as my Dad passed away , I am doing ok taking it day by day we had to move house so i can look after my Mom. This past Saturday would have been my Dad's 80th Birthday so was a very emotional weekend. The good news I was not tempted to smoke, it did cross my mind but I angry told myself NO!!! 


I am sitting on 876 days without smoking, it feels like that person never existed I have morphed into a new me. 


I do read the newsletter and I hope you all are well and doing great on your quit. Keep positive you can do it.


God bless xx



Posted by agthornton007 Nov 5, 2018

Hello everyone I hope my blog finds you all well. I had a fantastic weekend a busy one but lots achieved. I had a gig on Saturday in Hartebeestpoort by a lovely pub called Woody's it was in the mountains overlooking the water what a view. It was so divine being able to smell blossoms and the clean air, before I would have been puffing away like a steam train on my cigarette but nope not this time I can now say I have a new super power my sense of smell LOL. i am content and confident in my quit. I was asked just today if I was cigarette free and had the pride to say yes, on the 2nd of January I will be 2 years free from the death stick. 


To all the new quitters I am proud of you, keep going because every day no matter how tough it was to get through if you did it without smoking give yourself a pat on the back and a high 5 because it makes you 1 day further away from that demon nicotine and cigarettes. Embrace the freedom and revel in the knowledge that you are walking farther from slavery with each cigarette you say no to. As you smokers brain dies you will notice how much better things taste and also being able to walk without wheezing and also you will notice certain lovely smells are so much better, like walking past a bakery in the morning. 


Have a wonderful day further God bless and keep on keeping on know that all of us are proud of your quit. 

Hello everyone I hope this post finds you all well and keeping on track towards freedom from cigarettes. I am well over 630 days now and finding that I have developed a new super smell is back like never before my word i can smell the stench of a cigarette a mile away! The one pet peeve I have lately is the inconsiderate smokers who don't seem to care that you have quit and light up when you are in the car together or when I'm in the band room. I HATE the smell of my clothes after a practice YUK!!!! Does anyone else have the same problem of dealing with these inconsiderate smokers? 


I have recovered nicely from the flu and this is 100% down to quitting smoking, I had a cough but nowhere near as bad as if I had been smoking. I can never see myself going back to that filthy habit 


Always keep going forward you are giving your self a massive gift everyday that you abstain from smoking, celebrate this when I mention to my smoking friends I can see the envy in their eyes they too can share my gift but they are too tangled up in the lie that smoking won't harm them or that they won't get sick from it. I just really hope my wife would quit but I can't force her you have to want to quit nd once that decision is made you have just given yourself the power to do it. 


Keep walking forward, enjoy your quit even when it gets hard because you are healing all the time. 


God Bless 



Posted by agthornton007 Sep 5, 2018

Wow 610 days of freedom from cancer sticks. i had band practice last night 2 of the members are smokers and wow could I smell it on my clothes this morning when I put them in the wash basket....YUK!!!! I have a touch of the flu at the moment and I can say how happy I am not smoking as I know my cough would be terrible my immune system is stronger now as I am not half as bad if I was smoking. 


The sense of freedom I feel not being under the thumb of cigarettes is liberating something all of the beginner quitters must hold onto. Sometimes my wife asks me to get her a box of smokes when I pop to the shop and itfeels like everyone is looking at me going you cheater LOL i want to shout out " THEY ARE NOT MINE IT"S MY WIFE"S" ha ha ha. 


Anyway that's my little chat for now. Keep well everyone enjoy every day you are free from smoking. 


Keep well and God bless. 



Posted by agthornton007 Aug 8, 2018

Hello everyone i just checked in after sometime and see I am on 583 days smoke free now that makes me smile. We are about to have a nice long weekend here in South Africa a nice 4 day holiday just what i need. 


Work has been very busy and my boss who had a heart attack last year is still smoking even after me niggling him to quit. It's amazing how stubborn we humans can be even after a heart attack that little cancer stick has power over you....not me no longer. I am so happy to be smoke free. This morning brushing our teeth together my little daughter looks up at me and goes "mmmmm daddy you always smell so nice" I just smiled and thanked her. 


Life is good enjoy it, enjoy every cigarette free day you have even if you are on day 1 because it's the beginning of freedom and happiness. 


Have a super weekend all. xxx


2 more days to 500

Posted by agthornton007 May 15, 2018

Good day to all you fabulous quitters  I just took a look and yup I am 500 days free on the 17th what a great feeling. This journey would not have been as easy without EX community. This site has been a great inspiration and release when days were tough. Thank you to each of you for your support then now and the future. 


Let my journey not fool you I did have bad cravings and wow some times I nearly caved in but wearing the patch was a great tool because if you have that on and have a ciggy you can get nicotine poisoning and that was the deterrent that ultimately got over that hard first weeks. 


I relish being able to taste food again breathe well, I do have a morning cough now and then but I can feel my lungs and body healing eveyday i'm smoke free. 


Have a great week everyone 



Posted by agthornton007 Apr 6, 2018

Good day all my friends. Today I checked in and I am proudly 459 days free from smoking. I was just sitting here remembering when I did smoke and I cannot see that side of me its like a parallel universe, gone are the days of having 4 cigarettes before 9 am, wheezing up the stairs at home. I take great delight in running next to my daughter and seeing her smiling up at daddy and a giggle of delight coming from her I can see she is proud of daddy too. This is why I quit I feel healthy my voice when I sing on stage now is powerful and I can push those notes, food tastes amazing I have put on some weight but I look healthy my skin feels better. So to the new quitters keep pushing on even when days feel that you can't look at what you can look forward to, your health will improve you can do this and its so worth it and I believe in you. 


Have an amazing weekend don't give up you can do it  

Hello everyone. I hope I find you well and happy in your quit 


I got to see a good friend on this weekend that passed and would you believe I had a powerful craving for a cigarette it came out of the blue like a salvo from a battleship, but as I have done previously I acknowledged it I said to my buddy wow I am craving a smoke he laughed and said no ways ! I said yup we both laughed about it I didn't smoke but what a surprise ! It just goes to show even being 437 days not smoking that little smokers brain try's to get you to slip. I'm really glad I was strong enough not to smoke makes me proud. 


Always be aware of that sneaky crave so you can kick its butt (pun intended) 


Have a great week everyone  


Have courage be strong

Posted by agthornton007 Feb 23, 2018

6 years ago I beat cocaine and Methcathinone (KAT) , over 400 days ago I beat cigarettes now I am going 4 days without a drink. Quitting drugs was a very similar process to quitting smoking but heck quitting cigarettes was one of the hardest things to beat but once your mind is set it is your most powerful tool in your arsenal ! Over 400 days of being free from the drug nicotine feels awesome I think going through the fire of overcoming drugs gave me the strength to beat smoking. I had tried a couple of times before but always slipped back but not this last time. I am now putting this power in play against booze. The point I am making here is that your mind set is the most powerful thing you can use. To all the new quitters please don't ever doubt yourself in your quit you are on a path to feeling awesome I celebrate every day with you because each day smoke free is a day further towards feeling healthier breathing easier and not being a slave to a little white stick filled with poison and death. Please realise that you are awesome and don't need a cigarette to help your anxieties, you don't need a cigarette to make you happy, you need YOU! enjoy every smoke free moment because those seconds, minutes, days, months are allowing to reclaim yourself back from being a slave to nicotine and cigarettes. Keep your chin up walk proud even if your on day 1 or day 400 because by making the decision to quit already makes you a winner. 


BE STRONG! Have courage you can do it !!! 



Posted by agthornton007 Jan 8, 2018

Wow what a year who would have thought 1 yer ago I would put down the cancer sticks and be free from their grasp. All through the festive season I had not one single craving to smoke, I had a dream that i was smoking and got very angry and upset at myself in the dream I woke up with a great feeling of relief ha ha ha. 


After quite a stressful year it turned out to actually be a great year so going into 2018 I feel so positive. Thank you to every one for their wishes for me entering into the 6% club it feels great I feel free I liberated myself from nicotine liberated my brain from smoking. it was a tricky journey but because my head was right I did it and will never smoke again. My marriage is blossoming to new heights my daughter is entering grade one on the 17th January and she is niggling at my wife to quit smoking too she is brave taking on my wife bless her lol.


God bless for the new year everyone may your quit be strong and keep believing in your self you can do it. 


Don't ever give up

Posted by agthornton007 Nov 17, 2017

Hello everyone. Well myself and my family have had a trying couple of weeks with my wife having a breast cancer scare. Thank God after all the tests and scans it came out that she was clear and healthy. Then it was my turn with 3 migraine attacks in 2 days due to the stress and worry for my wife. I am still groggy from the pain meds but i am on the mend. 


In this little challenging week there lies a little gem of a saying that I enjoy using of "Don't give up" I use this when I'm feeling down or going through a tough time don't ever give up! Apply this to your quit as per my last blog we often use a cigarette as an excuse to feel better. I could have let this situation with my wife really get to me and have a puff but nope i'm not that weak anymore I have been through this past year without needing them so why the heck now. 


i love reading your blogs and get encouragement from them not only in not smoking but also through life in general. Seeing that each one of us has a unique quit but also at the same time very similar things we experience while beating this demon nicotine. 


Have a splendid weekend be strong in your quit don't give up it will get better and easier just keep pushing on. 


God Bless 


So here we are

Posted by agthornton007 Nov 9, 2017

Hi everyone I hope this post finds you well and strong in your quit. I am well on my way to making it a full year in +- 2 months and wow who would have thought when I started this journey I would be where I am now. In my past blogs I wrote about the sneak attack crave well guess what this past weekend it came to tap me on the shoulder and that deadly whisper of go on have just one crept in. We went away to the seaside for the first time in 9 years and it was my daughters first time at the beach and seeing the ocean. My wife and my daughter had a great time I didn't unfortunately i wasn't able to relax or switch out of work mode so will have to try again sometime. Now on the way back up +-705km drive I got the sneak crave sneak attack sitting in the car bored with the drive I almost asked my wife for a puff ! Wow not once but 3 times during the 7 hour drive I got really annoyed at myself. This is the danger of boredom when we used to smoke and got bored smoking gave us something to do, I used to puff on a pipe when I first quit cigarettes and this little thought also popped into my head saying go one have a pipe when you get home GRRRR I didn't smoke or puff but it is so infuriating after all this time that I had such thoughts due to boredom. Also i have recently seen some posts where some of our members are going through really tough times and they are getting craving due to the past of relying on that crutch the cigarettes that we smoked and thought comforted us, again like boredom the pain of emotional hurt or a break-up etc can be a bomb in your quit. Please don't think a cigarette can heal the hurt or boredom this is a cliche' that the tabacco companies enjoy using to sell their cancer sticks to the public. If that crave hits be strong you can heal you can do something else than smoke a cigarette. Talk to the good people on this site they are always here and are always supportive its free therapy. 


God bless keep pushing on into your quit.  


Long time no see

Posted by agthornton007 Oct 18, 2017

It has been a while since I have posted anything I hope you are all doing well. I am still going strong and have not touched a cigarette since 2 January 2017 ! I had a dream the other night that I started smoking again could even feel the smoke in my lungs wow was I angry at myself in the dream hee hee luckily that is all it was. I have entered a pattern now of having vivid dreams and battling to get good sleep it will pass I am sure but heck its a pain. 


I almost feel now being so far into quitting I feel like I have shed the shell of the smoker and gone back to a more happier time in my life when I didn't smoke. My marriage is strong loving and awesome my little girl is going to start big school next year my band has been nominated as one of the top acts and we have been booked solid for months so I am very blessed. When I started this quit I focused alot on self doubt and also nervous feelings of relapsing but by God's grace here i am take up the challenge to make life beautiful step through that smoke cloud because a positive mind and attitude will bring you many blessings and help you hit goals you never thought were possible. 


Have a super duper week 


God bless 



Posted by agthornton007 Sep 19, 2017

Good morning everyone. It has been a while since I have been back and posted something but I have a nice topic to talk about. Fear, something all of us as quitters have experienced in our journey to get smoke free. As your quit date approaches you start getting anxious, scared, doubtful of whether I can do this, I am going to suffer, What if I can't etc all the fears and questions your smokers brain will bombard you with not only before but also during your quit. Lets look at fear as a acronym F.E.A.R = FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL let that sink in read it again !!


We have been lied to by the tobacco companies for years they present us with images that smoking is glamorous if we smoke their brand we will jet off to some island beach on a yaught, go racing in Monaco etc. what a load of rubbish. This is false if we smoke we are going to die, we are poisoning our bodies, we are going to huff and puff up stairs wheeze our way through the park and what do we do ? We let the fear that we can't quit the fear that we are not going to benefit from quitting the fear that well we are just not strong enough. I read my stats the other day over 7667 cigarettes not smoked well hell if I let my fear present me with  false evidence appearing real and believed my smokers brain I would not be here today I would still be hiding behind my fears. Step up step out blast those fears into the past embrace the new non-smoker that you can and will become love life live it take it back from tobacco and enjoy every moment of freedom that you chose to deserve. 


God bless  


Enjoying DDC

Posted by agthornton007 Aug 24, 2017

Wow 234 days 7020 cigarettes not smoked ! I never thought I would get this far when I started I am so chuffed with myself. I remember the first few weeks were hard really hard but having the attitude of this is it i have had enough of smoking pulled me through. This is something my wife and i were discussing as we were talking about her quitting but she is not ready to quit. A big bonus is the setting your quit date on this site as it allows you to mentally prepare yourself and get that attitude of i've had enough in your head. Your mind is such a potent thing, this is the problem in the beginning of your quit is your smokers brain is so hardwired to convincing you you can't do it, you will feel terrible nah you can't do it......TWADDLE you can and will if you use your prep time to think about why you are quitting, talk to yourself remind yourself all the time get that mind ready and it will be a great weapon in your quit.


Have a super day everyone