Feeling down

[agatka79]

I flashed down the toilet a pack of cigarettes I bought yesterday. I feel strange, guilty, and down. There is this heaviness on my chest. Why do I feel like this? I really don’t like this feeling and I want it to go away. I don’t feel like doing anything…why…this is not like me. I am always energetic with a positive attitude towards everything. What happened? I don’t know. Is this normal to feel this way…