with lots of picnics, parties, swimming, fishing and family gatherings. There will probably be alcohol served. You promised yourself you would not smoke another cigarette NO MATTER WHAT. Drinking alcohol can loosen your resolve and might cause you to think "just one would be okay." PLEASE don't end your weekend with this:
The addict within keeps trying to pull me back - even after almost FIVE years quit!
I got to Virginia Beach after a loooong drive (thanks to SkyGirl for the chauffeuring), and limped/dragged/limped/dragged on my crutches and pulled and pulled to open the balcony slider to see and hear the ocean. And, even after almost five years
the thought hit me, "gee, but a cigarette would be nice right now!!!"
WTH? It was only a brief thought ----- but it was THERE! Easy to dismiss - but there nonetheless. Easy to explain - I had not been to the beach enough times yet to relearn that part of my addictive association.
Stay vigilant! Be careful out there! A quit would be a terrible thing to lose!!!
Marilyn.H.July.14.14. named the Hump Day camel "George," and we're stopping by to wish everyone a stupendous, smoke free, ginormous Wednesday, because life is grand without a cigarette in hand, and we can enjoy this day without taking breaks to suck on those disgusting yakkies!
Keep the quit. Marilyn would be SO disappointed if you didn't!
I went to my PT yesterday for crutch lessons. When I told him the ortho wanted "non-weight bearing only," he told me that meant keeping the broken leg off the floor - for EIGHT weeks (and even that doesn't guarantee healing). My arms are not strong enough to do that consistently, so I am doing toe touches with the bad leg. This has caused my formerly sprained ankle on the OTHER leg to wake up and start screaming at me.
I can't weed or mulch my flower gardens or add annuals, or vacuum or dust or clean the bathrooms, or clean off my front porch and summer furniture, or go to the Farmer's Market for spring veggies and plants to make my many hanging baskets (I won't be able to keep them watered) or cut perennials that are blooming to bring inside. My daughter will help with the necessities (what SHE determines is "necessary"). You all might understand how devastating all this is to someone who basically never sits still, who loves to work in her yard, and loves a clean house. And, I am not ill enough to not care!!!!! And I haven't even mentioned my love of walks along the river and swimming laps.
But - and this is where the process for quitting smoking comes in ---- I can fight this, and be depressed about it, or I can understand it's temporary, accept what is, and be as comfortable with it as I can. There, hopefully, is a light at the end of this tunnel. I am working to see it!!!. Right now I am in mourning for what I want but cannot do. I guess this will be a journey, just like quitting smoking, and, perhaps, like quitting smoking, it will also get easier over time.
I won't smoke over it - because I know that would not help, but hurt , the healing process. But - I won't guarantee I won't eat a TON of chocolate (and perhaps a bit of ice cream, too!)
Just got back from doctor #3 - Bing! Bing! Bing! We have a winner! FINALLY found somebody who seems to know what he's talking about. The MRI showed the meniscus tear, but also a hairline fracture in the weight bearing edge of the femur (the femur makes a kind of saddle at the knee--with the kneecap in the middle) and THAT is what was causing the excruciating pain – I guess a fracture will do that! I started using crutches yesterday after I saw the MRI conclusions - I told doc he was the third and the only one with what I thought was the right answer. He asked who told me to use the crutches and I said, "ME!" He laughed. I started on the crutches yesterday, started my day with no pain - and only so far have taken one Aleve ---- so I kinda' knew he was on track. End result? I am on non-weight bearing status for 8 weeks - crutches and crutches ONLY. ALL the time - everywhere! I am also getting one of those huge hinged braces to keep it immobilized.
"Life is full of ups and downs, good times and bad times and life is going to happen whether we smoke or not and I always figured that I just couldn't quit and I wasn't even sure if I really wanted to but when I finally wised up and figured out that I wasn't invincible that I could actually die a slow painful death that's most likely caused by smoking, I think when I found out that I have mild copd that a light bulb came on in my head and thankfully I brightened up and found this site and read everything I could to strengthen my resolve. Quitting smoking is definitely difficult but with the right mindset it's absolutely Doable but you must want it and you need to believe in yourself and be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful one precious smoke free day at a time, is it easy? HELL NO!!! is it worth it? HELL YES!!! It's within your grasp so grab on and hold on tight and don't let go until you are through the roller coaster ups and downs then you can start reaping the benefits of an Ex Smoker. I always push vigilance because once we have the Freedom we don't want to - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget - the early days and wks of our quits because once we're Free we know that Life is Grand Without A Cigarette In Hand and another Day ONE would really suck big time but but Another Day WON is totally awesome! "
(she let us know she was in the States overnight and not to expect her this morning)