Triggers

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I pretty much got over my usual triggers (driving, coffee, after meals, etc.) after my first week of quit.  I've even had a few occasions with alcohol and was barely phased.  Although I did limit myself to only one small drink each time.  

In my 66 days, there have been plenty of times when I was nearby a smoker, and I did not feel any great desire to smoke.  This is not to say I no longer have cravings.  I still get some doozies.  They just don't seem to be triggered by anything.  Until today.  I ran into an old-coworker this morning.  It's been 2 years since I've seen him, but in the previous 20 years, I smoked more cigarettes with him than anyone else.  In our 8-10 work hour days, we would have at least 8-10 cigarettes together.

We spoke for about 20 minutes catching up.  But within seconds of seeing him, I was overcome with cravings.  I barely heard a word he said.  All I could think about was, "I hope he doesn't light up, because I'm not sure I could not bum one from him".  When I got in my car, I actually toyed with the idea of driving to the store to buy a pack.  Then a calendar alarm went off on my cell phone.  I looked and saw it was a reminder of my annual health insurance screening exam tomorrow morning.  This is the first year they are testing for nicotine use.  I guess timing really is everything .