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Posted by tigs Jan 23, 2017

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I live in the far west of the Midwest, and am interested in making my life simpler and more sustainable. In that light, continuing to smoke would really be a joke and hypocracy, in addition to being a killer of myself and those close to me. So I am quitting for myself, physically and philosophically.

 


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Ahhhh Spring in South Dakota

Posted by tigs Apr 5, 2009
I love being able to breathe, and being in better shape (even if I am carrying more weight..for now) Shoveling out from under 3 feet of snow over the last couple of weeks, and helping the older neighbors get out as well......it felt GOOD to exercise. I ended up shoveling a bit over half the block out for various reasons. I like being neighborly, and it just felt great to be able to do that! No way I could have done that before I quit. I had troube shoveling much LESS snow for just my walkways!

Sometimes, it just feels good to be alive!

Monthly Update

Posted by tigs Mar 22, 2009
Hi all;

Realized I hadn't actually posted a blog in a month! Thought I would update everyone on how things are doing. I'm a bit over 2 months in on the quit. At this point, the quit feels very solid: my hubby is still smoking, I'm around smoking friends, clients that smoke, etc. and have not been craving with a very few exeptions. Those exeptions are generally around "new" things I haven't done aq (after quitting): eating at a friends house that I haven't eaten at since the quit, clipping back winter kill for the spring garden, etc. These cravings have been pretty mild, and easy to dismiss. I have even had a couple of days where I didn't even think about cigarettes or smoking now! hwc promised me there would be days like that, but I'm not sure I believed him (actually, I did, but I wanted them NOW lol).

I didn't watch what I was eating at all when I quit, and I gained about 20 pounds (hey, I'm middle aged, and work in an office a lot). For the last month or so, I've been trying to develop an exercise habit. It took a while, but I have started daily exercise of some sort (depending on the day), am watching the amount and type of food I am putting in my mouth, and I have lost 5 of those extra pounds. One of my knees is bothering me at this point, so I will have to cut down on the pounding for a while, and hope to give it time to heal simply. So, walking/biking/weights seem like the way I'll be going in the near future.

I hope everyone else is hanging in there, and wanted to let newbies know how at least one ex is doing at this point, so they have some info about what they might look forward to, both good and bad. The journey at this point is starting to look pretty good again!

What to do (A list)

Posted by tigs Feb 22, 2009
I've noticed lately (past few days at least, maybe more...but I was kinda busy) that I have become very restless. Wanting to get up and move around, pace, DO something. Now, I've also started doing exercise about every other day at least (strength and cardio both), and I don't know whether this is a stage in the quit per se, or whether it is my body getting used to moving again and having a tantrum when I am just sitting (even if I am doing something!)

Don't get me wrong, this is NOT a "going to drive me crazy" thing. Its just....interesting, I guess. And I'm just wondering which part of getting healthier it is coming from lol...

At any rate, I thought I'd do something positive with it , and blog about the restlessness..and start a list of things to do with the restlessness. Hopefully others can add to the list and we can all have a great set of ideas for when it hits!

1. exercise
2. clean for a little while (repeat as needed)
3 play with a child
4 play with a pet
5. plan your garden
6 plan a vacation
7 go shopping
8 go out with some friends
9 volunteer at a shelter, assisted living, thrift shop, etc
10. go out on the street ( in a safe area...) and say hello with a smile to strangers
11 read a great book, or re-read a favorite one
12 blog
13 journal (yes, I mean on paper!)
14 get back to making a craft you used to do
15 go clean up a nearby park or streambed
16 go for a walk with a bag, and clean up your street
17 (when its warm enough)....plant a garden (or planter/windowbox)
18. meet a neighbor you haven't met yet
19. Learn a new hobby
20 Go through your stuff and toss/donate/recycle (as appropriate) things you don't use or need.

YOUR TURN!!!!

Just a little Update

Posted by tigs Feb 17, 2009
Just wanted to stop in and visit for a bit, and here I find people all worried about me!!! Isn't that sweet! I am doing pretty well, I think. We just finished going through a major external review at work...very stressful, especially this year with so many budget cuts everywhere! Did great going through all the files, checking the paperwork was all in order, etc...while doing all the regular work,too, of course....Then...driving home the last day *before* the review...cravings big time!!! I'm guessing the trigger of the first review since quitting (smoking was always the excuse for a break, doncha know...) was what was up there.... no worries, didn't cave...just surprised me with how much I suddenly thought about that cig!

Funny, I've had a bit more craving since then. To deal with it, I have been taking my breaks in the patients' exercise room...on the treadmill or bike! Its nice to feel like I'm moving toward the other part of my goal, which is to get in better shape overall. (One short term goal is to be able to ride my bike to work when the weather warms up enough!). Its nice to have the machines there for exercising, especially when the weather is brrrrrrrrrr cold outside! So, exercising during breaks gives me my minimum of half hour of aerobic exercise each day! Then I can do some walking in the evening if I like on days when I am not strength training. I gained about 15 pounds during the first part of my quit (in a month!!! omg...) but I am slowlystarting to reverse that weight gain. And since I am definitely gaining strength, too...I am guessing I am losing more fat than the scales show at this point. Hopefully, by April I will be well on my way to losing the weight I've been wanting to lose since before quitting, and feeling better than I have in....well...since I can remember!

I just realized that my official 1 month date was V-day!!! LOL How nice!!! And my hubby is starting to talk about thinking about maybe quitting! Not there yet, but he *is* thinking about thinking about it, so that's progress!!! He has continued to smoke downstairs on the back porch when I am home....and is starting to smoke there even when I am asleep, or at work! He is happy about smoking less because of it, too. So....maybe he will decide to take the plunge, too. I'll just keep my fingers crossed!

So thanks everyone for caring, but I'm actually doing pretty well!

Been scarce lately

Posted by tigs Feb 6, 2009
Hello to everyone! I know I have been scarce lately, and after a few "crave" type posts. I hope I didn't worry anyone too much by the timing. Actually, I just realized I was thinking more about cigarettes when on here than when I am doing other things, so I haven't been on a lot. Besides, work is a bit hectic right now, a major systems review is coming up, and we are going through and checking everything to make sure all our ducks are in their little rows....while we are doing our regular work as well, of course...with no overtime, of course...

yeah lol.

I been a bit busy.

But, I have also been doing pretty well in the quit department. At the moment, I seem to be in the upper ends of the roller coaster, with a few quick thoughts and no major craves...week 3 passed and I forgot to notice (ooops!). My best friend has restarted her quit after she didn't make it in December, and I am spending a bit of time with her, helping her through the first few days. She is doing pretty well so far this time too.

Funny, the "first-time" trigger I hit this time was talking to a friend on the phone who called for some advice. I don't talk on the phone a whole lot anyway, but haven't had any problems with it since the first week or so. But this is the first time since I quit that I got a "help me, please?" call, a friend needing some support and advice. It was a mild trigger, I just realized I was looking for a cigarette during the call, and laughed out loud, litterally! Told my friend about it, and she laughed,....and she felt better after it, too. So here is one of those instances that a trigger/crave was a great thing!

So far, so good! Still having some mild wants, and brief thoughts this week, but not a lot of annoyance with the cig habit. Now...I just need to work on starting to get rid of the 15 pounds I gained when the quit was all I was focused on! OK, not quite 15 pounds, but more than 10. Weather is starting to get better, and the sun out longer, so that will help me get out and walking. Right now, I'm only really doing morning weight routines, cause they are quick and don't need a lot of room. Watching what I am eating again...

OK, I've rambled enough now..time to relax a bit and plan some meals before tomorrow's shopping trip! And thanks to everyone that has helped me so far!

What is this about?

Posted by tigs Jan 30, 2009
Hrmmm....the last two days, I have been going through......well, they are a lot *like* cravings, just much lower key. There is this physical.....edginess going on. Each one is pretty short...when I have timed them, they are around 4-5 minutes each. But they are awfully frequent. If I hadn''t been paying attention, I'd have said they were going on for hours, they are so one after the other. If they were stronger, I would call them craves, like the electric, stop everything so you can say "no" physical craves. But these are just weak sisters to those, just...ho hum, Ok, want a cig, yadda yadda..... and I go on with my day.

Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining at all. I see it as a victory! The same general feeling from day 1 and 2, but...its really easy to say "nope, I don't think so!" Poooooor last ditch effort of the nicodeamon? I hope so, as this is annoying (but I love that its only annoying, like a fly buzzing around your head :-) )

So....here's to victory, one step at a time!

2 weeks!!

Posted by tigs Jan 27, 2009
OK, its been a long day, so I am just going to make a short post. Heck week is over, too!!

Journal overview (just the general stuff from this week...)

Mostly, it has been easier to deal with the thoughts of smoking that are still coming along. I still think of a cig on waking every morning, but it is extremely mild and brief (thank goodness...mornings are not my strong time!! lol ) Most days, I still think of cigs that I notice ... ummm maybe 3 to 5 times during the day, and sometimes the desire for a cig is part of that (once, maybe twice a day). Some days really seem a breeze and others my addict brain just doesn't want to let go and will keep talking at me for half an hour or more. Thankfully, even these are getting less intense, although sometimes I think they will drive me nuts....lizard addict brain wants the cig, even when conscious grey matter brain doesn't.

I am beginning to see how I might actually get to a point where I don't even think of cigarettes at least some days now. And after dealing with the last couple of weeks of craves out of nowhere....that is as encouraging as being able to shovel 3 houses walks of snow, and feel GOOD afterwards!

Quitting is great because......

Posted by tigs Jan 23, 2009
It seems like lots of us are heading through that part of the quit where we are having a tough time with our thoughts telling us to "have juuuuust one". We all know that would be a stupid idea. So I thought we could all share the positive changes we have actually seen/felt since we quit. I'll be happy to start...

I can breathe better
My skin is less dry, and has better color
My hair is less dry and looks healthier
I can actually smell the fresh pine trees before I am all the way into the hills here
I can taste more delicate flavors in foods
I can exercise more without feeling like I will *die*
My muscles arent cramping as much
My voice is changing back toward its normal timber
My sinuses aren't constantly plugged up
I can actually hear better! (part of the sinus thing...)
I don't have to freak out about managing a cig in the middle of the day


I guess I should leave some for someone else, eh???

To shut the head up...

Posted by tigs Jan 22, 2009
Ok, this is starting to P*** me off...my head will *not* shut up about a cigarette!! Allll night....

The thing is, I actually don't want a cigarette...but my head keeps doing that "psssstt!! you know you miss it! Just one wouldn't hurt anything...c'mon...you know you want to! Just try it!..c'mon.."

Aaaaarghhh! This is really frustrating. Any hints about actually getting it to shut up? Tried pointing out that I actually don't want one, that I feel good now, looking at the damage it would do, getting busy....blah blah Made it through tonight ok, cause I'm about ready to go to sleep now..but this is gonna get real old real quick, so any suggestion for any future time would be much appreciated. I'm afraid that I'm going to getting beaten down by this if it goes on much more....just to get it to shut up.

Finally...Hell Week is DONE

Posted by tigs Jan 20, 2009
Yes!! Thanks to everyone here that posted and encouraged me (whether they knew it or not!), I finally made it past 7 days without a single puff!! I know I still have triggers, I know I'll still have craves and/or thoughts, but none of those can possibly hurt me, can they? NOPE!

Just a little celebration! A bit of mead....Salud!

Tougher, but doable

Posted by tigs Jan 19, 2009
Today was definitely tougher to deal with than it has been lately. Don't know if that is the lower dose of Chantix, or just the day 5-7 nicodemon last stand that everyone seems to have. Either way, its settled down now, and I'm doing fine. Heading out with hubby to a little dinner party with some friends. Made a nice orange cinnamon flan for the dessert, since others are making a mexican dinner. I do loooooove orange flan. Don't know why so many people make lime, but...to each their own! Hope it has enough time to cool so I can unmold it by the end of the dinner!
Almost back up to day 5, and this time, I am NOT going to slip/relapse. I am feeling much stronger indeed. I do still have cravings, but they are much weaker and they are fewer as well (a few a day). Body is still healing, but at least for the last day or so, it hasn't been a huge deal. Hopefully, that will continue.

The Chantix has been a huge help, especially the first few days of my quit. I think it also helped me get right back on the wagon when I slipped. I didn't finish the cig, cause it tasted horrible and didn't give me the "ahhhhhhh!" I was expecting, either. Two puffs, put it out. But you know what? The urges ramped right back up for the next couple days! If I had any doubts about being an addict, that pretty much clinches it, doesn't it? So...NTAP for me has to be the way to go, unless I want those 3600 more every year.

Interesting thing happened though on Friday morning. I did my morning routine getting ready for work, got the breakfast down, got more juice opened the Chantix, and realized I totally forgot BOTH of Thursday's doses. I had been more restless on Thursday, and thought "Gee that's weird", but that was about it. Craving levels/frequency were about the same. So today, I had the first nausea reaction to chantix after almost 3 weeks! I have decided to wean myself off of it so I don't have any huge changes in mood etc. I guess the Thursday misses were just to let me know ahead of time that I'd be OK if I did this. It prepared me to wean off with confidence instead of stress and worry.

Update

Posted by tigs Jan 16, 2009
Hi all

Wanted to let everyone know, I'm doing OK. Feeling a bit better than the last several days. No more fever, less sweats. Still detoxing, so I'm sure things will continue to evolve. Still staying strong this time. Craves happen, craves pass. I wish I could say its just boring, old hat. Its not, they are definitely still craves and they still sneak up on me. But I am remembering to laugh at them *and* myself, and remembering to not let myself get too tired again.

So far, so good! Up to 3 days smoke free again, and still counting.

Detox or Contagious???

Posted by tigs Jan 14, 2009
Ok, I know I am going to have some issues caused by getting 30 years of smoking crud out of my body. Lots of old toxins to deal with. So..I am dealing with the usual/common: sore dry throat, drippy sinuses, on and off achey lungs, etc. What I haven't see mentioned before is low grade fever, breaking out in sweats, and some sore lymph/glands in the neck.

I work in an office that deals w/ community based medical (injury) rehab. Some of the people we work with are pretty susceptible to infection, so I need to find out if these last are also common symptoms, or if I am sick? I don't want to create extra issues for the patients!! Today, I went to funding and professional meetings, but did not work with the patients because I didn't want to take that chance...went home sick instead. So...could people sound off and let me know whether or not you had any sweats, low fever (up about 2 degrees), or such during your quit?

Thanks for the input!! (PS started the quit on the 8th, started having these issues Sunday, slept all day yesterday)