I have been praying the Serenity Prayer a lot lately. It helps me to realize that there are some things that as much as I feel like I need to, I just can't control! So I did a personal inventory of what I am doing to help myself with Anxiety and have I covered my bases so to speak. I have to come to the conclusion that - yes, I am helping myself all that I can.
That actually was the easy part! The much harder part for me is to let go. That requires Trust - not my long suit! But I'm learning how to do it! Dale taught me that all I need to bring to the tablle is willingness, not willpower! He used it in a different context but I find that it applies here, too! So I willingly Trust in God to heal my Anxiety. Willpower just doesn't work because it's still trying to control! Willingness does.
My days are not so jam packed with busy - ness, now! I am Exercising every day but limit it to one hour a day. I'm still working 2 jobs but I'm also allowing myself permission to meditate every day. And instead of shaming myself for worrying, I'm keeping a worry time - a half hour I can drive myself crazy with worry! Then I lock it up (in my mind) and everything else that I can worry about that pops up throughout the day has to wait till tomorrow's worry time! And most important of all, I give myself permission to kick back with Friends and just Have FUN!
Life is a lot less stressful these days! Isn't it strange how that works? When I let go of the controls the whole Thomas runs better!
I have felt all of your prayers working in my Life and I'm so grateful to have Friends that I can Trust to have my back! Thank You ALL for hanging in there with me while I find this new, even better Thomas! My gratitude and admiration for this Community of loving people is unending!
I may not be completely over the hump but I can tell that I'm on a healthy, fulfilling pathway toward balance and peacefulness. Without all of YOU I can't say that I would have made it this far! THANK YOU!
