I went to bed at 8pm, turned TV on, and that's the last I remember lol
Got up at 5, didn't know what day it was, or what I had to do, so I got up, whew only Thursday,no place to go but Wal Mart.
So I finally got some rest, 1st time since my quit. My mind seems a LITTLE bit better, I drop things, I zone out, not focus. Not thinkin bout smoking but thinking of when I did smoke.
Less each day. I smelled my real house for the first time today, its an old house, its got that funky old smell to it. BUT its not SMOKE!.
I stopped for gas and while pumping it into my car, I saw cigarette ads all over the place and BOY WAS I SMILINGGGGG
I DONT HAVE TO SPEND MY MONEY ON THOSE NASTY THINGS
I wasnt stressed out ,to buy enough to last a few days so I can hide in my cave and work and not have to deal with anyone, just me and my cigarettes.
I sure dont miss that at all. Smoking REALLY DOES CAUSE ME STRESS
I never ever realized it, I just thought I was a BITCH!
When I leave my house, its SO EASY, just grab the keys and go...
I dont have to smoke before I go, count how many cigs I have left in my pack and decide if I should open a new pack or will this be enough on my trip... always opened a new pack (better be safe than sorry) once in the car, had to place them in their special little spot,ok there, all set, wait, shit forgot my lighter, now where did I put it? OMG anger building, grab a cig now so when you find a lighter you can light up real quick....
hahaha seriously, do I miss smoking?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Bout to hit my double digits :))
Jo
