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Whoa!

SkyGirl
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I was making pasta for lunch  (vegan mac & cheese...but that's a whole 'nother blog.  Yuck!)  The timer said the pasta still had to boil for six and a half minutes.  Out of NOWHERE, my brain said to me, "That's just enough time to smoke a cigarette.  Let's go out to the patio.  Where are your cigarettes?"  Out of the blue, I wanted a cigarette! 

Not badly. I wouldn't even call it a craving.  More like an ingrained response to having 6 free minutes.   It was more the surprise factor that took my breath away for a second.  I knew that I could still have that kind of an automatic thought at Day 106, because I'm in No Man's Land, but nevertheless, I was taken aback.

But I booted that thought and peeled a Clementine orange instead.

I don't smoke anymore.  I don't want THIS anymore:

YUCK.  Or this...

 

Well, now wait...my patio smoking haven never looked THAT bad!  But I hope you all get a sensory sense of disgust at those photos.  Yuck.

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I'm a 64 year-old flight attendant for a major US airline. Prior to that, I owned an ice cream store and six hot dog carts and put my five kids thru college on hot dog earnings! Prior to THAT, I was Director of International Administration for Domino's Pizza, Inc. I was married to my H.S. sweetheart (dad of my 5 kids) for 17 years. I've been with Jeff for 23 years, but we just finally got married in 2016! Jeff & I live in Cape Meares, OR right on the beach. I'm from Ann Arbor, MI, where many of my kids/relatives still live. My flying base is Washington, DC, where I have a condo that I stay in when I'm between flying trips. My dream is to retire and stay home with Jeff and my two cats, Kenneth & Barbara...not happening soon, though. So I go home whenever I can get a week or more off. I LOVE to meet up with other EXers in the cities where I lay over. I usually blog about what cities I'm laying over in, so let me know if I'm staying near you! I'll buy dinner!! Xxxooo, Sky