Going into Day 47: I didn't even know I was in No Man's Land yet...

Blog Post created by SkyGirl on Nov 13, 2012

I thought NML was Months 3,4 & 5.  I see, from reading blogs yesterday, that it starts after one month (Day 30).  Am I understanding this correctly?

If so, at Day 47, I'm already 17 days into NML and didn't even know it.  But I DID know that for the last couple of weeks I've been getting blue and more blue.  <------ (Pop Quiz: "Bluer Than Blue" was a hit song by one-hit wonder Michael Johnson in WHAT YEAR?  Oh, what lengths we go to to amuse ourselves whilst quitting, right?)

No Man's Land was just a far away concept when I quit.  I almost didn't believe it was real. Like I've said before, when I was just on my first few days of my Quit, I saw the folks posting blogs at Day 32, 45, 52, 61...and I just thought, "Wow...they've BEAT it.  They are OVER it.  Why are they still acting like they JUST quit???"

Hah.  Now I know better.  I CRIED today.  For NO reason.  Okay, because a sad love song was on the radio.  Oh, c'mon.  I'm a 57 year old woman.  I don't cry over Kleenex commercials or sad pop songs!

No Man's Land? 

I would describe it as I did earlier in a comment to freedom38:" It's when the 'high-five' feeling of those first days are over". 

It's when there are Newbies who obviously need more support than you do. (Upside?  You can give it!)

It's when you are doing okay with your Quit, but something feels empty, missing, lost.

It's when you can't think of anything important or interesting to say in your Blog. 

It's when you expect you should be happy with what you've accomplished so far, but you feel sort of depressed, blue, down, off-kilter.

It's when you don't think about cigarettes a lot and rarely get a crave...but when the rare crave hits, you just want to CRY.  Like a baby...

It's when you tell people that you quit smoking (just) 37, 48, 59, 68, 79 days ago...and are disappointed because nobody seems to think it's that big a deal after ALL those days.  (Little do they know...)

It's this strange, scary, wonderful, uncertain place.  Somewhere between being a SMOKER and being a forever not-ever-thinking-about-it-anymore NON-SMOKER...

Day 47 for me.  Dale says that I'll be out of NML at Day 130.  So...83 days to go.  I can do it.  You can do it, too.  Let us stick together, ok?