Here I am, on a layover in Newark. I have a luxurious hotel room, if fact, an AMAZING suite, given to me apparently because I am the Purser on this trip. I have EVERY reason to get comfortable, get in my jammies, turn on the big screen tv, crawl into the crispy clean sheets on the king-size bed,,, I've had a longer than usual flying day (14 hours) and I'm exhausted. But what did I do the moment I got checked into my suite? I changed into my sweats and came dowm to sit outside in the "smoker's area" outside the front door of this beautiful hotel, where I have sat for 45 minutes, chain smoking my guts out. When I would SOOO love to be upstairs in my room, enjoying a warm bath or watching tv. I'm really mad at myself for be ing this addicted to cigarettes. Should I move Imy Quit Date up? I don't want to wait until Sept 24. Is there such a thing as quitting too soon after you've realized you want to be done with cigarettes? I haven't finished all the reading that has been recommended. I have only tracked for five days. But I'm sitting here and I'm so mad at myself!
