About me: smoking is a whole number of things, plus I am an insulin dependant young diabetic.....and that relly should be the number one reason . Health is important,it means many things....it's as if cigarrettes give many of us a a soothing moment,I'm funny though because i know it's absurd,to Giulia,may I add you as a friend?and to owlfeather....amazing human being.In reading Allen Carr's book,it was a shock,like psycoanalysis,but it's as if that denial and feelingoh but one is not going to do anything.yes it does,it makes one feel sick,and trust me now smoking in public makes me feel like a junky.so i need to commit .funny how through this website i've been welcomed but my dualism sometimes takes over.Immagine me in 30 years all consumed by my own insecurities is not cool.Giulia! la sicilia is the only place I'd save from this very strange country.You're in NY,i was born there,then moved around for my father's job,I remember as a kid watching everyone smoke and liked the exhaled smoke....but then back to nyc,i started to try again in the italian lycéé and it was yukky,one day a classmate said let's go eat something down at the village,and with "il caffé"i lit one.he said okay,i don't get that and i felt so so stupid.at the time in the 90's many peopl in the city did not appreciate smokers,and i understand.I'd go to the fire escape stairs with my coffee and have my cigarrette.my mum and dad said if you are starting on this path dear daughter,it will be your proble,in our house you are not to be seen with a cigarrette........well i was 16 at that time and today i understand more than ever.didn't help to have an elder sister that came to vist and she smoked,my cousins inméxico smoke,and it was like oh no!!!!!!!!!someone close to me said:we are all going to pass one day dear,is this hoe you want to pass????nevermind so back to my complex work of translations,with no cigarrettes(tried nicotine gum and it made me a bit sick).in my 30's i even forget about them and even let them smoke away on their own,it's relly weird and now the tracking down has begun for me.To be honest with you,it does taste awful,and have met exsmokers and thay tell me that abstinence depends a lot on our own emotional baggage.so for now see you soon and thanks to Giulia and Owlfeather!i'm so shy,but hey,no one judges anyone,it's we that mostly judge ourselves.LOL,and to all those who have been able to continue with their solidity,thanks!
