SO I AM HERE TO TELL THE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH SO HELP ME GOD! I AM A 23 YR OLD FEMALE WHO WORKS FULL TIME, SMOKES FULL TIME!, AND GOES TO SCHOOL PART TIME. MY LIFE REVOLVES AROUND CIGARETTES. I MEAN TO THE POINT WHERE I AM NOT EVEN CRAVING THEM BUT I JUST LIGHT UP A MENTHOL 100, AND SMOKE IT TO THE BUTT. I STARTED SMOKING WHEN I WAS 12. I WOULD STEAL MY MOTHER'S WINSTON FULL FLAVERS BECAUSE SHE KEPT LIKE A CARTON AT A TIME AND I WOULD SMOKE UNTIL I WAS DIZZY AND I NEVER STOPPED! THEY KEPT CATCHING ME AND I LET EVERYTHING GO THROUGH ONE EAR AND OUT THE OTHER. I WATCHED MY MOTHER SLOWLY DIE FOR MANY YEARS. CANCER OF THIS, EMPHAZYMA OF THAT, ILLNESS AFTER ILLNESS. SHE FINALLY LOST HER BATTLE TO CANCER MAY 7TH, 2011 AT 820PM AND I SAT RIGHT THERE AND WATCHED HER PASS AWAY. ITS BEEN SOME TIME AND IVE HAD 3 MORE DEATHS IN MY FAMILY SINCE THEN. I RECENTLY HAD SOME CELLS SHOW UP THAT HAS ME ALL WORRIED AND MY DOCTOR TOLD ME FLAT OUT WHILE LOOKING ME IN THE EYES, "YOU NEED TO QUIT SMOKING, AND I AM NOT JUST TELLING YOU THAT TO SCARE YOU, I AM TELLING YOU THAT BECAUSE IT IS GOING TO KILL YOU." I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT BUT IVE TRIED THE GUMS, I SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION, I CANT TAKE THE CHANTIX, SO I JUST WANT TO DO IT COLD TURKEY PERIOD! WHERE DO I START? SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME! I NEED A GAME PLAN.. SO FAR I KNOW I WANT TO QUIT AND STAY SMOKE FREE, I WOULD LIKE TO WORK OUT BECAUSE IVE GAINED ABOUT 60 LBS IN THE LAST YEAR SINCE MY MOM DIED AND I NEED SOME NEW HOBBYS OBVIOUSLY TO KEEP MY HANDS BUSY!
