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Realizing I can be bought, dog bites, the Zika virus, and it doesnt require smoking.

Posamari
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18 DOF so far.  Breathing is much better, more active, appetite is getting ferocious. Ive found the toughest for me has been after I eat. I want a cigarette badly. Like my meal isnt complete or 'finished' unless I have a smoke (or2) afterwards. When does this urge go away? If I eat chocolate or sweet afterwards that seems to nip it some, but I dont want to get in that habit.

Today was a test for me on an emotional level. My daughter who lives and attends school in the Caribbean, St. Croix, was sick and down with the flu last week. She feels a lot better this week, but still has achey joints. Had a blood test done and it came back positive for Zika virus. She says its no big deal, but I guess me being mom, it is. I worry about it.  She doesnt plan on becoming pregnant in the next year, so its not a concern for her. And from what she told me, once you contact it, you have immunity from getting it again, which is a good thing. She got it from a mosquito bite.  Ive been a bit stressed about it. And im a little concerned also when I go to her graduation next month, I could get it. Its rampant in the islands right now and I dont bounce back from illnesses like I used to.  She said be prepared to wear a lot of bug repellant and to get bit because the mosquitos have been brutal this year. Yikes. I live in the high desert, we dont have mosquitos. When I lived east coast area, it was West Nile.  She said if I get Zika, its no big deal cos I dont plan on getting pregnant. Very matter of fact about it all.  You've got to be kidding. I wanted a smoke just to process all this I guess. Thank god I had no tobacco, lighters, nothing in the house. So decided to go for my walk a little earlier.  Started on my evening walk and about 3/4 mile in ,  3 little white poodley mixed yippy yappy dogs ran up to me barking and jumping. The owner is yelling at them, but they just ignore and continue to jump around my feet barking and acting obnoxious. I wanted to kick them....lol....but I froze instead. One of them,, the ringleader of the 'pack', I assume, reaches up and bites me on the calf!  I couldnt believe it! Owner finally gets them to calm down and puts them in the house. He apologizes profusely for the terrifying triplets , says they have never acted that way before (I think thats BS-- its obvious they act that way all the time-- you all know the 'kind' I'm speaking of) and offers to take me to the ER.......  OR....... get this....offers 100.00 and a bottle of tequila if I dont report the bite. The bite broke the skin but stitches not required, its small wound,  and he shows me the current rabies vaccine documents.  Earlier I had ordered new prescription eye glasses and sunglasses at the tune of 700.00 and that was with insurance, so there was another bit of anxiety. Can I be bought? Yes I can! Ha! I took the 100.00 and tequila (I dont really drink but will give it as a gift), signed a paper I would not hold him liable for dog bite and limped home. Drenched the bite with alcohol,  put bandage on it and wanted a cigarette AGAIN so bad! But I got thru it by reading blogs on the site. It really is a pillar of strength for me when I feel weak or just frustrated. I thank you all. The elders, the newbies, the in betweenies, the admins. All. And hey...I'm 100.00 richer. 

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